Disclaimer: I would love to say that I own Nathan, however I don't. I would love to own Keith, just because I absolutely love him, but I don't. I would love to say that I'm exactly like Brooke minus that entire whole entire slut thing, but I'm not. I utterly wish that they'd boot Haley off the show, but I'm pretty sure they won't.
In a nutshell, what I'm trying to say is; I got nothing.
Please do not sue. I'm not in the mood for a court hearing.
Summary: Brooke Davis hated a lot of things. But most of all she hated her reflection
The Shattered Reflection of Brooke Davis.
Chapter 4: Crashing Like A Tidal Wave.
You know it only breaks my heart
To see you standing in the dark, alone
Waiting there for me to come back
I'm too afraid to show
If it's coming over you
Like it's coming over me
I'm crashing like a tidal wave
That drags me out to sea
And I wanna be with you
And you wanna be with me
I'm crashing like a tidal wave
And I don't wanna be...
Stranded (stranded), stranded (stranded)
Stranded (stranded), stranded (stranded)
(And) I can only take so much
These tears are turning me to rust
I know you're waiting there for me
To come back
I'm too afraid to show
Stranded- Plumb.
She sometimes saw her self when she went to sleep at night. In the darkness she could see the person she was and she realizes how lonely she really was. And it kills her knowing that she can never go back to being the person she was. Oblivious to everyone hating her or mentally cursing her.
Some say that ignorance can kill you.
She thinks that the truth could kill you.
She sniffles and takes Boo Boo from his spot on her bedside desk. She hugs him tightly. She wonders if her old self will ever go away or if she's just going to stay there and haunt her. She wonders if she's ever going to stop wanting to cry. It seems that all she wants to do these days is cry.
She thinks over the day and wonders why Nathan came to her. Maybe he felt bad for her. Maybe he wanted to make sure she wasn't going to go off and kill herself. Maybe he wanted to see the Mighty Brooke Davis fall and break into a million pieces.
Or maybe he really cared.
She smiled bitterly at that. No one cares anymore.
Except aunt Eden. She cares. Aunt Eden cares about everybody.
Brooke wished that someone cared about her as much as aunt Eden does. Maybe then she wouldn't feel like such an utter and total failure.
So every time that Brooke Davis looks in that one corner and witnesses her old self, she'll grab Boo Boo and whisper to ghost of herself "I'm sorry that I'll never come back."
She wondered if the glares would ever stop.
She figured they wouldn't.
So she walks into the school with her head held up high.
It just comes crashing down like a tidal wave when she sees how happy Lucas and Peyton are.
She wonders if their just faking their happiness.
Like she always used to fake hers.
She feels a hand come down softly on her shoulder and she turns her head to see Nathan. She gives him her famous wobbly smile. "Hi Nate." She says softly.
"You going to be okay Brooke?" He looks at her with such care that she feels like crying. She looks over his shoulders and sees Haley burning her through her eyes.
Brooke forced a big smile on her face. "I'll be fine Nathan."
She turns and walks away. She lets her throat become tight and waits until she gets outside to where the "Smokers" go. She slides against the brick wall and sits on the cold hard ground. She doesn't care who sees, and she cries again.
She was sitting on the ground of the Garden when she saw Nathan come between the bushes. He sat down next to her and they sit in silence.
She knows something's on his mind. So she waits and lets him decide when the best time to talk is.
He clears his throat and starts to talk. "Haley thinks I'm going to leave her for you." Brooke stays silent. "I told her that she was being stupid and that I'd never leave her." She doesn't know whether to be offended or to be happy that he's faithful. "But she's Hell-bent on thinking that you're out to steal me from her." Brooke decides that she doesn't like Haley all that much anymore. "Brooke…I won't leave Haley."
She almost laughs in his face. "Won't and can't are two different things Nathan." She settles for that instead.
"I'll promise that I will always be here for you Brooke." He says.
She looks at him and gives him a sad smile. "Don't make promises that you don't intend on keeping."
"I'm sorry." He whispers. He gets up and kisses her forehead. She lets the tingle linger.
It's not until he's out of sight that she lets out a small "Me too."
And then she crashes like any other normal tidal wave.
Chapter four is now finished. I had a really hard time writing this chapter so I really want to know if it was well written or a piece of junk. Halloween is coming up really soon and I can't wait! I'm a Halloween buff. I'm really into all those sort of historical stuff. The Witch Trials for instance I find really fascinating!
Anyways onto my reviewers:
Imaslacker: The reason why I put that Brooke thinks that she'll go to Hell is because I think I'm going to Hell! I'm weird like that! I'm not really counting on this having any ship. That's how I do these stories. I don't know. The idea sort of just came to me after I watched General Hospital. I swear GH is my life. It gets my mind off of School that's going to kill me. Lol! I'm glad that you liked it!
HeavenLeigh88: I hate Haley too! I actually really hate her. I don't know why I just do. Maybe because she's like a lot of people that I know and I don't like. I like Nathan but I don't like him in this chapter. It broke my heart writing this because I love Nathan so much in the show! Hope you liked the chapter!
AnyWBshowlover: I'm glad that you like it.
Hemery: I am so sorry! That always happens to me. I think I have everyone that reviewed when I say my thank-you's and I miss someone. I am so sorry! I did read you stories and I really like them! Thank you for reading and reviewing it means a lot to me. I'm so swamped with school that its butchering me. I haven't been on for so long! Thank you again!
RoryNDean4ever: I've always like Brooke and Nathan and I've always hated Haley. I'm mean that way. Hope you liked it.
Tiffany Rae: Me too. I always thought that Brooke needed someone and I still do! I'm just waiting for Nathan and Brooke to get together. Even though they probably won't. I haven't been keeping track. Someone hit me for that! Thanks a lot for the review.
ForeverBrucas: I hope that this chapter was good. I love Brooke/Nathan but it didn't really fit into the storyline. Hope you liked it.
Clemsontigerchic: She does need to get a life! Haley is just a jealous witch and I hate her! She's such a witch that she doesn't need a costume for Halloween! Oh gosh that was mean wasn't it? A lot of people say that to me so I just wanted to give it a try on someone else. Lol! They would be great together…but not in this story, sorry! Thanks for the review and hoped you liked the chapter.
Chelsea: I think every "Strong" person in a show and in a movie need a story that shows their weakness. It makes them more human. I don't really like Leyton but I put them in this because it worked. But if you like them, more power to you! Thank you for the review.
If I forgot anyone I am so sorry! Please forgive and feel free to flame me!
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P.S. Does anyone watch the show Alias? Because I'm totally hooked on the couple Thomas and Rachel. The two new agents. Anyone else interested in that show? Or that couple?