Okay. Please review. Everything helps! I'm a 14 year old who wants
to be a writer one day and this is my first Lost fanfic (second fanfic
in general!). Tell me if anything I do here is out of character or just
simply nutty. I don't own anything of Lost, I just play with the
characters. Also, I'm thinking of a part II from Jack's POV but not
sure.
Anyways, on with this story...
Numbness is Falling
I loved rainy days when I was a kid. But really, I loved rainy autumn nights. A refreshing smell with a hint of smoke and moisture. Three different elements packed into one beautiful package. And the sky has a weird glow to it, tinted dark, dark purple with bits of glowing sky where light is near. Sounds of rain hitting pavement, cars, roofs, trees, anything within the rains way is mixed in with random honks from traffic forms a soothing rhythm. Sometimes on nights when my bravery level was off the chart, I'd shimmy on down toward the moist ground from my second floor room and feel the drip, drip, drip rain wrap around me. I'd start with my fingers at first, slowly stick my feet, legs, arms out and eventually have my whole body dripped, dripped, dripped on.
The cooling sensation was comforting at first. From comforting to bone chilling uncomfortable, rain numbed nonetheless. Finally when thoughts of Tom, my parents, my faults were numbed and washed away, I'd climb back into my room and sleep a restless sleep.
But that was back home, or at least my first home for about sixteen years. Before I screwed my life over. Before flight 815. Before Jack and polar bears and others and hatches and God knows what else.
Now I sit on the beach, waiting for the rain to numb my mistakes, the mysteries and the feelings for an almost stranger, I look up at the very same sky. Black. No dark purple glow. Different smell, too. The recipe doesn't require that much smoke. Rhythm is out of whack too; too soft as the droplets hit the soil and sand. But the feeling's the same in the end. It's always the same, no matter where I am. Loved and cleansed to uncomfortable and numb.
No matter what choice A makes me feel, choice B always makes it better.