A/N:Hi everyone. Sorry I didnt update sooner. I got banned for a past story and so the site didnt let me update. Also Ive been thinking about doing a lemon but I'm too scared to do anything. Please wish me luck. Thanks to everybody who reviewed my work because without you I wouldn't update anything (Noooooo!) so anyway, thanks. Also I'm thinking that they aren't enough drama, confusion, jumping off buildings, tears, Hisoka, and angst so if you could bare that you'll be just fine.

D/C:I don't own Yami No Matsuei.(sigh...a girl can dream)

TO:

-the reviewers who were there in the begining thank you and continue to read: Ellrohan, Jollyolly, Xelena, and RuByMoOn17

Also to my beta- Shuuichi Shindou-Uesugi

Chapter 5

They stood there in a half embrace.

MURAKI'S POV

I wanted an answer from him but the longer he took, the more I saw he was going to tell me no and run away--like he always did. Even with the clear truth in front of me I still hoped for the best because I loved him.

"...You know I cant."

"No. I know you like to run. What are you running to?" I pulled away from him.

"Why are you always making me do this!" He turned away from me. So all I did as stare at his back. What am I making him do? What am I doing wrong?

"Do you really want to leave?" I continued to speak to his back. He's such a fool. I whispered words and then a door flew up from the ground. "Leave!" He turned to me with wide eyes.

I couldn't tell if he was hurt so I continued to be cruel. "You want to leave right? LEAVE!"

Tears streamed down his beautiful eyes. So I guess he was hurt. We stared at each other for a moment. Why don't he just leave! Does he even know what he does to me?

"I... I'm sorry!" He ran to me. Wrapping his arms atound my neck. I was too shocked to react. We both fell to the ground. He moved his head up and I stared at him. I was still shocked that he hugged me and the weird position we were in. What on earth was he thinking?

"Please just stop." He rested his head on my shoulder. His hair smelled of apple pie.

"Stop what?" I pushed him so that we rolled, so I was on top ((a/n:Muraki should always be the seme. right? hehe)) I stared into his violet orbs. His eyes were so beautiful. I want to see those eyes everyday. I wanted to be with him... for eternity.

END MURAKI'S POV

TSUZUKI'S POV((a/n: You finally get Tsuzuki's POV! It took me awhile to gather Tsuzuki's thoughts. Sorry for the wait))

I always wondered what Muraki was doing that I wanted to be stopped. Yes he was a killer and yes he did unspeakable things but when we were like this he was just Muraki. I didn't hate Muraki. I hated what he did and how he handled things. I should never be thinking about him like this but I do. I'm wrong to desire Muraki.

He had to stop loving me, he had to stop hurting the people around me. I cant see Muraki and still be able to comfort Hisoka. It wouldn't be right. Even if I tried. His sliver hair rustled beneath the warm wind. He was almost perfect in my eyes. It was just that our lifes didn't let us be together. So I try to forget about him and everything he does but as soon as I wake up without him in my mind... somebody ended up dead.

"You have to stop everything."

"Whats everything?" He brushed my hair away from my eyes. Its almost like he reads my mind.

"Everything is the killing, the lying, all the hurt." I got to a sitting position even if I was enjoying our closeness.

"Tsuzuki?"

"Please don't call my name."

"I love you." He said it so quick I prayed it was all in my head. All I could do was stare. He had never told me straight that he loved me. My heart raced. No, NO! He's not supposeto-- I'm not... I mean. What do I do now!

"..."

"Are you going to respond?" He stared at me. I couldn't see it but I knew I was blushing, hard. I cant help but blush when he tells me that. Its like this is all a dream.

"I... I.. um." Whats wrong with me! This is too hard! I need Hisoka.

"Its ok."

"What?"

"You don't have to say anything but..."

"But what?" Now I'm nervous. What does he want with me?

"But you have to kiss me." He always seemed to have something behind his polite manner and charming smile. I want to kiss him maybe more than I should, but I do. I love Muraki Kazutaka. So I kissed him knowing that its going to be the last time. We were silent. I guess we didn't want to speak for the thought of our time together. But I cant just leave it like this so I decided to speak.

"I have to go."

"I guess you should." I was a little upset he didn't try to stop me. I guess he finally choose to let me go. We both got up and stared at the door. What was going to happen after I went back home? Just then I felta hand take mine. I felt my face get really hot so I turned away.

"Are you ready?"

"Yes" But I wasnt... I'm not ready to leave, but I have to leave to leave.We took the long hall again but this time he didn't lead. We were side by side, hand and hand. I didn't even realize I was smiling the whole time. Suddenly we were back at my house. Everything was the same except that Muraki wasn't there.

"So he left me. I guess I should go back to my normal life." I wonder if I will ever see him again. Humph, he cant stay away forever... Should I be happy or sad about that?

I walked up to the roof top of my mortal apartment. It was acceptable for every guardian of death to own a house for special assignments. I took in the view of Tokyo, Japan. It was beautiful but so much pain happened under its bright lights. Pain that I'm meant to stop. But I cant stop it. I cant stop loving Muraki and I cant stop Hisoka's hurt. If only I can run away from everything.

END TSUZUKI'S POV

Tsuzuki walked into the office as he usually did and went straight for the sweets. The office was quiet but Tsuzuki didn't notice under his eating.

"What are you doing here?" He turned to see Hisoka.

"Oh hello." He said with a big smile.

"Where the hell did you go? What happened?" Hisoka came up to Tsuzuki face. He stared straight in his eyes. "Answer!"

"I was only gone for one night. Why are you so mad!" He started to weep as puppy ears toped from his head. "Here do want some?" Tears still running down his big puppy eyes handed Hisoka a box of cookies. Hisoka hit the box out of Tsuzuki's hand.

"What the hell is wrong with you?"

"What?" Tsuzuki said truly looking confused.

"You've been gone for such a long time. Starting today you've been goon six weeks." Tears started to run down his eyes.

"Weeks?"

"You were classified dead a week ago!"

Author's Notes: If chapter was waay too short I'llget better next time.Yeah I'm the worst writer ever but I'm the best at cliff hangers, am I right? Muhmuhhaha( evil laugh while typing>:)! I don't think I got any angst in this chapter and Hisoka came in right at the end so right now I'm not too proud about this one. I'm not much of a planer so when I get to my computer I just wing it. If you don't like my way of writing just give me advise, ok? So how did you like this chapter? Hate it? love it? Should it be tossed in my face and burned? Tell me about it. Just REVIEW!