Truth Hurts

Disclaimer: As you know, JK owns all, except Ray (whom I own) and Lexie (who Icerelief2004 owns).

A/N: This is my first story so bear with me, please. R/R!

Chapter 1- All is Fair in Love and War

"What were you thinking?" Ray yelled at Sirius as she walked up to him. He started to stand up but she pushed him back down, but Sirius wasn't one to shut up easily.

"You're just mad because, for once, you were the one who was dumped. You can't stand the fact that somebody might not want to be with you!" Sirius stood up again and pushed her hand away before she got the chance to push him back down.

"How dare you!" Ray looked flustered for a moment but quickly recovered. "I love you and didn't want to hurt you. I didn't want us to get in a fight and break up. My past, your past, it doesn't matter! All that matters is our present and our future together."

"I have told you everything and never hid anything from you."

"Oh yeah? What about Laura? I never knew about her. Wasn't she your…what was it…your fiancé!"

"This isn't about me. This is about you and not being honest. And it's not like I kept anything else from you either."

"How am I supposed to believe that? We dated for three years before I found out that you were already engaged to another woman! But you know what? I don't care about that! I don't care about any of the girls that you were with. You know why? Because it doesn't matter to me. I couldn't even care less if you've slept with other girls before!"

"So you're telling me that I could go out tonight, get drunk, sleep with a bunch of girls and you wouldn't care?"

"If that is your plan, then fine. As long as you never, and I mean NEVER cheat on me. Because I couldn't take that. And I could never be the 'other woman' either. So if you want to go out and party, be my guest. Just do it before we get back together."

"And what makes you think we'll get back together?" Sirius asked, his voice as cold as ice.

"This." Ray wrapped her arms around him before he could object and kissed him. She didn't have to wait long before he kissed her back. He suddenly remembered that he was mad at her and pushed her away.

"No. Not this time, Ray." Sirius shook his head as he repeated, "Not this time." He turned and went upstairs. Ray just stood there, like she was oblivious to everything that had happened. Like she had blacked out and it wasn't real. She finally felt James walk up next to her and pull her down on a chair. Her vision was blurry and she tried to focus even though it seemed impossible. She refused to cry. She wouldn't cry. She wouldn't let herself feel the pain of her broken heart. She closed her eyes and the memories of Lucius hitting her when things didn't go his way came into her mind. She remembered lying to James, Sirius and Remus about where the bruises came from and them not really believing her. She squeezed her eyes tighter as she thought of the day her and Sirius first met. It was at James's house when they were six. That was the day that Lexie and her made a pact that they would always be friends no matter what. And they had always kept that promise. She remembered when Sirius first kissed her. James had dared them in their second year but it went on a lot longer than he had thought. It was because of James they were together. Because he had told each of them the 'character' to look for at the Halloween Ball in their 2nd year, and come to find out, he had set them up with the other. And their first actual date happened when he asked her to the Valentine Dance. But it wasn't until their Christmas in 5th year that she really knew they were destined for each other. She knew that day that she loved him and that that was enough. Her eyes fluttered opened as she looked around the room. Sirius was running back down the stairs to go to the library (shocking, I know). She immediately stood up as her friends looked at her quizzically. She stepped in front of him and wouldn't let him pass.

"Sirius Black, I love you and I promised you that I was yours forever and no one else's. I love you and if you can't see that, then you must be blind. I can't think of anything else but you even when we're mad at each other. It took me till now to realize I didn't need anything but you. And I really hope that you've already figured out that all you need is me so that I won't have to wait for you any longer. I refuse to wait for you because I know we have a future together. I don't care about anything right now except you and me. Does it really matter that in my past I've dated other guys? So what? I'm not interested in them. They were not the ones that I kept coming back to, but I never failed to come back to you. I didn't love him like I love you. And I know he didn't love me like you loved me. I know that it's impossible for anyone to know how I feel because I don't think anyone has as strong of a love for anyone as I do for you. I can't go on without you. I've tried it before and I couldn't breathe without feeling pain and misery. I've taken the easy way out and gone to a rebound-guy. I've been hurt physically, mentally, and emotionally just because I thought maybe I could do something without thinking of you. But I couldn't and I know I never will." Tears started to well up in her eyes but she still refused to cry.

"So here I am. Take it or leave it. If you think that you will ever want me then say so now, but if you walk away and walk out of here like it doesn't matter, there is no hope for us because I will not put myself through that again. I will not purposely set myself up just to be hurt again. And you may not know it, but I feel as bad right now as I did when I went out with Lucius. You never hurt me physically, but the emotional pain I have suffered seems so much worse. And I refuse to put myself in that position again. So right now. It's your decision. You can come back to me or you can walk away." Ray waited as Sirius just stood there as he replayed all the words in his head. No one in the room seemed to breathe as they watched what Sirius did.

"Ray, I-"

"No. Don't say anything. Just please do what I ask. Please. If you never listen to another thing I say, please just do this for me." He stood there again for another moment as everyone watched him. He shook his head and headed for the Portrait hole.

"I'm sorry." He muttered as he turned back around away from her.