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Chapter 10- I Never Meant To Be So Cold
Kyo stared at Tohru. He knew that she really was sorry. She was Tohru. She was always sorry and had honestly meant it when she said she was sorry. But he just couldn't forgive. Not now. Not after everything that he had just heard. He then looked away and stood to his feet. He let out a deep sigh and faced Tohru once more.
"I know your sorry. Believe me I really do know that you are sorry. But…you lied to me Tohru! You said you didn't love Yuki and you did! Why did you have to lie?" Kyo asked.
"Because I…I…"Tohru looked down at the floor. This couldn't be happening. Not now. She loved Yuki. Her feelings for him couldn't be possibly coming back now after all this time. It just didn't make sense. Was it because she had felt so bad for him. Because she had felt the pain that he was going through. What ever it was Tohru could feel her feelings for Kyo coming back. But her feelings for Yuki were just staying there.
"no…" she said lowly.
"No what Tohru? What are you talking about?" he asked harshly.
"I cant…I cant…I love you Kyo!" she shouted sending Kyo into so much confusion. So much pain. He didn't know what to do. He couldn't do anything. He was just told that she loved Yuki and not him. How could she have possibly loved him? It made no sense to him.
"What…I don't get it! You just told me you loved Yuki! Make up your damn mind Tohru!" he demanded.
"I do! I do still love Yuki! But I love you as well Kyo!" she cried out as tears poured down her cheeks.
That was it. Kyo couldn't take it anymore. He didn't want to hear another word out of her mouth. He couldn't handle anything else she was going to say that might break his heart more then it already was broken. If…that was even possible at the rate.
He turned around, now almost crying, and started to walk away. He didn't care if she followed of if she stayed there. As long as she didn't say another word to him. Nothing. He wanted peace. He wanted to get away from her. He thought her remembering would be good for the both of them. But he guessed wrong as he thought. He let out a deep sigh and blinked letting tears role down his cheeks. Torn, broken, in so much pain. He wouldn't even be able to right how much he was hurt on all the pieces of paper in the world right now. It was to much. He couldn't even find all of the pain that was surfing though his body right now. It was to much, and it was all to fast.
Tohru only cried as she followed Kyo. She loved him. She did. She knew that he didn't believe her when she said this. But she did. She still loved him like she had four years ago. And now he didn't even believe she loved him those four years ago. Who would? But then she thought, why would she make herself forget about everything if she didn't love him. She did that because she had loved him. She loved him so much to make herself forget. She had thought that Kyo was dead, and that it was her fault. And because of that she had made herself forget everything and everyone because of one person. So he couldn't just sit there and say she didn't really love him. Because she did. She only sighed like Kyo and kept crying silently.
They reached Shigure's house only to see everyone now leaving. Kisa had seen them coming back and ran up to Tohru. It was dark, and Kisa couldn't see her face.
"I'm going to go now Miss. Tohru." Kisa said politely not knowing that Tohru knew who she was.
She had grown so much, so beautiful since Tohru had last seen her. She couldn't believe it. She only managed to smile softly under her teary eyed face.
"Okay…good night…" she said.
But before Kisa could leave Tohru let out a small "oh god" and hugged Kisa harder then she had ever hugged anyone else before. Then she had seen Momiji. His face was covered with his hair. He had been looking down at the floor, upset of course. Tohru had so badly wanted to go over to him. To thank him. But at the same time now that she knew how he had felt about her it would only seem odd for her. And more then likely him as well. So she decided not to. She let Kisa go and only smiled once more. Kisa had wanted to ask something so badly. But she decided it would have been better if she didn't and she ran back over to Hiro.
Everyone had said there goodbyes to Tohru. She had wanted to so badly wanted to cry. But she had amazingly kept her tears back as her friends acted as if it were there first day meeting. Then came Yuki. He was smiling so softly at her. Like he knew. But she knew that he didn't. She only smiled back. But her heart didn't feel happy. Only sad when she saw Kyo looking down at the floor. He wasn't scolding Yuki like he would have done four years ago. He wasn't even trying to start a fight with him.
"Miss. Honda!" Yuki said as he ran over to Tohru.
Tohru had quickly looked down at the floor. He was still calling her Honda. She couldn't believe it.
"Are you and Kyo staying the night?" he asked cheerfully.
She went to go and answer but Kyo had interrupted.
"No we are not!" he said pretty cold.
"I wasn't asking you baka!" he shouted, reaching the peak of Kyo's anger.
"Oh that's it!" Kyo shouted angrily. "You are going down you damn rat!" he shouted and charged for Yuki.
"Pathetic…" Yuki said smoothly as he quickly moved out of the way.
But it had been four years, and Kyo had gotten good. Very good if I may say so myself. He had been training like crazy. And he knew he was now ready for Yuki.
Quickly he some how managed to turn himself around as he was still running at the same time. He made it over to Yuki before he could do anything and….WACK…right in the back of Yuki's head. Yuki fell forward as he was now shocked. He it the floor and only seconds later did he get back up and look evilly at Kyo.
"Why you…" he said so harshly and cold it sent chills down Tohru's spin.
Yuki charged towards Kyo only to be knocked right back down by him. Kyo had kicked him in the side and then backed away when he saw the worried look in Tohru's eyes.
"Stupid damn rat!" he shouted angrily. "I've been gone for four years! Did you honestly think that you not training and me training was going to do you any good?"
Of course he didn't get any answer. Only a cold stare. Kyo sighed and looked over at Tohru.
"You," he said more calmly now. "you can stay here if you want." he finished and then walked off.
"I'm sorry." Tohru said to Shigure. "But I'm afraid I cant stay the night." she bowed quickly and followed FAR behind Kyo.
That was it. After that night Tohru hadn't talked to Kyo again. It had been almost been two months now. And she didn't see Kyo that much. She would only see him once in a while in school. And when she did he would look away from her. She wanted to say something to him each time she saw him but she never did for some odd reason. Maybe because she felt it was wrong. But at the same time she knew she wouldn't be able to go through life without talking to anymore. Specially now that she remembered him.
"You sure you got it Tohru?" Hanajima called as she and Uo-chan left the room.
Tohru only nodded. She had volunteered to stay after class and clean up the room a little. She was in so much thought she had thought that this would help her mind flow away from some things. But as she finished up cleaning the classroom and stacking the chairs up, her now free mind had only been sent into more thoughts.
She walked out of the classroom, then remembering her book bag she ran back in to get it. Ditzy Tohru had some how put one of the chairs on top of her bag. She hoisted the chair up on onto the ground as she grabbed her bag. She then placed the chair back on top of the desk and ran out of the room. Only when she had ran out of the room she had bumped into someone.
She rubbed her head as she stood to her feet immediately apologizing as if it were a crime. But when she opened her eyes and saw who she had bumped into her heart broke into two.
"Ky…Kyo…" she stammered slightly.
Kyo hadn't said anything. He just looked away as if he didn't know her and continued his walking down the hallway. Why did it feel like she hated him even when he knew she didn't. He could tell all she wanted to do was be able to talk to him. Just like he wanted to be able to talk to her. But for some reason every time he saw her he only saw hatred for himself. Of course this didn't make much sense. But it was the truth. And he knew he was being completely stubborn. He could feel Tohru's sad eyes watching him as he left. And the only thing he could do now was actually stop and ask her something.
He turned around, and letting out a deep sigh of annoyance, asked:
"Would you like to go to the park?"
Tohru, who thought she would never hear another word come from Kyo's mouth again, nodded happily. Kyo only waited as Tohru walked over to his side. They started walking to the park in silence. Neither knowing what to say. Of course they wanted to talk to each other. But after that one night what more could they say to each other. Tohru couldn't keep on telling Kyo she really did still love him. Because she knew he didn't believe it. And Kyo couldn't keep on telling her she didn't mean it, it was only cruel. Something Kyo didn't like to be when it came to Tohru. It wasn't only because he loved her, but because she was just Tohru. How could one person be so mean to something so….so…fragile?
Then a question popped up onto Kyo's mind. Kyte. Tohru had said Kyte was her boyfriend once before. (mentioned in my…..I think second chapter…but I'm not sure...XD).
"Tohru, what ever happened to…Kyte?" Kyo asked as if it were something so horribly bad.
Tohru had actually laughed slightly and looked over at Kyo.
"Kyte?" she asked seeming as if he never really existed. "Lets just say he didn't last. He decided he wanted to be a loser. And he just wasn't right for me." she said with a little laughter in her voice still.
"Oh…um…I'm sorry?" Kyo said trying to feel bad for her. But he hadn't at all.
"No, don't be sorry." Tohru said as she and Kyo got to the park gates.
When they entered the park they both went silent. Kyo had some what led the way over to a tree and sat down under it. Tohru had done the same only she sat some what far from Kyo. It just didn't feel right sitting here with Kyo. She had him have somewhat of a misunderstanding the other night. And now here they were just sitting there, both silent, neither looking at each other, and both thinking of words to say. Tohru looked from the ground to the sky.
"Before I remembered anything, I used to come here alone. I would sit somewhere under a tree just like now and look up at the sky. Of course it was during the summer I would do this. So there were leaves to make the sky look more beautiful. But now the cold had come by and the sky only reminds me of a dark scary night." Tohru said as she now faced Kyo and smiled.
Kyo smiled back at her softly. He couldn't help it. He couldn't stay mad at her. He couldn't stop loving her. Ever. She was Tohru. She was the only person who had ever trusted him. Who actually loved him even when she knew the real him. She helped him. Stayed with him. She was always there smiling for him when he couldn't smile for himself. Tohru was his…his angel. He didn't want her to leave his life once more like she had done once before. He had thought that if she were to leave again he might actually go insane. Or at least something along those lines.
But he only wished he could honestly know if she felt the same way about him. Which we all know she did of course, but Kyo didn't know this. Though Tohru had told him not to long ago. Kyo was just blocking that night out of his mind. Trying to forget everything that had happened. But as he just sat here with Tohru it seemed like all the memories of-not that night- but the many memories they had before Tohru even knew how Kyo felt about her were coming back to him. Most of these weren't all good memories. Kyo was always mean to her. Cruel. But even then Tohru loved him. And even now there memories weren't good.
"I'm sorry Tohru," Kyo said out of no where.
"…sorry for what?" she asked a bit confused.
"All the pain I have caused you either in your past. Or future." Kyo said blankly to what was going on around him.
Tohru crawled over to Kyo and smiled slightly. She knew he was looking the other way so he didn't even know how close she was to him.
"Its not your fault." she said slightly making Kyo jump back in fright. Before Kyo could say anything else Tohru started talking once more. "Can we just please forget about things like that for now Kyo." She sighed lightly and tried to put a smile of happiness on her face. "I don't want to remember that stuff. It hurts a lot." she said.
Kyo only nodded at her solemnly. Then once again they both fell silent. Tohru hadn't moved from when she got closer to Kyo. But Kyo had. He had moved even closer to Tohru then they were before. Tohru, who was looking up at the sky, hadn't been paying attention at all. Her eyes were focused up at the stars and she had gotten lost in thought. She hadn't been thinking anything serious. Just some simple things. Kyo had thought she was thinking about some of the things in there past. And how he had really acted towards her. But she wasn't.
"Tohru," Kyo said breaking her from her thoughts.
She looked over at him noticing how closer he had gotten. Her heart skipped a few beats and she managed to smile. He smiled softly back to her. Before Tohru said anything Kyo stood to his feet and reached out with his arm for Tohru to grab a hold of. Which she did and Kyo helped her stand up.
"Come on I want to show you something." Kyo said so softly.
Tohru only nodded and followed Kyo. He led her past many trees and benches. Past many small restrooms that were in the park. At one point Kyo had lead Tohru into a part of the park that she had never seen before. And she would always come to the park after school and do some studying or reading. But never had she seen this place. It was beautiful. Trees were every where with small pretty flowers all over the flow. To Tohru it looked more like a jungle then anything else. The trees had vines hanging down and even vines connecting to other trees.
Kyo turned around to see her astonished face and smiled to himself. He had a hunch that she hadn't seen this place of the park yet. It was always his favorite place to be when he needed to think. Or just get away from the world like everyone needs to do once in a while. It also reminded him of Tohru. Beautiful. Peaceful. It would help him with his problems. Everything Tohru was, and would do. But there was only one spot in the entire park Kyo was sure that he was the only one who knew about it. There were never any other signs of people being there before. So it was always his most favorite spot.
That's where he was bringing Tohru. He thought that maybe she would like it just as much as he did.
Tohru was to busy looking around she hadn't even noticed that Kyo had come to a stop, and she accidentally bumped into him. She rubbed the top of her forehead and looked over Kyo's shoulder.
Her mouth dropped slightly open and her eyes widened with a sparkle in them. She was in an awe. She couldn't believe what she was seeing. Most people would have turned around right there not caring for the site that Tohru had been looking at. But Tohru loved what she was seeing and she pushed by Kyo to get a better look. Kyo only smiled, and walked up next to her.
"Like it?" he asked.
"Oh my…Kyo its gorgeous!" she said with so much happiness in her voice.
It was a lake, but not only a lake. Mountains. It was a huge lake and across all the way at the end of the lkae were the mountains. But all around the lake were trees only a few inches away from the water that had vines connecting to other vines that led right across the lake. Little flowers had-that Tohru now wondered how they were alive in this cold-were all around the trees and the lake. Sure, okay so it didn't sound do pretty, but if you were to see it in real life you would also be in a awe.
"Kyo-kun how did you find this?" she asked not taking her eyes off the wonderful place.
"Don't really remember." he said lying slightly.
After about five minutes Tohru decided to sit under a tree and rest. Kyo had gone and sat next to her, his eyes on her and only her. He couldn't take them off. She seemed so happy right now. So calm and peaceful. Not like any of the other days when he had seen her. Then she only looked miserable and like she was on the verge of death. But just doing once small thing for her made her the most happiest person right now. And seeing her this happy made Kyo one of the most happiest people in the world right now.
"I…thank you Kyo-kun." she said turning and facing him. "Even after everything I told you, you still accept me as a friend." she said softly.
Kyo only smiled and looked down at the floor. He wanted to be more then just friends with her. So much more then just friends. But if she didn't want to, then he wasn't going to push her into anything. Specially if it was something she didn't want to.
Tohru looked over at Kyo who was looking down at the floor.
He'll never think of me the same way he used to. She thought as she to now looked down at the floor. I've probably hurt him so badly he is afraid to be with me….
She thought as she to now looked down at the floor.She looked up and over at Kyo who was now looking at her as well. She quickly looked away as she felt her face turn a deep red.
Kyo smiled slightly and got even more closer to her then before. So when Tohru turned around this time she was face to face with Kyo. She made eye contact with him, and she was sure her heart had stopped beating. His red crimson eyes just stared at her. Not aggressively. Or eagerly. Nor sad. But, it was as if a question was lingering around in his eyes. An unanswerable question. Tohru looked harder for the question Kyo was holding back from asking. She wanted so desperately to find it. To know what he wanted to know. But she couldn't find it, and she was only making herself feel much more uncomfortable now that she was looking back and forth into his ruby red eyes.
She moved herself backwards and blushed so deeply that even if she turned around she was sure Kyo would be able to see it. So she didn't even bother to turn around. She only looked down at the ground.
"Tohru?" Kyo said so softly, so smoothly it sent chills down her spin and she couldn't help but look up. He had once again had that look in his eyes. That question she wanted to know. But she was afraid to ask what it was. He wanted to ask her something. Ask if something was okay for him to do. Then when Kyo moved closer once more, she knew. She knew what his silent question was. But after everything that had happened he was still willing to try it with her. To try and get her back?
She couldn't look away. It was like a trance on her body and she just couldn't turn her head. Kyo stopped from getting any closer to her. He wasn't going to do anything unless she agreed first. Not that it was a big deal. He only wanted to do one thing. But still, he wasn't going to do ANYTHING to Tohru unless she approved of it first. So there he sat, inches away from her face, waiting ever so patiently for her answer. Just the slightest nod would be good enough. But she wasn't doing anything. If he didn't no better he would have thought she wasn't even breathing.
But she wasn't turning a different color other then the red from blushing. And Kyo just sat there, waiting so patiently for her to answer his silent yet loving question.
Ok, so what did you all think? Good yes? See...now didnt i say it was going to be a KyoxTohru Fanfic. You people just need to be patient. See Yuki wasnt in this chapter, sure he was more then likely mentioned, but he was not in it. But i do have something to say to only to of my reviews...
1.haPPychEEryX92-You needa calm your ass down man! That review that you left me-joke or not- was not funny at all. Its my fanfic, and you shouldnt be threatening me like that! If you would have read what it fuckingsaid at the bottom where i always say something to my readers then you would have noticed that it said this was going to be a freaking KYOXTOHRU FANFIC ! so maybe next time read. And I am sorry if you were just joking..but dont joke like that!
2.mike- -smiles at you- thank you. dont worry if you are able to see i was most definitely not discouraged by the rude review i had gotten. And this is not going to be a YukixTohru fanfic. So dont worry. -smiles- hehe i was just wondering though, are you a guy? I'm not trying to sounds like im being a loser or anything, but if you are that is awesome cause i dont think i've ever had a guy read one of my fanfics before. lol. so its cool if your a guy!
Okay, now that i did that and said some thing to those reviews up there -looks up- i think i am done talking. -smiles- so thanks to all my readers and reviews. Please r/r thanks a lot.