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Okay, sorry for the long wait on this chapter, computer problems again. But...I'm getting my computer fixed soon so i should be able to update every other day! YES! lol...okay now on with the story

Chapter 11- Hard To Be Left Alone

His mind was screaming. His heart was pounding. He didn't want to have to wait any longer. And he couldn't pull away from her now. Not now. Not after how far he had gone. But Tohru wasnt answering him. She wouldn't even move. Not her eyes, nothing. Her eyes only stayed pinned with his. Fixed into a position that was unbreakable.

Tohru couldn't take it anymore either. She knew that Kyo wanted an answer from her. But at that very moment all she wanted him to do was get closer and just kiss her already. She tried so hard to show him this but for some reason he couldn't see her silent answer. She cried inside herself when she stood up to her feet, and turned around. Her face still beat red.

Kyo stood to his feet as well. He looked down at the floor his heart once again torn in two. He wanted to badly to be able to kiss her once more. But he had a thought she was going to do this.

"Tohru…I'm sorry. I should ha-" before Kyo could even finish Tohru had turned around and thrown herself into Kyo. This made him stumble backwards and he fell to the floor with Tohru on top of him. He managed to sit up but with great difficulty. Tohru was clinging to the front of his shirt. She had grabbed it and now pulled it into her hands. Kyo just stared down at her confused to what in the world she was doing. But then came the faintest sound. Next came a wet spot on Kyo's shirt were Tohru had rested her head. Right away he knew she was crying. But why?

She was the one who pulled away from him in the first place! So why would she be crying? Kyo went to go and pull her away from him so he could get a look at her face but she only held onto his shirt tighter. She didn't want him to pull her away for any reason. She needed so badly for someone to hold her. She couldn't take it any longer. Her heart had ached for to long now with out Kyo. She just wanted him to hold her, that's all she wanted. She didn't care if that's not how he wanted to show her he loved her. That's how she wanted him to show her.

She just kept her hands entangled with his shirt, and her head resting on his chest. Her crying didn't come to a stop. And Kyo still just sat there staring down at her. He wasn't embracing her like she wanted him to. Nor trying to comfort her. It wasn't that he didn't want to. No, he wanted to. It was, he knew something. Tohru was trying to tell him something. Not through words, but the same way he had done it. Through body motions, and just feelings. Emotions. Plan out emotions was there way of speaking right now.

Kyo looked at her more carefully as her sobbing only got worse. All she wanted to do was feel his arms wrap around her body. She needed to be comforted. Just when she thought Kyo would have never of done what she wanted him to, she felt his arms wrap around her small waist and he pulled her even more closer then she already was. That was it. She was happy. That's all she wanted. She just wanted to know some one still loved her. Someone was still in this world for her.

He wasn't exactly sure what she really wanted. The most he could see was that she wanted to be comforted. But he still didn't get why? Maybe it was because she had truly loved him, but then why would she have pulled away before? Kyo only sighed inside himself. He couldn't be completely angry with her. Or mad. Tohru had just gone through a lot, and maybe she just wasn't ready for anything yet. And that knew he could not get mad about.

"I'm sorry," Kyo said softly into her ear. "I shouldn't have done that." Kyo paused and pulled Tohru into an even tighter embrace. "I wont ever do anything unless I know your ready to take me back." He said.

Tohru could only nod slightly to his words as she tried to make herself calm down. But it didn't seem to be working. She only kept crying as Kyo just sat there holding her in his arms. Whispering to her to stop crying.

He had changed. He was now so caring towards her.

She took in a deep breath and tried to calm herself once more. This time it seemed to be working, and she pulled away from Kyo. Not that she had really wanted to, but she had thought Kyo wouldn't want to hold her anymore. Which she had thought wrong for when she had pulled away from Kyo, all he wanted to do was embrace her once more like he had just done. But now he was the one to think that maybe Tohru didn't want him to be holding her. So they were both thinking the wrong things.

Tohru once more stood to her feet and looked around, not knowing what to say. Silently, she was still crying. But Kyo didn't need to know this. If she stood and faced the darkness, then maybe he wouldn't be able to see. It wasn't that he had seen her. But he could just faintly here her. He stood to his feet as well and walked in front of her.

He tried looking at her face, but she wouldn't let him. She kept looking away, or down at the floor. But each time Kyo would only pry her head back to his face and try to look at her.

"please…" she said softly. "I…I just cant do this anymore. It hurts to much. I need to get away. Leave." Tohru said as she now let Kyo see her crying.

"L…leave?" Kyo stuttered. He was shocked, and didn't know what to say.

Tohru hadn't said anything to this. She only looked down at the ground as she still cried. Kyo was only confused. Completely and totally confused. She had just stood up and said she wanted to leave! He didn't know what to think. And now he was only getting annoyed as Tohru wouldn't answer him.

"I…I don't get it." he said.

"I cant take this anymore Kyo!" Tohru had some what shouted. "All this…this pain I feel. I…" Tohru looked up at Kyo now and he teary eyes met Kyo's confused ones. "Its just hurts me to much." Tohru said as she wiped away some tears that had fallen once more.

"Then please…" Kyo said as he got closer to Tohru. "Let me help you try and make this pain go away." he finished.

Tohru looked at him and smiled faintly. Only her smile wasn't out of sheer happy, but of something else. Like what Kyo had just said was a joke. Like she was about to laugh at him or something. Then she said her words that hurt him almost more then anything.

"Kyo," she started and took a step back from him. That look still on her face. "You…You are the one who causes me this pain."

When she said this Kyo was torn once more. He couldn't believe it. Was this something good, or bad? He just couldn't understand. And he also just couldn't take it anymore.

"Please…" he said once more getting Tohru's attention. "Please just me try…" he said as his head looked down at the floor. "I only want to be with you Tohru." He said as he now looked up and moved closer to her once more.

"NO!" She shouted as she pushed him back.

"I cant help you if you always push me away Tohru! That's all I want to do. All I want to do is be able to be with you. I love you Tohru! I always have, always will. I never stopped loving you not even after these four years that have gone by. Not even after that one night when I found out about you loving Yuki! NEVER!" he shouted as he now felt tears plunge to his eyes.

Tohru stared at Kyo. She knew it was all true, and she had know it before he had told her. But hearing him actually say this to her only made it ten times worse then just knowing it. Now what was she to do? Should she really leave? She had become so confused. She looked over at Kyo who was once more looking down at the ground.

She wanted to say something to him. But she didn't know what. She just didn't want to hear things like this anymore. When she did, and she would actually think to say something back to the person it would only hurt them more then it would herself. And she didn't want to hurt Kyo anymore then she had already done since she had remembered him.

All she wanted this to be was a peaceful and calm night. She didn't want it to turn into anything like this. Nothing like this. Maybe she really did need to leave. To get away from everything that was happening to her. She needed to get away from Kyo, and anything else that would only hurt her.

"You cant just run away from your fears!" Kyo shouted as he once again looked up at Tohru. "I never ran away when I knew that I couldn't beat Yuki! I never ran away when the time came for me to be locked up! I never ran….ever!" He shouted.

And he was right. Never had he ran. He never had even thought about running. But Tohru wasn't Kyo, and she wasn't going to change her mind just yet. Maybe something more from Kyo would make her change her mind. But not even she knew what this was. She couldn't careless what it was at this moment as well. She only wanted to leave. To get away from Kyo anyway she possibly could. And this, everything that was happening right now, was not helping her one little bit.

Kyo took a step towards her so he was only inches away from her. He looked down at her teary eyed face before he looked completely down at the floor. He only wanted her. Her only. Nothing else in the world could make him happy.

"are you just going to leave and not tell anyone that you remember any of them?" Kyo shouted to her, making her even more confused then she thought she could have become.

He was right though. She remembered, and the only one who knew about this was Kyo. She hadn't told anyone else about her memory's coming back. And this was the reason why. Problems. She didn't want to start more problems with anyone. She wanted everything to go back to normal like it was before. Before she remembered anyone, anything for that matter.

She sighed as she looked up at Kyo and wiped a fallen tear from her cheek.

"Sorry…" she said as she took a step back. "But…I….I just need to go. I need to go back home. I cant be near you for a while Kyo. I need…." Tohru took a deep breath trying to hold her tears back, then started talking again. "I need to not see you for…maybe for a long time." she said as she turned around taking one more glance at the beautiful spot she was in.

After doing this, she took another deep breath, turned and walked right past Kyo. Her head bent down the whole time so she wouldn't make eye contact with him. She could feel Kyo's gaze upon her, but she still didn't look at him.

Kyo watched her, but didn't stop her. After what she had just said it would only hurt himself-not her- but him if he had really tried to stop her. He let out a deep sigh as he knew that Tohru was long gone now. He only wished he would have turned around and at least walked behind her to make sure she wasn't hurt by anyone on her walk home.

His hands turned into fists and he clenched his teeth. Why did everything always have to turn out bad for him? No matter what it was, when it was, everything would always wind up being bad. It was like it was his fate. To love a horrible life alone.

"Tohru," he whispered to him self as he looked up at the sky covered by many stars. "I promise you…." he whispered once more before dropping down to the floor, his head placed in his hands and tears slowly rolling down his cheeks. He only wanted her. Nothing else. He couldn't ask fore more. If he were to get her then he would be the happiest person alive. But she didn't want him.

Tohru stumbled along the side walk, looking around just in case anyone was to pass by. She had become more cautious when alone at night.

She sighed as she leaned against a building and looked up at the radiant moon in the sky. A smile had mades its way across her face. But when she knew this, she couldn't find out why she had been smiling. Her smile quickly faded as she thought about Kyo. She looked down at the floor. Her eyes shut closed as she felt more tears form in her eyes. She didn't want to cry anymore. She was sick of crying over these things. This is why she wanted to leave. Maybe if she left it wouldn't hurt her anymore. But him Kyo, he would always come back to her mind making he rethink about leaving.

"Kyo…"she said softly to herself.

She opened her eyes and stood up from the building. She sighed, letting the tears now slide down her cheeks and once again started her walk home. She kept her eyes pinned to the sky, not watching where she was going. But at that moment, that very moment she had wished she had never even thought about going home.

She hummed lightly as she now felt herself hit something and stumbled backwards onto the floor. She hit the floor, as well as her head on a building, knocking her unconscious.

The boy whom she had bumped into stumbled backwards as well, but he had only fallen to the floor and was perfectly fine. He stood to his feet as fast as he could, apologies being said.

"I'm so sorry ma'am I didn-" The boy stopped when seeing Tohru just lying still on the floor not moving. His eyes widened with shock, and he immediately dropped down by her side.

"Miss. Honda!" Yuki shouted shacking her, trying to get her to wake up.

Tohru let out a small groan and tried to open her eyes. At first she didn't succeed in doing so. But when she tried again when hearing someone's voice she got them open. Her eyes made eye contact with a grayish purple color, and she immediately knew who it was.

"Y-Yuki..."

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