Title: Mistakes
Author: Athena
Rating: PG-13
Show: Dark Angel
Genre: Drama/Action/Romance
Pairing: M/A
Summary: A lonely night changed Max, Alec and Logan's life, probably forever. AU. Sets after "Hello, Goodbye"
Disclaimer: Nothing is mine.
A/N: ok, I know this is shorter than the last one, but I wanted to update fast because I'm leaving town for a few days… This one is totally M/A, so R&R please, and I hope you like it…
Part 5
Max was in her room, trying to entertain herself with the TV. Almost all the nights of her life were like that. When other people were sleeping, she had to stay awaked thanks to her damned shark DNA. It was true it came in handy from time to time, but she usually envied the ones who needed to sleep. Thankfully, Ben hadn't inherited it. He's a sleepyhead like Alec, she thought sadly. Alec It was hard seeing Ben everyday and knowing that he might never met his father.
She was trying to distract her mind from these sad thoughts, when she heard noises from the other side of the apartment. From Ben's room. Oh, my…
She blurred, ready to fight, but what she saw wasn't what she expected.
It was Alec.
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"Alec?"
He heard her voice calling his name. He turned his face to the door and there she was.
"Max"
It was like time hadn't passed through her. She was as beautiful as he remembered her.
Little Ben looked at his mom, and then to the stranger who might be his father. "Mom, do you know him?"
"Yeah, I do." She said smiling. "He's an old friend"
"Sorry about the breaking, Max. But you know I never like doors" Alec said grinning. It felt so good to see Max again; even when he knew she never loved him like he loved her.
"Why does he call you 'Max', mommy? Your name is Linda" .
" 'Max' was my name a long time ago, Ben", she said. "But now, my friend and I need to talk and you need to go back to sleep."
"Mom, come on! Let me stay with you, pls" he said, desperate to hear about his mom's past.
"Ben, it's a no. We'll talk tomorrow", she said smiling brightly.
Ben was surprised. He couldn't remember when was the last time he saw her smiling like that. "You promise?"
"I promise"
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"Hey, Maxie, you look amazing. These curls really look great on you" Alec said with his trademark smile on his handsome face.
Oh, god, I really missed that grin
"You don't look so bad yourself" Max said smiling too.
That wasn't what Alec expected. For a moment he thought this wasn't Max after all. Or maybe she's just happy, you idiot, living her dreamed life with the love of her life
Max felt like a teenage girl, all giggling and nervous. She felt a little embarrassed about it, but she can't help it; she just hoped he didn't notice … her desperation. She was so excited about seen him again that she was about of jumping him... 7 years of longing and waiting made that to you. Oh god, she wanted him so bad! But hell, who doesn't? He looks even better than 7 years ago, if that's even possible
But she knew she had to control herself; she didn't want to freak him out and drove him away. Besides, she didn't know if he even felt the same way she did. She wanted him forever, not just a one night-stand.
"It seems to me that Logan had treated you well" he said, trying to break the silence between. Not a good comment to make, as he'd find out later.
"I don't want to talk about him." Max said disgusted at the mention of her ex-husband's name. Alec was surprised. Since when Max is angry when someone mention Logan? "why, Max? Where's Logan? Is he on some EO mission?" Alec said serious.
"He's not here. And that's the only thing that matters." She couldn't blame Alec for asking about Logan, he had no idea of what had happened, but it still bothered her to hear his name after what he had done. "And please, don't mention him again. I'll explain it to you when I'm ready, but right now I can't talk about it"
"Geez Maxie, I was just making conversation", he said. Call it empathy, sixth sense, feline extra sensorial perception or whatever you want, but he felt, no, he knew that he was involved somehow on Max's problems with Logan, whatever they are. Geez, some things never changed
"It's fine, pretty boy. Just don't mention it again, or I gonna kick your ass" She said with the energy of old times, but it was clear the she wasn't angry at all; she just wanna say it, like if she was assuring herself that Alec was really there, that it wasn't some dream of hers.
"Maxie, Maxie… I thought your obsession with my ass had faded away with time. But I see you really missed it…. I hope it isn't the only thing you missed" Alec said suggestively. He knew he was playing with fire, she was a married woman by god's sake, but he couldn't resist teasing her. It almost felt like old times. God, I really missed our fights
But he never imagined that she had other things in mind.
"No, it isn't, Alec." Max said seductively. It's now or never
"The only thing I missed, I mean. I missed every piece of you. All you"
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She leaned closer and kissed him. Just like that, without warning. He sensed sort of a déjà vu; this kiss somehow made him remember that other kiss, the one that started everything between them that memorable night almost 8 years ago.
But unlike that night, it didn't felt wrong at all. He didn't think about it, he just kissed her back with all the love and passion he had been keeping for her all these years.
It was like if the world had stopped for a second, and there were only the two of them on it. He heard their hearts beating alike, synchronized, just like if they were one being. He felt emotions flowing through them. Their kiss was filled of hunger, lust, longing, desperation, emotion… and love? He wasn't sure. The only thing he knew is that he'd arrived to heaven.
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But she suddenly pulled back.
Oh, my God… she regrets it, Alec thought scared. All his emotions had been revealed in that kiss, he had bared his soul to her and she was about to throw it away. He was totally speechless; all his fears suddenly came back to hunt him. Am I not worthy of someone's love? Am I not worthy of HER love? He stared at her, afraid of what she was about to say for sure. That she was never his. That she had never loved him. That she was about to leave him again.
He could hear his heart still beating fast, because of the excitement of the glorious kiss they just shared, but it felt like if it had stopped when he heard her words. Words only said to him once before; words he thought he would never hear again.
"I love you"
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She said it. Those three little words she was always so afraid to say. Being unable to love , not been worthy of love, being rejected because she was different, were her greatest fears. That's why it took her so long to accept her love for Logan to begin with; and to realize that they weren't meant to be, when they finally had something. That's why she couldn't accept her love for Alec when she had the chance, blowing away her possible happiness.
But not anymore. She already had wasted 7 years away from him, and she wasn't willing to let him go again.
Although, Max's heart ached when she saw Alec completely motionless after… saying that words. She saw his hands slightly trembling, staring at her totally speechless, and she suddenly felt those fears came back with all their strength, filling her of doubts and worry. What if he never loved me? What if he has a family on his own, someone especial to come back with? What if…
But all her worries faded away when she felt his arms around her waist, and Alec pulled her close to him.
"I love you too", he said softly, kissing her gently on the forehead. "I always did"
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A/N: So, what do you think? It's the first romantic scene I ever wrote, so tell me what you think, please… ;P
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