Ren
I think I did a horrible thing yesterday.
After the party, me and Pirika were talking and stuff, and I just had to go and kiss her. She probably doesn't like me anyway, and now she's going to think I'm a big fat pervert, or worse still, she's going to get super angry with me and hate me. I should really apologise to her. If I don't get her angry, who knows? Maybe we could still be friends. She's probably hating me right now. I really cant stand that thought. Oh god… now I think I'm having a big fat headache just thinking about the whole thing… come to think of it, I felt sick this morning. Oh no… the Taos should NEVER get sick. Maybe I shall go rest. Not to mention apologise. But should I?
ARGH!
Pissed.
Pirika
Sorry for all the tear stains, but I just can't stop crying. You know the feeling when you get a huge surge of hope and then it all breaks apart and shatters? Ren just apologised for kissing me, that means, he didn't kiss me because he likes me. He didn't WANT to kiss me. Maybe he was drunk, I don't know. Maybe he's just being the nice guy he is. And now I'm even MORE depressed.
I HATE YOU REN TAO!
Why am I obsessing about this anyway?
I overreact.
I hate myself.
I'm going to bed.
Why am I still writing!
ARGH!
REN TAO I HATE YOU!
I SAID GO TO BED!
Ok. Calm down. Breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, breathe out, breathe in, br-
OMG!
I'm going insane.
I AM GOING TO PUT MY PEN DOWN RIGHT NOW.