Take Me to Your Heart

DISCLAIMER: I don't own the characters, settings and such. Credit goes to J.K. Rowling. I don't own the quote. I own my own plot and my made-up characters.

I was listening to 'Fix You' while I was typing this out. Inspiration! I like Coldplay.

Chapter 7: Fix You

Written by melancholic orchid

Tears stream down your face
I promise you I will learn from my mistakes
Tears stream down your face
And I

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you.

Fix You, Coldplay

Lily and James twisted their heads toward the owner of the cold, ghastly voice.

"Severus," Lily whispered faintly.

"What happened to common courtesy, Snivellus?" James remarked icily.

"Oh. I'm sorry for the intrusion," Severus retorted, sneering. Severus stared at the pair, huffed out an angry breath and stormed away.

"Severus!" Lily shouted, freeing herself from James' grasp. "Please, Severus. Wait!"

He continued trudging away, ignoring Lily's plea.

"Severus. Please. I didn't mean any of this. Severus, wait!" she begged.

"Liar!" he bellowed, tears pricked his eyes. Gasping for a breath, his tears disappeared from his steely eyes.

Lily approached to him cautiouslY. "Severus. I'm sorry," she whispered. Her eyes were begging for his forgiveness.

Severus scoffed at her apology. "I had to erase my pride and reputation just for saying thanks. You ditch me at this ridiculous occasion just to enjoy a moonlit stroll with this – this foolish bully. You've hurt and humiliated me and now you are asking for my forgiveness? What makes you think I'll forgive you now?"

"That's not true, Severus. I wasn't ditching you. I was heading to the washroom and I just had this – this encounter. Unexpectedly. Really. I did try to run away and meet up with you again. I'm telling the truth," she cried, feeling sorry for herself and Severus.

"Lily," Severus muttered coldly.

She opened her tightly squeezed eyes, and looked up at him.

"I like you. Or at least… I used to like you," he began, "You were the only person who wouldn't really fear me or take advantage of me. You've been a great tutor and possibly… a friend. I thought that if we went to this event together, we could get to know each other better and I could – possibly confess my fancy for you. I never realized I would be confessing now." He paused stiffly, angry at the words he had chosen. "I will forgive you, Lily Evans… but I will refuse to forget this." He stormed off, his black cloak, billowing angrily behind him.

Huge tears rolled down Lily's cheeks, her makeup dripping as the tears trickled. She placed her hands over her heart, feeling pain and confusion. She heard footsteps approaching her. A warm hand lay on her shoulder.

"Lily," James whispered.

Lily viciously bit her lip. She tasted blood. Sniffing back tears, she ran away, leaving James alone in the dark corridor.

Lily didn't return back to the Great Hall. Instead, she ran to the Gryffindor tower, her eyes red from her intense crying, her makeup was messed up on her face, her feet seared in pain as the straps of her shoes scraped her skin.

"Silly Fig," she muttered.

An entrance was revealed and she marched up to the girls' dorm. Slamming the door open, she threw herself on her four-poster bed and cried for her misery and discovery.

Why me?

Lily Evans wasn't able to sleep that night. Lying on her bed, she stared impassively at the dark, miserable, black ceiling.

The whole situation was too much for her that night. Her heart ached excruciatingly as tears poured like a waterfall from her tired, green eyes.

Why did this happen to me? She mentally pictured James and shot daggers of fire at him. Stupid, James. He just couldn't leave me alone, could he?

No. This is all just a dream. When I wake up, I'll forget that this had ever occurred. It's all a dream… Weeping, she leaned on her side, hugged her down pillow forcefully and prayed for some sleep.

For the next couple days, Lily ignored James' presence. Every time he asked her what happened, or if she was okay, Lily would just glare at him and walked away. Even during patrol duties, she would stand away from him as far as possible, not uttering a single word.

He thought that everything would go well after they shared that passionate snog on the night of the Halloween Fest. That idiot, Snivellus.

They were walking alone, simply on patrolling duties. Lily was gripping her wand harder than she needed to, her breathing tense and depressed.

"You know," he said, "You can stop wallowing in pain."

"Leave me alone," she mumbled. Her first sentence since the Halloween Fest! At least she's talking again… sort of.

"No, Lily. I won't leave you alone."

"Well you should. We're strictly on duties. So stick your stubborn ass somewhere else."

James' faced twisted into a frown. "I'm trying to help you, Lily," he said serenely, "I know you've gone through a rough time recently. But I'm here to help you… to fix you. I love you, Lily and I want to repair the wounded heart you're holding."

He could tell that she couldn't compress the pain inside herself any longer and burst into silent tears.

"You shatter me apart and now you think you can fix me?" she remarked.

"Lily. I wouldn't have done that if I knew what was going to happen. I just couldn't contain myself any longer. I needed you to know that I love you," James replied, feeling hurt, "I'm sorry."

"Apologies don't repair everything. Not this. Please, James. Can we drop this?"

"No. Not now. Not until you can smile again."

Lily faked a smile. "There. I smiled. Now we can drop it."

"No. You're still whimpering in pain. I'm not stupid and neither are you."

Lily gazed at her shoes.

"Just let it all out, Lily. Yell at me, scream, slap me… whatever that would make you feel better."

Lily smiled dimly. "If I wanted to be content again, I would've murdered the one who ripped my heart. But that wouldn't have been very civilized of me."

James smiled. "No. It wouldn't have been civilized at all. But if that is what will make you happy, then kill me." He stood in front of her, extending his arms straight out, acting as a target dummy. Lily smiled and pushed him aside.

"No. It's okay," Lily whispered.

"Want to tell me what happened between you and Snivellus?"

She grimaced at him. "Stop calling him that. It's Severus."

"Want to tell me what happened between you and Severus?" he repeated.

"I don't know… not really."

James nodded, feeling disappointed.

"Well, if you ever need any confrontations… I'm all ears."

Lily nodded. "Thank you, James. I feel a bit better now." She stood up on her toes and lightly brushed her lips on his cheek. James blushed, grinning at her faded smiled on her tear-stained face.

I can't! No! It's not possible? Am I falling in love with him? No! I'm just dreaming. Yes. Just dreaming…

"Lily! Wake up!"

"What? Is that you, James" she replied groggily.

"James?" the voiced said, perplexed, "No, no, dear. It's me. Alice."

"What! Ack! Sorry, Alice."

"Silly girl," she chuckled, "What made you think I was James?"

Lily blushed in embarrassment. Maybe it's for the best that she didn't know about that awkward night. "Oh. I forgot that I am not patrolling anymore," she fibbed.

Alice looked at her in incredulity. "Well, you're not anymore." She paused. "Just wondering, is there anything going on between you two?"

Lily couldn't lie to her best friend and she knew it. She slumped back onto her bed and sighed. "I don't know, Alice. I don't know."

"What do you mean you don't know? I thought you were certain that you hate him."

Lily sighed heavily. She needed to tell her friend. After all, they promised to each other that they'd always tell each other their secrets. "I was certain. And now I don't know… it's like there's a new feeling, growing stronger every time I see him."

"You like him, don't you."

"I don't know!"

"When has this started?"

"I am not so sure. I think I just had a nightmare on the day of the Halloween Fest. I think it's just a bad dream but it felt so real."

"What was it about?"

Heaving a sigh, Lily decided to confront to her best friend about her 'nightmare'.

"Wow…" Alice smiled, "You kissed him."

"It's just a dream, Alice."

"I don't know, Lily. I'm pretty sure this isn't a dream. I mean you had never dreamed about James before… especially you kissing him."

Of course it wasn't a dream, Lily! Hello! You just wanted to believe that it was nothing but a dream.

"Do you miss it?" Alice asked.

"Miss what?" Lily retorted.

"His kisses."

Lily scoffed. "No…" She pressed her fingers to her lips. "At least I don't think so."

"Lily…" Alice whispered, seeing tears welled up in her eyes.

"I don't know what to feel anymore! I'm so confused! I can't even decide what colour of ink to write my papers with. How pathetic is that?"

"It's not pathetic at all, Lily," Alice assured her, "Falling in love makes one feel perplexed at first."

"Who said I am falling in love?"

"Who said you aren't?"

"Alice, please don't make this any more complicated than it already is."

"I'm not. I'm trying to help you make up your mind. If you remain confused like this, you're going to go mad. Sometimes love makes one crazy."

Lily didn't reply.

"Do you want to give this some thought, Lily?"

"Not really, but I guess I'll have to. I don't really have much of a choice now, do I?"

"Unless you want to be a nutcase, then no."

Lily giggled. Alice smiled.

"Take some time to get to know James better. Who knows? He might not be so bad after all. Besides, you did enjoy his snogging skills."

"Hmm… Yes. Okay."

A/N: Thanks Crodo and Lauren for being my editors. Thanks to you all who reviewed. Thank you!

I know. Severus sounds not cold-hearted enough. Here's my opinion of how he's so cruel nowadays. I think that he has a hard time in his family. Like his parents aren't so nice to him, maybe even abusive. He has problems in Hogwarts. Like James for example and he has no real friends. People can't really accept who he is or at least take the time to get to know him better… until Lily Evans tutored him. She was kind to him as she would be as kind to anyone (besides James). He started to like her. I guess he decided to take his chances with the game of fancy. Of course, he witnessed something so he lost all hope and his heart blackens and freezes into ice. He's only being cruel now because he never knew how to love or be loved. There. How touching… well not really. I just wanted you to understand why Severus seems OOC.

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