((Was listening to Christmas Songs..Yes,Christmas songs.Xander To Giles.))
You were my father.The drunken bastard who beats me and my mom isnt my father.Hes a sperm donor.You were always there for us.Buffy,Willow,Cordelia,Oz,Me,Dawn,Everyone.I wanted to invite you over for Christmas dinner.But I figured since I dont want to be there,why should you?I shouldnt let you sit in on this type of thing anyways.I want to be able to say Merry Christmas in my house without having something thrown at me or being thrown.I didnt want to go home.I wanted to stay in the warm library,full of boring books,but at least Im warm and with people who love me.Just as I was about to leave,you stopped me.I guess my goodbye had some disappointment in it.
"Would you like to have Christmas dinner with me?If your parents dont mind me."
I guess you became my father right at that moment.I shrugged and said alright.You looked at me and cleaned your glasses.I guess you didnt really mean it.I almost took it back but you said in five minutes we would leave.You have no idea what that meant to me right then.Not having to go home to those drunks to eat some ritz crackers and apple juice for Christmas.We drove to your house in silence.I flipped on the radio,Whitney Houston was playing.I left it there.I didnt know if that seemed weird or not but I kind of like Christmas songs.They make me feel better and I can pretend that I live with you and that we were going back home to a warm fire and a loving family.You didnt change the channel.I guess you were pretending too.
"Have some turkey.Go ahead.Im pretty full myself."
I ate so much.I hope you dont think Im a pig.Youve said it so many times already but you were playing around.Thats so strange.Giles joking around.But it seemed to fit.Such a cozy atmosphere.I love it here.Can I stay the night?Can I stay forever?
"Its so late.If you would like I could find some blankets and you could sleep on the couch.Or would you like me to drive you back?"
I want to stay!I want to stay!I just yawned and hoped to God you would take that as a HUGE hint.And you did.Thank you.
"Merry Christmas and goodnight Xander."
Merry Christmas..Dad.
((It was a bit lame.But it seemed..alright?Some parts seemed to hint at some slash.But thats not what Im trying to..say.Lol.Um Christmas song listening when tomorrow its Halloween.Haha.Nice.))