Chapter 9:

Lavender - Devotion

Starfire POV

I could feel the coldness sweep through my heart and I knew the worst was going to get the best of me. Somehow I was really starting to lose confidence of helping him. I think I was too late. And it really hurt.

When you love someone so deeply, and you find out their emotions can't return to you, do you just quit? Is there no other way? But we can't force love. People always say to just move on, but after saving something that you've trust so much how can you just let go? I knew this was going to be way harder than people saying 'move on'. They think its so simple. To just give up and leave. You can do that of course, its possible, but what if you still love them with out realizing and then you find out that you can't stop thinking of that person?

My mind told me that crying wasn't worth it, but my heart faced a heartbreak. I guess I never really got to tell him how I felt so it still seemed as though I still had a chance. But my hope slowly faded just as the snow when it melts the city.

Anger was really getting the best in me. I always blamed it on others. I kept saying to myself that 'She isn't good enough for him'

But was I?

I tend to be so sure of myself, but even I doubt myself.

I'm so tired. So tired.

But I wanted to keep going.

Was I?

I wanted to release all my feelings. Just to forget it all. Maybe I can use my anger against a punching bag instead of someone in particular. I knew who that was. I giggled while I walked down the dark halls.

While walking I heard soft footsteps but became louder as I approached. And I saw her. She looked friendly as usual. I knew I was wrong but I still didn't enjoy her presence. It felt as though she was trying to replace me.

She greeted me with her friendly smile.

"Hello Starfire, how are you?"

"Umm...I'm ok."

She arched her eyebrows.

"Hey, do you like Robin?"

She seemed pretty happy that she could read right through me. I felt my cheeks flushing red.

"Wha---What are you talking about, ummm thats not something you should-"

"You know he likes me right?"

My eyes flung open in surprise. I mean I always thought that they would have something more but that was just a thought!

Suddenly she came face to face to me and whispered in a harsh cold manner.

"Nothing would be greater than to see him fall."

She smiled and started walking back.

"Omigod..."

ROBINS POV

What really is our purpose in life? After 17 years of life I haven't really found one. Maybe to kill the one I've grown to hate so deeply, but is that really something you would want? To wake up everyday saying "I'll try hardeer to kill this man?"

Life made no more sense. The summer days seemed just like another day in whatI would call 'My hell'

I Wake up, find out whats once more wrong with the city, help those, and if I'm lucky get to see only one person die.

And those around me just couldn't understand how i felt. Nobody actually sat down and told me 'How is your life?'

What difference does it make anyway?

We all set out in different paths. Thats way we all had this certain ability. Because later in life that ability was going to take you places you never imagined. We were young and we always needed to stay tight, and stay together.

But now its like we don't need to confide in each other, we're not dying right?

We're changing I know it.

I heard a soft knock on my door.

"Umm...Excuse me Robin...its me....Rain."

Something wasn't right. It was her voice. I opened the door and saw her looking at the floor hiding something.

"Oh, I'm sorry, I just wanted those papers we went over today and--"

"Hey!"

I saw her face in the light and saw a light red bruise near the cheek. What was going on?

"Your face..."

She stared at me with saddened eyes

"No, its nothing really..."

And she started crying in front of me. It was if she was trying all her might to hold it in.

"Who did this to you?"

"P-Please don't tell. I don't think Starfire likes me."

HUH? Wait a minute, Starfire? Is she jealous or something? If she is then...but she shouldn't have done that. Why would she do that to Rain?

"I think I need to speak with her."

I closed my door and started to head straight to her room. This has gone way out of the limits. Suddenly she grabbed me by the waist.

"No....Please don't...It's ok....Really please don't tell."

Then I heard a gasped. First it looked like a shadow but when she entered the light...

Starfire....

Wow. Okay I'm out of words!!! First off i just want to apologize, you see I've had a writers block for a VERY VERY long time!!! Sorry for the long wait! Second is that im sorry. I did some drawings of how the characters will look like (which was a good inspiration that got me back on track) and they do look different, but pretty good! BUT, im sorry to say that it was only face sketches, but in the end (last chappie) Im gonna make one with a whole group, and something else....

hahahahahahahahha! I shall make you wait! Just kidding, i really wanna show it to you guys but i feel its not the right time....

So how was the chapter? Yes I know, SF didn't get there on time...:( nothing seems to be going right for her huh? Well next chapter I'll bring out a new SF you've never seen. Just to say I got a hint of inspiration from the manga 'Peach Girl' and 'Hot Gimmick'!

And last but not least, I know this chapter is short, but I got a solid idea for the next so don't be dissapointed because another will come out. Well thank you to everyone, i wish i could point out the specific, but theres just too many so thank you for reviewing.....AND PLEASE REVIEW...they help me to see whats wrong or where i should work at, and ideas would be great too, so review!! And thank you!!!

Good Bye! (but not for long)