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Chapter 9: Yellow Carnation, Rejection
Starfired POV:
I've never knew such words stung like that. While walking back I coundn't help but cry, and I guess it was a little loud since Raven came out of her room and quickly assured me that everything was going to okay. That was something that I personally thought was stupid.
'Everything is going to be alright.'
It was so far from it, and where I was headed to was dark. My malignity for Rain had started to boil again. I needed to know more about her. Maybe then I can find the real truth of her. But where do I start? I had nothing.
The feeling of strength that I thought I had had faded away, and I was back to stage one. Hatred was never going to set things right. Now tell me, when we had great wars, and massacares, it was from hatred, revenge, or treachery was it not? Did anything good came out of it? Just more lives lost.
So I decided to just wait and seize the moment when I finally know her true identity. But God, did I suffer. I really thought that maybe it just might have worked out. That his tractable mind would finally come to realize that it was all lies. I was such in great pain.
That dummy! that stupid block head! That that--
The tears started pouring, and it was uncontrollable.
I still loved him. I tried, and even though he has no trust in me, I still loved him.
Robin, I might cry forever without you.
Of course I was wrong since I woke up around midnight. Those tears dried up, but my face felt a little numb. And of course the hurt still remained. I sat up, and I glanced at my door as though I was in a trance, and plopped back down onto my bed. I was too tired to be thinking.
Suddenly my stomach grumbled. I felt my cheeks turned bright red. What a wonderful time for my stomach to grumble. So I started heading for the kitchen. I wonder what Beast Boy cooked today. Probably Miso Soup. It was usually something with Tofu since he hated the idea of eating animals he could transform to, so he stayed light, fit, and....umm...green? The halls were as dark as coal, and I couldn't hardly see except for the lights at the end of each hall. It really felt like home!
As I was walking down, I started thinking about something. Rejection. Now that I had thought about it, he really did reject me. He had no trust, he didn't stop, and think, and he chose someone whom he met when he was but a child. But was she even there when he was hurt, or when he was on the verge of getting himself killed again?
But I guess the realationship with me and Robin was anything, but procured.
There were good times, and bad times.
But sometimes people seem to make those bad times more important than the good ones.
This is when my heart seemed to drop. I saw his room and the lights were still on. As I got closer, I was getting more nervous, and I heard them talking. It seemed as though they were going to investigate more.
Was this the moment to seize?!
So yeah, I went into another empty room and started eavesdropping.
"This is where your going to set those devices alright?"
And I heard someone tapping hard onto a paper.
"Tommorow we can be rid of Slade once and for all."
What? How come the true titans were never notified of some mission?
"What time?" Robin spoke.
"Three forty five when everyone is asleep. And remember don't head into the building just yet."
Building? Did they already found out where Slades lair was? Why didn't Robin say anything? Why was he being so selfish? Didn't he understand that all of us has suffered from the wrong doings that Slade has done to us? Our fear was him. How could we be rid of our fear if someone did it for us? This made no sense. No sense at all.
Then I heard them change the subject and started talking of other useless junk. But even the smallest details count when building a realationship, huh?
After sitting in my room finished of eating my so called 'Dinner' I decided to take on the mission before them. Maybe it was a trap for Robin, and since he wouldn't listen to me, I was going to find out for myself.
Who would have known that this mission would be my last?
Authors note: Well I must say most parts in this chapter really was junk! Hahahaha. To tell you the truth most of the things I've written down is some things that I've experienced. Not like I lived on another plant, and monsters took my parents away but the emotions of guilt, jealousy, anger, loneylyness, and those awkward moments that some of the characters might have felt!
Wow, did I leave you off again? "Who would have known that this mission would be my last?" What do you think is going to happen?
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