Clark looked up at him suddenly with glassy and eyes and smiled as his body shook from pain and fear. "daddy..." he whispered. Tears began falling from his face.

"Oh God," he whispered.

"The pain won't go daddy, no matter how hard I try, it never goes away. I'm not human, nope Clarkie isn't a human...he can't cut himself with knives, guns...daddy...daddy help me," the rock suddenly slipped from his grip, as Clark buried his hands in his face.

"Oh...Clark," he collapsed over by his son and grabbed him in a strong embrace. Suddenly he realized Clark was still bleeding. Suddenly glad for instincts he threw the rock out the open window. He grabbed his son closely and held him.

"Oh God Clark," he felt his son's body start to shake as the boy sobbed into his arms, "daddy's here, I'm here angel-boy, I'm here," Jonathan whispered kissing his son's head.

"I...please, I wanna die," whimpered Clark as his wrists healed. Jonathan shook his head biting his lip as he thought of the right words.

"No Clark, no, no you don't," he pulled his son away, looking at the heartbroken boy. "You...Clark you help your mother and I get up every morning. If it wasn't for you and your brothers and sisters, your mother and I would be nothing. You are your mother's pride and joy, you're my little boy, Clark you were the first little boy I ever held in my arms. I love you, I love you and I need you. Please Clark, we'll get through this, but I won't let you quit, not now not ever. You are here to stay, and you're stuck with me...with us. Oh son, please, please don't leave me."

"Dad, it hurts, it really hurts," sobbed Clark. Jonathan nodded.

"I know sweetheart, I know, but we're here and we'll make this better. Whatever pain you're going through, whatever is troubling you, please don't hold back. Clark I'm you're father, I'm supposed to have all the answers. I don't always, but I promise I will always listen. God Clark, I love you, I don't know how many times I can tell you that."

"I love you dad, but I wanna make the pain stop."

"I know you do son, but the only way the pain will stop is if you talk about."

"I'm scared if I talk about all of it I'll never stop crying," whispered Clark. Jonathan nodded and held his son a little tighter.

"Than I will sit here with you until we've gone over everything that bothers you. Clark I'm here to talk to you, and as annoying as that may seem sometimes I want to help you."

"How do I make the pain stop?"

"Clark, about thirty-years ago, when I was maybe twenty-two or twenty-three...I had a very dear friend of mine...killed himself, the worst part was...I was there, I knew he was thinking about it, I was just downstairs...I heard the gun go off...Clark I can't lose you."

"I'm sorry dad..."

"I know you are buddy, I know..."

"You're not going to tell mom are you?"

"Your mother has enough on her plate, your sister collapsed outside this morning. That's why I was calling for you."

"What? Is she all right?"

"I don't know, we should go...Clark, I'm...."

"I know dad, let's talk about it later okay, I promise, you and me tonight."

"Can we make it a daily thing?"

"I'm always here, any time of the day or night."

"We...we should go," Jonathan nodded and got up, then helped his son up. They were headed down the stairs when Clark turned around, a stair lower than his father and looked up at the man.

"What?"

"You...you'd do anything for us, but you let us live our own lives, you've always been like a superhero to me...I just wanted you to know that," Jonathan smiled and pulled his son into a tight hug.

"You're the superhero, but thank you that means a lot to me."

Iluvwriting: I'm pleased that you like this story so much, and while I'm disappointed that you obviously don't like some scenes, I felt the need to put those two scenes for specific reason. The frist being that it wouldn't be realistic if I didn't show what life as parents is like. It was supposed to be humors because this story is beginning to get darker and sometimes it's the simple moments that needs to break it up. Second it being Martha and Jonathan I knew I couldn't go very far with them, but at the same time I love the idea of them as a couple and I wanted to give them their own moments in this story, so that you could see their lives as both parents and lovers. Third it's not half as bad as what they show on tv and I swear it'll be the last scene you'll see during this story. And I'm not trying to sound rude when I say this, that if you see another warning such as the one at the beginning of that chapter that you just completely skip that chapter. While it'll never get much further than kissing if you don't like reading it, then you may want to conitnue because not reading it probably won't affect the next chapter. Once again I'm not trying to be rude, and I was not offended by anything you said but I urge you to continue this story because it only gets better and currently there are no other scenes like that one.

Junior1985: My main goal in thses chapters is to make this pregnancy different than the others, in each once something different happened. In this part Martha is going to go several chapters and still be pregnant. So she will have the baby but not until nine months and two weeks after she finds out she's pregnant.