You've been waiting for it! Yes! I bring you, at last, chapter 10!

Disclaimer: I don't own Gundam Wing…. But if I did, I surely would hire Gackt to sing my songs, hehehe…

Part X

Unknown path

Wufei was sitting at the bottom of the staircase. The house was quiet. Everyone was gone. At his feet, his bags waited. Li-han was gone too. But her words still echoed in his mind. Her words, instead of soothing his soul, had thrown fire on the turmoil of his feelings.

"Wufei, what is happening with you? You were never like that. Yes, you were always stubborn but you never used to hurt people like that. Is it Meilan? Is she making you all these things?"

Angry, Wufei had answered that it was none of her business and had turned heels to exit the dining room. Had it stopped there, things would have been fine with Wufei. He would have been able to leave and never turn back. But she went on.

"Wufei. Meilan died in vain, yes. Meilan disappeared without warning. Yes, you could have saved her had you been at the right place at the right time"

Wufei had stopped, his hand on the door, shaking.

"But you weren't and she died. This is not something you can change. I have never blamed your, nor anyone has. Meilan, wherever she may rest now, surely, isn't blaming you."

Wufei had pleaded the woman to stop with a weak voice.

"One thing I am sure though. She most probably hates you and what you have become."

Wufei felt as if his body weighted a ton. He wanted to run away from this woman. He did not want to hear anymore of it but he just could not move. He was shivering.

"And if you are acting so because of her, she must hate herself too for it. Do you think she would be happy to see you wasting your life with grief and remorse when you ought to be happy? Do you think she would not envy you for being alive? If anything, Meilan wants you to be happy. Being happy does not mean to forget her, Wufei. Nor does being in love. Go on like this Wufei, and Meilan shall never be able to rest in peace. Nor shall you be able to live in peace with yourself."

Then she had left. Overwhelmed, Wufei had let his weight pull him down to the ground and had sat on the tiled floor a blank expression on his face. He could not remember how long he had sat there; only that it had seemed like ages. He himself felt like he had aged a lot. He had finally gotten up and walked to Sally's room to find it deserted. Slowly, he had made his bed and packed his belonging in his bags. The whole time his mind had been empty of all thoughts. Only his resolve had remained clear. He thought he must leave this house before he dishonoured Meilan's memory.

So there he was, at the bottom of the staircase, unable to move again. He did not know where Sally was at the moment, but he tried to convince himself that he didn't care.

"I bet she's crying in some dark corner of the house." He thought though the spirit was not there. He sneered.

The rain was pouring outside, unchanging. There was no point in waiting for it to stop. With a sigh, Wufei took his bags and walked to the door. His hand stopped on the doorknob, hesitating. He did not really know what he was expecting. Sally to run after him, maybe? The shadow of a smile crossed the Chinese man's face. That was ridiculous for him to think. Shaking his head slightly he pushed the door and walked out in the rain

The path down to the village was muddy and hard to walk. Plus, Wufei did not have an umbrella. His bags were heavy and he was getting soaked. He set his foot on a rock and slipped. Losing his balance he fell face first in the muddy road. Silently, he pushed himself up again. In the distance, the thunder roared. As the rain was soaking his body through and through, Li-han's words were coming back to his mind.

"One thing I am sure though. She most probably hates you and what you have become."

Wufei felt his throat tighten.

"She hates you."

Wufei clenched his jaw, his eyes burning.

"She died. This is not something you can change."

Wufei feet slipped again and he fell backward. He got himself back up with difficulty. Even in the rain, he could feel tears blinding his eyes and rolling down his cheeks. Yet he continued forward.

"Go on like this Wufei, and Meilan shall never be able to rest in peace. Nor shall you be able to live in peace with yourself."

Unable to hold it anymore, Wufei let out a loud sob. He slowly let himself slip on to his knee. He was soaked and covered in mud, but it did not matter. The pain, this terrible pain… All these years of war and regrets suddenly caught up with him. All the suffering, the death…

Had this life made any sense? Had everything he had fought for up until now been in vain? How could he have watched all of it without even blinking?

In the middle of a muddy road, in the middle of an ancient forest, Wufei sat holding his face in his hand, crying out loud in pain. With each sob more painful that the previous, Wufei felt as if they would take his life away. Helpless, he lifted his head to the sky and screamed with despair.

Of all his life, he had never been this scared…