Memory and Loss: A Itsuki x Sensui fanfiction
By: Neko-kyolover
Discaimer: I do not own Yu Yu Hakusho in anyway.
-We are living in a world where feelings can't reach beyond-
A touch, my fingers gently brush across your frozen cheek. I wish to stare into those eyes full of such intelligence and endless passion.Yet, they are dead now, chilled by the cruel hand of death. I hold you to my breast, wishing that my heartbeat could be transfered into your silent one, that my breath could become a part of you. If only I could spread my existence out to both of us.
The terrible silence pursues my soul. I can't feel you anymore, no matter how I press your cold fingers to mine.It's onlyas ifI'm brushing at a husk you've left farbehind. I need to be with you, wherever you are, to follow you to the ends of eternity. I know this can't be, but I need it.
Oh, the horrible reality stares me right in the face, but still I lean down to brush your lips with mine, the faint flutter of a kiss upon lips dead. I will never know the power of that kiss again. Only whispers of memory haunt me, endlessly torment me as I remember just exactly how it tasted, how it felt to be possessed entirely by you.
I won't break down and cry as though I lost everything, no, because I never had you. My heart aches with longing at just the thought of such a thing. No one could have ever been the sole object of your desires, no, because it was already accompied by your quest. I was something on the side, which you so soon forgot.
I can not forget though. The way you captured me was absolute. My heart remains with you even as I hold your lifeless body in my arms. Let me fade away, decay with this body, for it is all I have left of you ..
...and with out you, there is no point to me...