Chapter 13: Getting use to the System

After what Mitch said to her Lana did not speak to him for the rest of the way. Her mind took another one of those U-turns from happy to paranoid, which to her was getting very common. Lana tried her hardest to prevent her past from phasing her, she kept a good head after the rape and went on with her life. Now, everything she was trying so hard to get away from was crawling back to her. What does Jason really want from me? Lana asked herself. Revenge…to rape me again. She sighed I need Clark

"We are here." Mitch announced before he held the door open for her. She walked in and turned to face Mitch but kept her eyes off of him.

"I will waiting right out here for you." Lana nodded and proceeded to the classroom to begin her class. She took a deep breath and tried to reveal herself from some of her stress. Class had already started so it was too late to introduce herself to the professor; she quietly took a seat in the back.

Class was over and she went back into paranoia mode, for that 1 hour and 30 minutes she completely forget about the perils before her, but once she left the room it came tumbling back. Mitch kept his word and met her outside of the classroom, Mitch understood what he said hit her hard so he decided to keep quiet as they walked home.

Lana entered the dorm and she was the only one inside. She would welcome Mitch inside, instead of him standing out their all the time but right now she was mad at him for being so blunt with her. She plopped down on the couch, laid back and closed her eyes next thing you know Clark was shaking her awake.

"Lana." He called out.

"Mmm." She was now wide awake but refuse to open her eyes.

"Are you asleep?" Clark took a seat next to her and leaned up against her. "Cause if you weren't we could finish what we started." He parted her hair and slowly began to plant soft kisses on her neck. When she didn't react he pulled back and frowned. "What's the matter?"

"I'm not the mood, I just want to rest."

"Oh." He leaned off of her and scooted over. This sucked, he really wanted to continue since he wouldn't be seeing her for a while and mostly because he wanted to feel her skin against his and her lips against his. "Do you want me leave?" He said really expecting her to say no.

"Yeah." She said flatly.

Clark's feeling were hurt and he got off the couch then, walked into his bedroom. He couldn't understand the sudden change in her attitude from nice and damn near seductive to mean and a turn off. He took off all of his clothes except for his boxer and laid in bed; school work could wait. His ceiling had glow in the dark stars plastered all over the all and he looked up at them while he wondered about Lana. What is the matter with her? He asked himself. I hope that she gets over it and doesn't take it out on me. I hope that she is not made at me.

Lana laid on the couch and everything around her was quiet except for her inner thoughts. She knew what she said had bothered Clark, he was one of those sensitive guys, who would take one small comment to heart and even go as far as to blame themselves for something that happened even if they were not at fault. She got off the couch and walked into the bedroom.

Clark eyes left the stars above and looked straight ahead of him when he heard his door open. Lana walked in and began to crawl on the bed towards him. "What do you want?" Clark asked a bit harshly. Lana didn't answer instead she crawled on top of him sitting on his thigh.

"To say I'm sorry…" She leaned down and kissed his chest. "…and to say how much I love you (kiss)…how much I want you." (kiss)

Gulps. "I thought you weren't in the mood?"

"That was then, this is now." She leaned down and kissed him roughly as if to bruises his lips. Luckily Clark was prepared and made sure that he didn't bruise hers. Giving in to her, Clark began to suck on her bottom lip while she tended to his top. His excitement grew rapidly so did other valuable things. His life couldn't be any more perfect, he had a beautiful woman straddling him, on his BED and moaning for him. As they kissed passionately he began to tug at her blouse indicating that he wanted it off. Lana got the message and she quickly pulled it off and threw it on the floor. His eyes drifted to her breast, which were well mounded in a black lacey Victoria Secrets bra. He moaned at the sight of them and licked his lips hungerily. "Mmm. You are so beautiful." He flipped her over and was now lying in between of her legs. He kissed her all over her cleavage, chest and neck until eventually he wanted the now annoying bra off.

Clark wrapped his arms around her as she kissed him and played with his hair. He felt his way up to it's strap and unhooked it with ease. Clark had a little experience with hooking bras as a kid because Martha would need a little help, Daddy was never around so Clark had to do the task.

Lana felt her bra strapped unhooked and her breast relieved from the tight confinements of the bra. She felt him slowly removing to as he sucked on her lips, Lana felt like she had to stop him and yelled, "STOP!"

Clark immediately pulled his hands and lips way from her. "What?" He looked down at her confused. Why she was stopping him everything felt so right?

Lana felt her bra strapped unhooked and her breast relieved from the tight confinements of the bra. She felt him slowly removing it as he sucked on her lips, Lana felt like she had to stop him and yelled, "STOP!"

Clark immediately pulled his hands and lips way from her. "What?" He looked down at her confused, she was crying. Why she was stopping him everything felt so right? He left her pushing him shoulder so he quickly got from between her allowed her to sit up. As soon as she was free from him she got up and ran out the room with her arms covering her nearly exposed breast.

Clark kneeled on the bed alone, dumbfounded and terrified. He couldn't believe that Lana ran away from him like that, as he kneeled on the bed he questioned whether he hurt her or not. He really hoped that didn't, otherwise he would never forgive himself. With his super hearing he heard her sobs from the bathroom, which made him feel like more of a jerk.

Clark continued to listen to her cries, suddenly it dawned on him what he did wrong. What an idiot! He said to himself. He crawled out of bed and walked to the bathroom then, knocked on the door. "Lana? Can I come in?" He waited for a response but Lana ignored him and continued to sob. He knocked on the door again before he turned the door knock knob; it wasn't locked so he quietly slipped in.

"I'm sorry." Clark said softly. "I was moving to fast…I should have asked you first, it was wrong…I would never do anything to hurt you…I'm sorry." He stretched his arm out and touched her shoulder but she flinched.

"Don't touch me." She scooted farther away from him and stood with her back facing him.

He slowly took his had away from her shoulder brought it back to his side. "Lana I…"

"Can you just leave…me alone please?" Lana said between sobs, trying to be as polite as she possibly could in that situation.

Clark wanted to cry now, she was pushing him away and asking him to leave his OWN bathroom. But he should have known better than to go to another level without asking her. He scared her with his advances, and he was truly sorry. He left the bathroom and went back into his bedroom. Clark tried his hardest to tune off Lana's sniffs while he was changing into his work clothes but he failed. Once he finished he walked back to the bathroom and sighed when the realized that the door was locked. "I'm going to work early." He said softly from behind the door.

Sobs

"Do you need anything?" He quietly waited for a response but none came. "Well Mitch is just outside of the door if there is anything you need." There was still nothing from her except for faint crying. "I'll be back around 9: 20." Clark looked over at the clock it was only 2: 15, he still had 45 minutes until working hours actually began. But Lana didn't want to hang around the house and he didn't want to be there either all because of his guilt.

He sighed and walked out of the dorm passing ignoring Mitch completely. Once he got outside he got into his truck and took off for the Daily Planet.

Minutes passed and Lana eventually stopped crying. The product of her crying was a massive headache, so she decided to take a long shower to sooth some of the pain. She turned on the showerhead and adjusted the water to the way she wanted before shedding the rest of her clothes and getting under the cool water.

Under the pouring water Lana realized that she was shaking slightly, it wasn't the water temperature or a draft. What caused her to tremble was fear. When Clark unhooked her bra, whirls of memories came rushing back to her. Jason did more harm to her that she realized. Ever since he sexual abused her she was never intimate with any man until Clark. Fear simply over powered her, all Lana remembered from her first time was pain, pain that she didn't not want to experience again. She knew Clark wanted to be intimate with her, she even wanted to be intimate with him, but her sudden realization of fear is and will keep her away from intimacy for a long time.

Part 2:

A little while after she got out of the shower Kerry showed up at the dorm with Jeff his left-hand man Clark was his obviously right. So, Lana secluded herself to Clark's bedroom not wanting to interact with the guys. It was something about being with men alone in a small place that made her very uncomfortable, which was another reason to hate Jason. After about an hour and a half Lana became wearily of the small room, and tired of the computer. She looked over to the clock and saw that it was only 4: 46, to even up the score she decided to call Chloe over.

She walked outside of the bedroom and picked up the phone dialing Chloe's number. After a few rings Chloe picked up on the other line. "Hello?"

"Hey, Chloe this is Lana." Lana smiled, it was good to hear a familiar voice again. They had not spoken since the night that General told her she had to evacuate the premise.

"LANA!" The sound of Chloe's voice was happy and overjoyed. It's been so long since she spoke to her cousin, Chloe was worried and missed her greatly. "How have you been? I haven't heard from you in like forever."

"I'm sorry Chloe, things has been a little crazy around here." To say the least. "I'm just try to get use to it all…it's hard. I'm in a new area, new school, living with my boyfriend is a struggle of it's own and finding out that the man who raped you is hunting you down is not exactly comforting. So how am I you ask, not great."

Chloe sighed. "I'm sorry Lana. You know if I could some how place some of your problems on me I would."

"Thank you for saying that Chloe, it means a lot…would you like to come over?" Lana hoped that she would say yes, it wasn't about evening it up with Jeff and Kerry anymore, she needed someone to talk to and fast.

"Sure, sure…let me just wrap things up and I'll drive right over."

"That's great! Can you drive up in my jeep?"

"Yeah, I can do that, but how will I get home?"

"Jeff can take you…you guys are still dating right?" Chloe laughed heartily as if what Lana said was completely impossible and absurd. "Hell no. You were right Jeff is an ass, he was dating other girls when we were going out. When I found out I freaked, all he really wanted was to get in my pants."

"I'm sorry, Chloe. Kerry or Clark will take you home." Only then did she truly realize how good she had it with Clark. He loved her for who she was, and took care of her when she needed it most. He never forced himself on her and even promised to wait 'til marriage for her. Although, she knew at was not what he really wanted but he did it for her. His exact words were 'A guy is not suppose to want to wait, it's the girls duty to make them.' Clark was a great guy and would never cheat on her with anyone. He even set his first love Lois aside for her. Clark Kent was amazing and she still wanted to have his babies someday.

"No worries, there are more fish in sea and better ones at that. I'll be over soon." Chloe hung up at one end and Lana at the other. She looked over at Kerry and Jeff who was playing video games and shook her head. What a bunch of idiots She said to herself before returning to Clark's bedroom.

In no later than an hour Chloe came and knocked on the door. She didn't understand why a big, strong black guy was standing at the side of the door and watching her strangely. "Who are you?" He asked.

"Lana's cousin Chloe Sullivan." She said matter-of-factly.

"Let me see some ID." Before Chloe could question him Kerry opened the door and looked Chloe up and down.

"You're that Cleo girl aren't you?"

"No, I'm C-H-L-O-E. Lana's cousin, dating that ass wipe named Jeff, remember?

"As a matter of fact I do." He pointed at Mitch. "Don't mind him he is just Lana's body guard. Come on, I'll go get her for you." Kerry led her inside and to Clark's bedroom. "She is in here." He knocked on the door for her before resuming his gaming activities with Jeff. "Dude, quit cheating!"

Lana quickly got up and answered the opened the door hoping to find Chloe on the other end, and she did. She let out a scream before pulling Chloe into her embrace. "Oh my gosh, I missed you so much." She squealed and hugged her tightly.

Chloe giggled. "I missed you too but remember you have a boyfriend and I don't do my cousins…so let me go." Lana pulled away from her and playfully slapped her arm. "Ouch, that hurts."

Not to long Mitch came bursting through the doors fully armed and aiming his gun at Chloe. "Put your hands up!"

Chloe didn't protest she just quickly followed the orders given to her and she threw her hand as high up as she could.

"WHAT THE HELL." Lana yelled. "MITCH, WHAT ARE YOU DOING?" Jeff and Kerry watched on in terror and were rendered speechless. "SHE IS MY COUSIN!"

"NO, SHE IS JASON!" He waved his gun at Chloe who was now inches away from peeing on herself. Lana stumbled back, not believing what she was hearing. "I heard you screaming."

"That was because I was surprised to see her. HOW CAN SHE BE JASON?" She was confused, what was Mitch talking about. "She is my cousin, can you please put the gun down." Lana pleaded; slowly he lowered him gun and put it way. Chloe sighed in relief and dropped her hands. Lana walked up to Mitch and quietly asked. "Why did you think that she was Jason?"

Mitch didn't reply he figured she had enough to deal with so he slowly left the room. Lana turned around and gave Chloe a look, as if to say 'Do you see what I go through.' Chloe simply nodded.

With a broad smile Jason exited the Airport in Los Angeles, California. He looked around at the setting before him amazing sky, hot sun, and palm trees. Jason inhaled deeply in efforts to get a good smell of the air. "How long as it been?" He smiled and took in the air again. "Too long." Not before long a very pretty light skinned woman came running towards him happily. This is going to be fun.

"Baby, I missed you so much." She smiled and hopped into in arms.

Real fun He hugged her tightly. "I missed you too sweetheart. Let's go home."

The woman pulled away from him and gave him a brief kiss. "Let's. I have a surprise for you." She licked her lips seductively.

And the fun begins.

"Are you ok?" Chloe sat on the bed and Lana handed her a huge glass of water.

"I'm fine. That guy is no joke." Chloe quickly gulped down the water, she was still a bit shaky from what took place earlier.

Lana nodded. He really is no joke, but now Lana knew that he really was genuine about protecting her. But she couldn't understand why he would think that CHLOE was Jason. Lana knew he was keeping information from her, apart of her was glad but the other apart was curious to find out what it was. Lana veered off into space, as she tired to put the pieces together. Chloe saw the worried on her faced. "What's wrong, Lana?"

She quickly snapped out of her thoughts and played it off with a smile. "Nothing. So how is school and work?"

"Fine, Law is kicking my ass though." Chloe was studying to become a Lawyer, no doubt she was very inquisitive, stubborn, and down right argumentative key characteristics to Lawyer success.

"Don't worry, you have a nag for Law everything will workout eventually."

"Lana Lang always the optimist even under the darkest sky you still manage to find the stars." Chloe smiled. She admired her cousin, she smart, beautiful, optimistic, creative and always had away with guys. She wanted to be so much like her, but she knew she had to settle for second best.

Lana sighed. "Yeah, well lets just say that all the stars died out when I found out about Jason because, I see no bright side."

"What about Clark?"

Lana sighed. "He is…he was…I'm not so sure."

"What, what do you mean?

"Well, today I kind of pushed him away and I would not let him touch me. Then I told him to leave, and I'm afraid that I screwed things up with him. I know that I hurt his feelings, he must think that it's something he did, he must think that I don't like him or something." Lana could feel tears welling at her eyes. "He must hate me for the way I acted."

Part 3:

"Lana he doesn't hate you. Tell me what happened." Chloe patted a spot on the bed indicating for Lana to sit next to her. She nodded and sat on the bed. "Go no."

"We were under a tree somewhere on campus and we got caught up in a heated make out session. Eventually, we both had to get to class and we postponed it till later." She looked up at Chloe and she gave her an encouraging look to continue. "After class Mitch had to walk me home because Clark was still in class at the time. We were talking and he said something that disturbed me, so I kind of shut down and laid out on the couch when I got to the dorm."

"Go on."

"Well eventually Clark came home and had full intentions in continuing what we started earlier. I told him that I wasn't in the mood and that I wanted to be left alone. He complied and went into his bedroom, after a while I felt bad for turning him down the way I did and went to make it up to him." She paused.

"Uh-huh…keep going."

"Well, I crawled on top of him and starting kissing him while I apologized. Just like a man he accepted and, we started to get carried away. I kind of knew that things would go to far but I didn't care at that moment. He was already in his boxers so he saved me a lot of trouble; he took off my blouse and then flipped me over resting in between my legs. " Lana looked skeptically at Chloe, not sure if she should be discussing this with her. But, she took a deep breath and continued.

"We continued to kiss and I guess he got carried away because he unhooked by bra. I freaked out and shouted for him to stop, he did and I started to cry. I quickly pushed him off of me and ran to the bathroom…you should have seen how he looked at me Chloe when I told him to stop. He looked shocked, confused and even angry." She frowned and began to play with her fingers.

"Just because he looked at you that way, it doesn't mean that he hates you. It just means that he was surprised that's all…probably a little frustrated."

"It's not only that Chloe, he came to talk to me in the bathroom and I wouldn't allow him to touch me. I wouldn't even look or talk to him. I completely ignored him when he was trying to apologize. Now I think that he is upset, he has yet to call me."

Chloe sighed. "Lana Clark doesn't hate you and I'm sure he is more sorry than upset for going to far with you. He's probably busy working, that's why he hasn't called yet. I'm sure he will."

"I hope you are right Chloe, I can't lose him especially not right now."

"Don't worry." Chloe gave her a big and warm hug, something she knew that her cousin needed. "I have to go, why don't you call me later." Chloe handed her, her car keys.

"Already?" She whined and tucked her car keys in her pocket.

"Yeah, money calls." Chloe gave her another hug and stood up.

"I guess Kerry will have to take you home."

"I guess so."

They walked out into the living room and Lana called out to Kerry who was still busy playing video games. " Kerry, can you take Chloe home?" Kerry looked up from the couch and sighed.

"Sure." He said in a dragging tone of voice.

"Good boy. I might just give you a doggy treat when you get back." Kerry got up and gave her the that's-very-funny-look and Lana rolled her eyes at him.

"Let's go."

Lana escorted Chloe to the front door and smiled. "Take care."

"You too." There was another hug between the two. "If you need anything, I'm here." Chloe stated.

"Can we all wrap it up here, I have things to do." Lana rolled her eyes at Kerry once again before opening the door for them. They exited and she looked at Jeff Great, him and I alone under one roof. Some one shoot me now. Jeff smiled at her coyly and returned to his video game. She returned to the bedroom and starred up at the stars on the ceiling. She desperately held her cell phone in her hands and waited patiently for Clark to call her. Chloe said he would if he was able to but, he didn't. She eventually she gave up on waiting and fell asleep.

Work was finally over and Clark was able to return home after running about 13 errands for people. Hopefully in the next couple of years he would be able to have his own errand boy or girl. He got into his truck and drove off, in his mind he wondered about Lana and if she was still mad at him. Clark knew that he messed up but he hoped that she didn't hate him. Only minutes after driving off the Daily Planet parking lot, from his truck he heard cries for help. The people he heard sounded so much in distress that he couldn't ignore them. He quickly parked his truck and sped to where their cries were. He got there and saw a building raging with flames, the fire was wild and water didn't seem to tame it. Clark figured the cries were from people trapped inside of the building and without the firemen noticing he ran in to save them.

Lana woke up and looked at the clock on her cell phone. 10:58. Clark should be home by now She got up from the bed and walked out into the living room. No one. By the sound of things Jeff and Kerry both were gone. Lana picked up her cell phone and dialed Clark's number but there was no answer. She began to get worried and dialed his number two more times before running out to Frank. "Frank, have you seen Clark?"

"No, Ms. Lang." Frank said politely.

Her mouth began to get dry. Where was he? Why didn't he call? He probably doesn't even want to be around me let alone speak to me. "Are you sure he didn't stop by, not even for a second?"

"No, Ms. Lang. He was never here." She sighed and walked back to the bedroom. She sat on the bed and plopped back first on it. She tried her hardest to refrain from crying and she succeeded. Lana could not image where he was, he said his work finished at 9 and he would be home around 9:20 but, it was now 11:17.

Clark's POV:

I open the door slowly and there is my Lana, she is curled up in a ball and she is holding one of my plaid shirts. I am flattered but I'm also sad, sad that I wasn't there when I said I would be. I knew she was feeling lonely, otherwise why else would she be holding my shirt tightly in her arms? I walk over and kiss her on the cheek careful not to disturb her or get her dirty.

My whole face and body is fully covered with debris from the burning building which collapsed on me. My clothes are shredded and some parts I lost in the fire. I managed to save all 12 people from that burning tower of hell, and I can't help but feel proud of myself. I feel like saving people is my calling, but I don't know how to do it without exposing my power. I had to come up with a believable and secret free story for the cops, luckily I have experience in making up stories. I guarantee that tomorrow I will be all over the news and local new paper.

I smile. 'Probably even the Daily Planet.' I take off what's left of my clothes and quickly sped to the shower, not wanting Lana to wake up and see me in my naked state. After my long steamy shower and went back into my room to find Lana looking through my almost incinerated clothes.

She looks up at me with a worried look, definitely confused. "Clark where have you been? What happened to your clothes?" She stares at me waiting for an answer and I can't help but to feel uncomfortable since I'm only in my towel.

"Let me change and I'll tell you all about it." I smile and help her to her feet. I gaze into her eyes loving before apologizing for what happened earlier. "I'm sorry Lana, I got a little carried away, it's just that I want you so bad but, I will never do it again. I love you and I will never go against your wishes." She looks down and a tear drops from her cheek I gently placed my finger under her chin and raised her head back up to face me. She looks at me as happily and revealed. "What?"

She nods nothing, hugs me and tells me that she loves me back. "I love you too Clark and I am sorry for the way I handle things earlier. It's just that memories about Jason came right back in that one moment and I realized I'm not ready to be intimate with anyone yet. Jason took away my first time by force and I'm afraid to revisit that, and in that moment I did. I just need time but it will happen Clark, I promise."

"Lana you don't need to promise me anything, I will wait until you are ready and if that's never then let it be." She smiles brightly and hugs me again. I love it when she smiles; she is so beautiful and soft yet at times she could be bold, seductive and rough, she completes me. I kiss her on her forehead before she felt the room so that I could put on some clothing.

(A/N: Hopefully, there aren't a lot of errors. I was kind off in a rush, so I apologize if there is any. In this update it was my first time using POV, so I home I did ok. Hit me back (Review, don't actually hit me) and tell me what you think of everything?)