Chapter One
Green

James remained perfectly still, focusing all of his energy into not moving. He then slowly raised his head and narrowed his eyes. He was tuned into everything around him, the steady, gentle movement of the train, the soft fall of rain from outside, the three boys that sat with him in the carriage. He looked into Sirius Black's eyes, deep into the pupils, searching for the answer he was searching for.

"Green" James said finally.

Sirius opened his fisted hand and revealed a red every flavour bean.

"Damn." James mumbled. "I could've sworn it was green this time."

"Just a suggestion, Prongs, but you and Padfoot have been playing this stupid game for over three hours and every time you have guessed green, and every time it is not green, do you think maybe he has caught on?" Remus said, still looking down at his transfiguration book.

"Fine, if it bothers you that much we'll stop playing." James crossed his arms across his chest.

"I never said that it bothered me…" Remus shook his head and sighed, "Thanks. That will be greatly appreciated."

"For the record, Padfoot" James mumbled, "If Moony hadn't stopped us, I so would have won."

Remus loved his friends. They were the only three people in the world that he trusted with everything and would give his life for, but once a year he was forced to endure the painful seven hour train journey at the beginning of the school term. James and Sirius were not the type of people that enjoyed sitting in the same place for more then five minutes, except of course, for those rare nights of sleep. He exhaled a sigh of relief as he realized that he would not have to endure this torture again. It was seventh year, the long awaited final year of school. This was the last time Remus would ever have to travel to Hogwarts in this train. He closed his eyes and leant back in his seat. That thought made the prospect of the next few hours on the train with his friends slightly less painful.

"I'm bored." James sighed.

"Then go for a walk." Remus hated acting like the parent, but sometimes it was necessary.

"Fine, I will." James got up and trudged out of the carriage. As he walked towards the back of the train he smiled to himself and his walk became jauntier. His friends were so naive. Remus thought that he was so predictable, but was so wrong. James had made sure that he would not be missed by his friends so he could spend as much time as he wanted doing what he wanted…

What he wanted was Lily Evans, his green jellybean.Three months without even looking at her mysterious smile, three months of lying in bed, sleepless, wishing she was there to stop the pain he only felt when he was not with her.

He thought about Lily constantly. Every thought, every second…every lie.

No one knew. Not Sirius, not Remus…no one except Lily and himself. That was part of the passion and excitement he enjoyed, but it was hard to long for someone and to have to act like everything is different, but she was worth it, so perfect for him, so flawlessly perfect.

The reason why two people, so perfect for each other, were forced to hide, to only see each other secretly…well that's another story…for another chapter!

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