Only the Beginning

Disclaimer: I don't own Grey's Anatomy, nor any of the characters in Grey's Anatomy. I am just using them for entertainment purposes, but I am not making any money off of this.

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As they walked out of the hospital, Derek felt Addison put her arm around his. He smiled slightly, not knowing what else to do. She was his wife. They had been married for eleven years. He loved her. He knew he had to try to fix his marriage. Even though she had apologized, Derek still felt alittle uncomfortable with her. Addison was the kind of person that you wanted to hate but there was something about her that made you like her. Thats what caught Derek when they first met. He hadn't yet forgiven her completely for cheating on him, but she was his first love and again, he still loved her in some way.

But then again, he was head over heels for Meredith. The night they met changed him for the better. He smiled more. He laughed more. She helped him forget about Addison without even knowing it. Meredith was what he needed in his life. She was the kind of person that you loved from the beginning and just continued to love without any hatred. The thing that Derek loved the most about Meredith was that she was the complete opposite of Addison, on a personal level. He loved Meredith too.

When Meredith found out that Derek had a wife, she broke up with him for lying to her. How could he have done that to her they had been dating, sleeping together, and practically living together. Derek tried everything to get her back until Addison convinced him they should try to fix things between them. When Derek finally agreed, Meredtih realized she loved him. But it was too late.

Meanwhile upstairs, still in the hospital, Meredith had to do her rounds. Derek and Addison had the day off. Meredith couldn't help but think about Derek. She loved him. She knew deep down that he loved her. She hated the fact that he had chosen Addison over her.

"So what happened with McDreamy? Cristina wondered. "Meredith? Meredith?"

"Hmm?" Meredith was too tired and upset to even pay attention to her friends right now.

"What happened with McDreamy?" Cristina asked again.

"He chose her. He chose Addison. I actually said 'Pick me. Choose me. Love me.' I told him I loved him, but he chose her." It hurt Meredith to say this.

Cristina noticed that Meredith was about to cry, so she decided not to continue asking questions. She knew Meredith was hurt and didn't want to keep thinking about it.

"I'm sorry, Meredith. He's stupid not to have chosen you." commented George, giving her a small smile.

Izzy decided not to say anything, but went and sat next to her and gave her a hug. George and Cristina did the same, and they all sat there hugging her until Bailey walked into the locker.

"Rounds in five minutes. Let's move." yelled Bailey. She could see that they were tired. Heck, she was tired, but they still had to work. Before Meredith walked out to do her rounds, Bailey stopped her and took her to the side to talk to her. "If you can't work, tell me and I'll find something for you to do. In the meantime rooms 165, 191, and 201 have patients that need x-rays before we can find out whats wrong with them."

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Inside the Starbucks, Derek had gotten some coffee for him and Addison. He walked over to the table and sat down beside her. They both silently drank their coffee. She knew that he was thinking about Meredith but didn't want to start an argument. She was just happy that he hadn't signed the divorce papers. Derek sat there looking out the window that was in front of him. He wondered what Meredith was doing now. Was she thinking about him? Was she acting like nothing had happened? Derek knew he had hurt her bad, but it was for the good of his marriage. Addison and Derek continued to sit, until Addison broke the silence.

"What's wrong?" she asked noticing the expression on his face. He looked groggy. She could tell that he might have cried earlier but didn't want to say anything.

"Just tired. I need some sleep." Derek replied half-truthfully. The other half was of him thinking about Meredith. She was all that he could think about.

"Let's go home then. You can sleep, and I can finish up some things."

"O.k." was all Derek could say. He did need the sleep, and he didn't want to keep stressing over his decision. He made the right choice. Or did he?

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Ok that was chapter 1, not very long, but that's because I have to go to work in 30 minutes and I had this in my head all day during school. Tell me what you think and I will try to update as soon as possible, but I have to work all week long. Also, I'll try to have longer chapters. Thanks.