Disclaimers Notice: I do not own Inuyasha, though some day.(the
salmon that was in the freezer is brought out by my mysteriouse foe and
raised above my head) ok, never ever will I ever own Inuyasha and Co.
there! You happy!
Authors Beginning Note: Ok, this is going to be a short chapter, but it's worth it, to hear Kagome's answer.
Chapter 4
Kagome's Answer
"So, when are you going to go back?" Inuyasha held his breath, his jealousy forgotten. His attention was completely drawn to that slender girl, with raven black hair that was finer than silk. To her every movement. He couldn't breath, not wanting to miss her answer. What was only minutes seemed like eternity.
When will I go back? Will I go back? Should I go back? I'll miss everyone terribly and I'm sure that they will miss me.
Kagome's thoughts seemed to lighten at those happy thoughts but quickly darkened.
~*~ Flashback~*~
"Is that all I am to you? A burden? Or wait, no, that's not all I am to you, I'm not only a burden, I'm 'your shard detector' too, huh?!"
"Well you know what Inuyasha, no more. I won't take it any more. If all I am is a burden, consider me gone. Go find the jewels by yourself."
~*~ End Flashback~*~
He didn't even answer me? Is that all I truely was to him? All of those times, those moments. Even when we had faught before, we hadn't faught like this. I know he doesn't like to show his true feelings.but.when I asked him.I couldn't tell anything about him. It's like all of his emotions were suddenly shut to me. Like a door being slammed into my face. Maybe I should have waited longer for an answer.no.I gave him plenty of time.enough time to say no at least.I've tried Inuyasha.I at least had hoped we could have been friends.I thought we were.I love you Inuyasha.I foolishly gave my heart to you when I could have given it to another.but I chose you.I thought I meant at least something more to you other than a tool.I thought. maybe.but no. I guess I never meant anything to you.Not even when I tried my hardest.not even when I did my best.not even when I saved you those few times you were helpless.What about those few moments.when I was so sure.I saw love in your eyes for me.just for me.I guess maybe.you were imagining that I was Kikyo.I could never amount to Kikyo.but I could at least amount to my full potential.I was foolish to think that he may even have liked me. He never answered.I was his burden.I admit I was in danger a lot.but we all knew that risk.and I am more than just a shard detector! Why couldn't he see? Why wouldn't he see.maybe he couldn't.or wouldn't. Either way. he never answered.so I guess I am.just his burden.his 'shard detector'.nothing more than his tool.
New tears were starting to form in her eyes and they tore Inuyasha. Inuyasha felt helpless, he wanted to go to her but couldn't.
Oh, Kagome.I.please don't cry. I want to hold you.I want to pick you up and tell you how I feel about you.but it would hurt even more.I love Kikyo too.It's not a question of weather I love you or not.it's who I will choose.and Kagome.you don't know how hard it is.I'm in the middle of a war. I don't know what I really feel. Sometimes you make me so mad, and then other times.you make me feel alive.like I couldn't live a day with out you. I don't know why I do this to you.I don't know what makes me think I deserve you.I am only a Hanyou.a filthy half breed.and yet.you stood by my side.through everything.please don't leave me now.you said you never would.but this is different.or is it.Kagome.please come back.back to the Feudal Era.to your friends.to.me.please.
Hojo was looking at Kagome. His arm tightened slightly around her, menat to be like a comfort to her.
Oh Kagome.even when you are sad, you look as radiant as ever.why do you constantly refuse me? Everyone thinks we should be together.everyone except.you.maybe.you will be mine yet.maybe you will finally start caring for me.the way I care for you.When will you quite fighting me.and at least give me a chance.I care for you.but I can't wait forever.Kagome.will you please.come to me soon.I don't want to loose you.but if you intend to keep me waiting forever.than I will have to give my heart to another.but for now.for now we are together.is it too high of a price.your tears.are like rain.but if we stick together.maybe your sunshine will be able to come out brighter.and hopefully, I can be there.to bask in it.and be yours.
Everyone was still, all caught up in there thoughts, and yet full attention on Kagome. Hojo was thinking that maybe Kagome hadn't heard him, and was going to ask again when he heard a small whisper.
"I'm not going back." Kagome's voice was barely audible. A few strands of hair fell down onto her face. Hojo shook his head and gave her comforting squeeze on the shoulder. Inuyasha froze where he was; not wanting to believe what her heard, but he couldn't deny it. His face fell. His stomach fell even deeper, and his heart, torn. Everything was silent as a slight breeze came and played with the few rogue strands of Kagome's hair and blew some of Inuyasha's hair in his face, only to fall back into place.
"I think I'll go home now" Kagome said sullenly getting up. Hojo's hand slid down her harm and held onto her wrist, not wanting her to leave. Kagome gave a light tug, not looking at Hojo. Inuyasha's grip went back Tetsusaiga.
"Hojo, I should really be going now, please let go." Hojo stared at Kagome, Inuyasha stared at Hojo a look of death, just waiting for him to make a single wrong move so that he could slice and dice him into pieces. Hojo let go. Kagome walked off into the direction she had come, not looking back. Hojo sighed. He stood up, and then he too went home.
Inuyasha lept off of his perch and onto the ground. He stood staring at the place that Kagome had been sitting just a moment ago.
"I've lost her.I've really lost.Kagome." Inuyasha stood there staring. Not even allowing himself to cry. He wanted too, the tears were there, ready to fall, like a broken dam, but he wouldn't let them come.
Authors Ending Note: Ok, so now what? I mean Kagome just said she wasn't going back, Inuyasha feels like crud, not to mention has to give Kagome back her stuff, and Hojo is on the move.again. Man he must really like Kagome. Well, anyways, I want to thank Tsumira for giving my the 411 on Kikyo, now I am prepared to write a few more chapters. (everyone yells "YAY! We'll get more to read soon!") Yes, it will be soon, like no more that next week soon. Well, bye for now!
Authors Beginning Note: Ok, this is going to be a short chapter, but it's worth it, to hear Kagome's answer.
Chapter 4
Kagome's Answer
"So, when are you going to go back?" Inuyasha held his breath, his jealousy forgotten. His attention was completely drawn to that slender girl, with raven black hair that was finer than silk. To her every movement. He couldn't breath, not wanting to miss her answer. What was only minutes seemed like eternity.
When will I go back? Will I go back? Should I go back? I'll miss everyone terribly and I'm sure that they will miss me.
Kagome's thoughts seemed to lighten at those happy thoughts but quickly darkened.
~*~ Flashback~*~
"Is that all I am to you? A burden? Or wait, no, that's not all I am to you, I'm not only a burden, I'm 'your shard detector' too, huh?!"
"Well you know what Inuyasha, no more. I won't take it any more. If all I am is a burden, consider me gone. Go find the jewels by yourself."
~*~ End Flashback~*~
He didn't even answer me? Is that all I truely was to him? All of those times, those moments. Even when we had faught before, we hadn't faught like this. I know he doesn't like to show his true feelings.but.when I asked him.I couldn't tell anything about him. It's like all of his emotions were suddenly shut to me. Like a door being slammed into my face. Maybe I should have waited longer for an answer.no.I gave him plenty of time.enough time to say no at least.I've tried Inuyasha.I at least had hoped we could have been friends.I thought we were.I love you Inuyasha.I foolishly gave my heart to you when I could have given it to another.but I chose you.I thought I meant at least something more to you other than a tool.I thought. maybe.but no. I guess I never meant anything to you.Not even when I tried my hardest.not even when I did my best.not even when I saved you those few times you were helpless.What about those few moments.when I was so sure.I saw love in your eyes for me.just for me.I guess maybe.you were imagining that I was Kikyo.I could never amount to Kikyo.but I could at least amount to my full potential.I was foolish to think that he may even have liked me. He never answered.I was his burden.I admit I was in danger a lot.but we all knew that risk.and I am more than just a shard detector! Why couldn't he see? Why wouldn't he see.maybe he couldn't.or wouldn't. Either way. he never answered.so I guess I am.just his burden.his 'shard detector'.nothing more than his tool.
New tears were starting to form in her eyes and they tore Inuyasha. Inuyasha felt helpless, he wanted to go to her but couldn't.
Oh, Kagome.I.please don't cry. I want to hold you.I want to pick you up and tell you how I feel about you.but it would hurt even more.I love Kikyo too.It's not a question of weather I love you or not.it's who I will choose.and Kagome.you don't know how hard it is.I'm in the middle of a war. I don't know what I really feel. Sometimes you make me so mad, and then other times.you make me feel alive.like I couldn't live a day with out you. I don't know why I do this to you.I don't know what makes me think I deserve you.I am only a Hanyou.a filthy half breed.and yet.you stood by my side.through everything.please don't leave me now.you said you never would.but this is different.or is it.Kagome.please come back.back to the Feudal Era.to your friends.to.me.please.
Hojo was looking at Kagome. His arm tightened slightly around her, menat to be like a comfort to her.
Oh Kagome.even when you are sad, you look as radiant as ever.why do you constantly refuse me? Everyone thinks we should be together.everyone except.you.maybe.you will be mine yet.maybe you will finally start caring for me.the way I care for you.When will you quite fighting me.and at least give me a chance.I care for you.but I can't wait forever.Kagome.will you please.come to me soon.I don't want to loose you.but if you intend to keep me waiting forever.than I will have to give my heart to another.but for now.for now we are together.is it too high of a price.your tears.are like rain.but if we stick together.maybe your sunshine will be able to come out brighter.and hopefully, I can be there.to bask in it.and be yours.
Everyone was still, all caught up in there thoughts, and yet full attention on Kagome. Hojo was thinking that maybe Kagome hadn't heard him, and was going to ask again when he heard a small whisper.
"I'm not going back." Kagome's voice was barely audible. A few strands of hair fell down onto her face. Hojo shook his head and gave her comforting squeeze on the shoulder. Inuyasha froze where he was; not wanting to believe what her heard, but he couldn't deny it. His face fell. His stomach fell even deeper, and his heart, torn. Everything was silent as a slight breeze came and played with the few rogue strands of Kagome's hair and blew some of Inuyasha's hair in his face, only to fall back into place.
"I think I'll go home now" Kagome said sullenly getting up. Hojo's hand slid down her harm and held onto her wrist, not wanting her to leave. Kagome gave a light tug, not looking at Hojo. Inuyasha's grip went back Tetsusaiga.
"Hojo, I should really be going now, please let go." Hojo stared at Kagome, Inuyasha stared at Hojo a look of death, just waiting for him to make a single wrong move so that he could slice and dice him into pieces. Hojo let go. Kagome walked off into the direction she had come, not looking back. Hojo sighed. He stood up, and then he too went home.
Inuyasha lept off of his perch and onto the ground. He stood staring at the place that Kagome had been sitting just a moment ago.
"I've lost her.I've really lost.Kagome." Inuyasha stood there staring. Not even allowing himself to cry. He wanted too, the tears were there, ready to fall, like a broken dam, but he wouldn't let them come.
Authors Ending Note: Ok, so now what? I mean Kagome just said she wasn't going back, Inuyasha feels like crud, not to mention has to give Kagome back her stuff, and Hojo is on the move.again. Man he must really like Kagome. Well, anyways, I want to thank Tsumira for giving my the 411 on Kikyo, now I am prepared to write a few more chapters. (everyone yells "YAY! We'll get more to read soon!") Yes, it will be soon, like no more that next week soon. Well, bye for now!