I give a small sigh as I step out into the cold night air, watching my breath crystallize right in front of my eyes and dissipate. I turn to look back at the dojo before walking away.

Oh, wait. No, I'm not leaving forever! Jeez, no, I'm just going for a walk…at night… this sounds loony, doesn't it? Well, the others don't think I'm well enough to be walking around, so I've done the only thing logical-

Go for a walk while they sleep.

Well, it's logical for me, anyway.

I just need to clear my thoughts. Ever since Ray told me that he thought he saw Kai, my mind has just been pestering me to find him. But that isn't why I'm here; I'm going to clear my thoughts, like I said…

Or am I?

Oh, now you've got me confused…

I walk along the totally deserted road, not really looking where I'm going, just staring at the ground. Again, it's amazing how many things you can make the tarmac look like when you stare at it for too long…

Ten minutes I've been out and no sign of anyone, so the guys must still be asleep and oblivious of me being out. Good.

And I must've been skipping stones for at least five… Boring, but time consuming. Also, it's repetitive, so I can zone out and carry on.

Realising that this was TOTALLY boring, I decide to leave…

Again, I'm sitting at on the swings… this seems to be the only place where I can actually concentrate.

But the thing is…

Part of me doesn't want to concentrate on this problem. The 'Kai' problem.

That part just wants to forget about him… to forget my feelings for him. But the other part of me isn't allowing that to happen. That part wants me to find him and tell him…

And this is what's causing my pain. I want to tell Kai, but… I'm…scared that he'll be disgusted with me. That he'll laugh in my face and leave me forever…

And I don't want that to happen. Even if I don't tell him, I'll be happy just to be around him…to touch him at least once a day and to watch him…

See, my mind's pretty fucked up at the moment. And I hate it.

The other thing I hate is the fact that Hiro still has Dragoon. I feel vulnerable without Dragoon, like anything could get to me… but it's for the best. If I get attacked again, Dragoon will be safe; even if I…

Let's not think about that.

"Long time, no see, eh Tyson?"

I look up and have to rub my eyes, for they must be deceiving me. I think I can see

"K-Kai?"