A/N: Hey people, I have a new story out. I know that I should be working on my stories that are already posted but this got in my head and I couldn't let it fall to the way side.
I hope that you all enjoy this.
WARNING: this is a yaoi story. If you don't like it don't read it and find something more your speed. I will not tolerate flames about this, because you have been warned.
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the songs mentioned in any of the chapters and I do not own shaman king, and am making no profit from this. It is purely for fun.
Now with all that out of the way, on with the story.
Chapter 1
Ren couldn't help it anymore, he was getting sick and tired of seeing his best friend, and room mate, mopping around the apartment. It was up to him to prove to Horohoro that life could go on without Yoh Asakura.
Yoh had recently dumped the Anui, realising that he truly did love Anna and not the male he had been dating.
Horo had gone into a sever depression, and Ren couldn't take it anymore. He needed to do something to get his friend back. He needed to show his friend that there were other people in the world, and that he could have anyone he wanted. The Toa just hoped that the bluette male, would consider him.
Yes, it was true. Ren had developed feelings for the other shaman and he really wanted his feelings to be known. He would have acted on them right after the break up, but hated the thought of taking advantage of the Anui. No, he had to find a way to make Horo feel better and tell him the truth. That would be the ideal thing to do.
Suddenly an idea hit him. He knew the perfect way. He just had to set everything up, and the next day everything would be out in the open.
THE NEXT DAY
Ren was extremely nervous. He had never done anything like this, and he was beginning to get cold feet.
'No,' he thought. 'I can't think that way. I am Toa Ren and nothing scares me.' He continued his self pep talk and didn't take any notice when the Anui walked into the room.
"Hey Ren," the soft, seemingly less content then usual voice called out from the doorway. "Why'd you call me here?"
Ren spun around and his breath caught in his throat. Even when Horo was depressed, he still looked stunning. He hadn't really brushed his hair so it stuck out in all directions, but that seemed to fit him. His eyes were red and puffy from crying and Ren wanted to kiss his eye lids and make him feel better.
Finally regaining his composure, Ren motioned for Horo to take a seat on the couch, in front of the television. He himself walked to the entertainment box and pressed a few buttons.
Music to flood out from the speakers around the room and Ren reached for the microphone that had arrived with the karaoke set that Horo had made them buy for the apartment. When Horo was still dating Yoh, the machine was used daily, but now it was just gathering dust. The Anui's depression making it so that he didn't even want to sing.
With the press of one more button, Ren walked over and sat himself with his friend, the microphone still in hand. The music suddenly changed to a slower tune, with a soft piano playing in the background.
Ren brought the mic to his lips and started to sing soulfully into it. Staring straight at Horohoro.
"I know when he's been on your mind
That distant look is in your eyes
I thought with time you'd realise
It's over, over"
Horo looked stunned. How could Ren be telling him to get over Yoh. The pain was still to fresh and he didn't want to forget. Tears welled in his eyes, but he made no move to stop the song or wipe his tears, that threatened to fall, away.
Ren saw the tears welling up and hoped that soon, he would be the one wiping them from his falwless face. He really hoped that this didn't backfire on him and that at least he could still have the Anui's friendship and maybe more, much more.
"It's not the way I choose to live
And something somewheres got to give
And sharing this relationship
Gets older, older"
Horo tried to turn away, but Ren voice, which was so full of emotion made him turn back.
"You know I'd fight for you
But how can I find someone
Who isn't even there"
Ren looked down suddenly, almost shyly, but in a second he was staring back into Horo's eyes.
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
I don't care if that's not fair
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
Horo didn't know what to do. He had never expected Ren to feel anything like this. And he was more then a little afraid of the feelings that were being displayed now. Only Yoh had ever shown him that sort of love.
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom
It's now or never
Ren hesitantly reached out, but before his hand could make contact with Horo, he pulled it back suddenly. He didn't want to scare the man, and he was sure that he would.
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with
Nothing at all
Horo's tears were too great to be contained and started to spill over his face. He didn't care one bit. All that mattered in this moment was what Ren was saying (well actually singing) to him.
There are times it seems to me
I'm sharing you in memories
I feel it in my heart but I
Don't show it, show it
'At least not till now,' Ren added mentally. He looked up again, never realising that his vision had drifted down, and saw the tears that had once been a glimmer in his eyes, were now falling freely from Horo's face.
And then there's times you look at me
As though I'm all that you can see
Those times I don't believe in fact
I know it, know it
'Were there actually times when I made it seem as if I like Ren?' the blue haired male questioned himself. 'Of course I have. Just look at him, anyone would be stupid not to see how wonderful he is. Is that what I am is STUPID?'
Don't make me promises
Baby, you never did
Know how to keep them well
Despite the seriousness of his actions, Ren couldn't help but smirk at that line. Horo was really good at remembering what he had promised to others. And then he started into the chorus once more with all the love he felt for his friend.
I've had the rest of you
Now I want the best of you
It's time for show and tell
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
Horo watched Ren's eyes sparkle with love. He couldn't tear his gaze away. Those yellow eyes were wonderful and expressive.
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom
It's now or never
Is it all
He couldn't take it anymore. Those tears had to go. Ren reached out and gently wiped away the tears off of both cheeks. At first Horo stiffened and Ren almost pulled away, but the Anui relaxed a moment later.
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with
Nothing
Horo went cross-eyed, trying to watch that delicate hand that wiped his tears. It was so much different from Yoh's touch.
Cause you and I
Could lose it all if you've got
No more room, no room inside
For me in your life
Ren chocked out that line, hoping against all that he would not have to lose Horo. He kept his hand cradled against Horo's cheek.
Cause I want it all
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
It's now or never
Is it all
Or nothing at all
Horo leaned into the hand cupping his cheek. He wasn't sure what he was feeling anymore. His world had taken a dramatic turn, and he didn't know if it was for better or worse.
Or nothing at all
There's no where left to fall
When you reach the bottom
It's now or never
Not sure what else to do, Ren just kept on singing straight to the Anui, letting his feelings out in a way he never thought that he would be able to.
Is it all
Or are we just friends
Is this how it ends
With a simple telephone call
You leave me here with
Nothing at all
The last lines of the song hung still in the room. Neither male wanted to break the spell that had been cast. They just stared at each other.
Finally Ren got up and walked towards the karaoke machine, turning it off. Since he had heard nothing out of Horo he began to walk towards his room, thinking that this was all for nothing.
"Ren, wait!"
Ren turned around, hope filling him. "Yes?" he spoke almost breathlessly.
"Come back here, and sit down. We really need to talk."
Not sure if this was good Ren walked back to the couch and sat down beside Horo once again. He waited for him to speak, not sure where to start.
Horo sighed and ran a hand through his hair, noticing for the first time how truly messy it was. He frowned up at his hair. Looking back at Ren he asked, getting straight to the point. "How do you feel about me? And be truthful Ren, we've never been anything but."
Ren sighed, his hand clenching the front of his shirt, not caring about the wrinkles it was creating. He looked down. "I-I love you Horohoro,' he stated.
"That's what I thought," was the only reply that Horo made.
Ren couldn't take it anymore, he felt like his emotions were being toyed with and he hated that. He exploded. "Is that all you can say? I just poured my heart and soul out to you and all you can say is 'that's what I thought'? If you don't feel the same way, just tell me so that I can get over you and get on with my life. I don't want to be strung along, and I deserve better if that is how you are going to treat me." Ren was going to continue when he felt a soft pair of lips against his own.
Horo pulled back from the ranting Toa. "You think that you are the only one with insecurities. You just drop this on me, and expect me to sort through my feelings in a matter of a few seconds. That is a hard thing to do Ren. I'm confused alright. I like you, but I don't know if my feelings go any deeper. I need time to sort them out," Horo fell back to the couch. "I don't know anything anymore.'
Ren sat beside him. 'You know more then you think Horo, and I am sorry. I never thought of how you would react to me. I just knew that I had to tell you. I am also sorry for yelling. That was wrong of me." He stood up and made for his room once more. "I think it would be best if both slept on this. Goodnight Horo. Sleep well."
Horo watched the retreating figure. "Goodnight Ren." He walked to his own room and laid on the bed, thinking. 'What is it that I want out of him?'
Ren also wasn't sleeping. He was lying on his back, a hand running over his lips. 'Horo kissed me!' his mind screamed.
After much thought they both feel into a fitful sleep.
A/N: that is the first chapter. Hope you like it, and that you will drop me a line. Don't know when the next chapters will be out, but I will try my best.
Just so you know the song is "All or Nothing" by O-Town.