Disclaimer: If I owned Harry Potter, pigs would be flying right now. For you slow people, it is physically impossible for a pig to take flight, so owning Harry Potter is impossible (at least for me) also.
Authors Note: This is Remus's emotions, and I hope I can convey them with justice.
Chapter 2:The inner wolf
He could feel the wolf rising in him, angry and bloodthirsty.
NO he commanded his inner self You will not be a monster. You are a human.
He wasn't transforming, but he was so angry that his inner wolf was writhing inside him in fury.
He threw his head in his hands and choked down a sad howl. He could feel the sting of tears on his face.
No…please no…
First my best friends...Lily…James…Sirius…even the traitor peter who is dead in my eyes.
Now Dumbledore…
No, this can't be happening.
SNAPE!
What could make him go so horribly wrong?
Dumbledore bent over backwards- He got him out of prison for god's sakes! And how does Snape repay him? He FUCKING kills him!
He was surprised at his thoughts- he rarely swore or was so violent. He wondered how one thing could affect so many people so much? One person, the center of all this sadness and anger and death.
If I ever see Snape, I will kill him. How dare he take away one of the only people who didn't see me as a bloodthirsty monster! HOW DARE HE!
Harry has to defeat Voldemort, he HAS to. It is the only way to make all his hard work worthwhile.
WHAT WILL I DO?
I don't know what I'll do if another person dies. What if its Tonks next, or Mad-eye? Worse, what if it's Ron, Hermione, or Harry? So young. They don't deserve to go through this again.
No. I am going to wake up soon, and I will be in 12 Grimmauld place and Dumbledore will be there and all of the order, and none of this will have ever happened.
He waited for himself to wake up.
To his immense dismay, he didn't, and only sobbed more, not bothering to choke back the howls of rage, not worrying about his hands tearing at his skin in fury.
No…please…not again…please just not again…please
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