Disclaimer: NO! for the LAST time I do NOT own Harry Potter!
Authors Note: Now for Harry's feelings. This will hopefully be somewhat alright, I shouldn't butcher it too much. Just wish me luck with the writing and REVIEW!
Chapter 4: Why again?
Harry laid out on his bed in the dormitory. Everyone else was at dinner, so he was alone. He didn't bother to take off his glasses to wipe away the seemingly unstoppable flow of tears from his eyes.
Why again?
My parents, Sirius, and now Dumbledore.
So many people affected by one person, and all in an attempt to get me.
Should I really stay around? I mean, this is obviously all my fault. Voldemort came to my parents and killed them to kill me, and for a horcrux! Voldemort used my Godfather to lure me to him. I was stupid and it was my fault, Sirius came after me, and I can NEVER do anything to fix it…why did I have to go to the ministry? Always have to play the hero, as Hermione said. And then, Dumbledore killed, and I now it was to make it easier to get me. I don't want to do this anymore.
I can't take it!
This has all been my fault!
all my fault….
Why do people continue to suffer? Its all my doing. Hundreds of people will not be at Hogwarts next year, because it will probably close. So many people have had parents, relatives, and friends killed, because he came back. He wouldn't have if I had just let Diggory take the cup. Oh my god, that's horrible of me. I didn't like him, but I wouldn't want him to have faced that alone.
He felt a scream rise up in his throat.
WHY AGAIN? Why me, again! Why do I have to kill him, and now not only face him but face him alone! I have one life, one life to live. He has made it so he can have as many as he needs! How will I do it without Dumbledore? Now that the only man he was afraid of is gone, there is nothing that I can do.
WHY DID YOU HAVE TO
TRUST HIM? WHY SNAPE! I told you so many times that he wasn't
trustworthy, and you never listened! You are just as stubborn as I
am! Why didn't you listen to me?
Why is there so much death? Why did another good person have to die? Why again?
Authors note: Yep. I'm in an update frenzy. PLEASE REVIEW.