She stared out into the darkness. Though the outline of the trees was visible, she saw none of it. Her eyes were unfocused as she looked out her window. A car drove by, momentarily bathing her surroundings in pale light. She thought about her situation. Everything seemed somewhat clearer when looked at in the light.
Her room was dark; she had long since shut off her computer. As she continued to stare off into nothingness, a feeling of absolute emptiness crept over her. Though she tried to comprehend the problem at hand, the complexity of it made it impossible for her mind to stay focused. Instead, she allowed her mind to go blank, her thoughts of nothing clear on her face. For hours she had been by her window, unmoving, even into the late hours of the night. She hadn't noticed the silent tears that had slowly slid down her cheeks only to fall on her hands below. Nothing seemed to matter anymore. Her problems took over. She started to imagine school on Monday. Her friends smiling faces appeared in her mind. She quickly pushed thought of them away. She couldn't face them. She knew if they said anything, she'd be unable to hold back tears. She turned her mind once more to her memories. She noted every detail, saw where she screwed up, went over the conversations again. She knew how she could have avoided this, this emptiness in which she was lost.
As she continued to analyze the situation she realized she wasn't sure if she would take it back. If she was given the chance to do it all again, would she? At first her answer had been an immediate yes, but as she continued to think about it, trying to make it clearer, the foggier it became. She wasn't sure anymore. This uncertainty would be her downfall of that she was positive. She sank further into depression. More tears slid down her cheeks, leaving fresh trails in their wake.
As the car finally passed everything was once more plunged into the darkness. Black. Unclear. Empty.