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The room was silent. Raven stared at Hetea and Gevea, a part of her was hoping that the two were mistakened and that Trigon was not coming. But she knew her mentors would never joke about something like this. She also knew that she would have to make a decision, and she would have to make it soon.
"Trigon's coming?" Raven asked her mentors. She was still having a very hard time believing it. She had completely forgotten about her mission.
"Yes... he said that you are to open the portal and lead his army to victory." Hetea replied. Her usual cheery tone was replaced by a remorseful tone. She didn't want to tell Raven that Trigon was coming now. After hearing what Raven had gone through, Renseia knew that Raven would have to make choice. A choice that would greatly affect her future. "You don't have to if you don't want to..." Hetea said as she looked Raven in the eyes.
"I..." Raven said. She was desperately trying to think of something to say but failed miserably. "I don't know what to say."
"We can stall for more time if you need it Raven." Gevea offered to the half demon. She could see Raven was still trying to process everything that was happening. 'She's going to have to choose...' Gevea told herself. She couldn't take it. Raven was so young and the girl did nothing to deserve this burden that had been placed upon her shoulders.
"I need to think about this." Raven said as she got up from the couch. She headed for her bedroom door and opened it. She paused before she entered her room.
"Whatever you decide... we'll be right there with you Raven." Gevea said.
"We'll be with you no matter what." Hetea said. Raven turned back and flashed them a small smile before she headed into her room. She closed the door behind her and left her mentors alone.
"What are we going to do?" Gevea asked her lover. Gevea crept closer to Hetea. Gevea put her head on her lovers chest and listened to the other woman's heart beat. The beat was consistent and it calmed her. Hetea wrapped her arm around Gevea's neck and held the woman in her arms. She could smell Gevea's comforting scent and felt herself relax. They sat on the couch, holding each other. They knew that Raven would have to make a very hard decision and they couldn't help her.
"What can we do?" Hetea replied. They couldn't really do anything to help Raven. They had to let Raven make her own decision. A path back to the light, or a path that'll cause her to fall even farther into the darkness. Which would Raven choose?
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Raven walked to her bed. She crept onto her bed and approached the middle of her bed. Confusion clouded Raven's mind. Raven sat on her bed with her eyes closed. Raven was searching for answers within herself. She was meditating.
'I came here to destroy Earth...' Raven reminded herself about her mission. She was thinking about reasons to forgive and not to forgive Starfire. Thinking about reasons why she should or should not side with Trigon. 'If I forgive Stafire, then I'll have to help the humans and aliens fight off the demons. I'd have to go against Trigon because he'd never listen if I told him not to attack the human dimension.' Raven told herself. 'If I don't forgive her, it'll lead to the defeat of the titans... maybe even to her demise.' Raven knew that Starfire and the titans would fight to the death.
'I know Starfire and she's not the type that gives up easily.' Raven thought in her head. That was one of the things she admired about the girl. She knew that Starfire was the type who would fight until the end. 'She'll risk her life just to keep the universe safe. After all, that's what heroes do.' Raven continued to think. She also knew that Trigon and his demons were very powerful and could easily kill the titans.
'They won't stand a chance against Trigon, he'll crush them.' Raven told herself. 'If I help her, there's a good chance Trigon will kill me too...' Raven admitted to herself. 'Actually, he will kill me if I sided with Starfire. But if I don't help Starfire, she will die.' Raven let out a heavy sigh.
'My life or my life and hers...' Raven told herself. 'How can things get so complicated! I'd completely forgotten about my mission from Trigon. Before, it was just a matter of letting Starfire in or not. Now it's a matter of choosing which side to be in. Choosing what path to take. Am I going to help kill the demons that I have worked with for the past three millenniums? Or am I to lead the woman that broke my heart to her demise?'
Raven thought long and hard about what she should do and whom she would side with. 'I owe Trigon... he took me in when I had nowhere else to go and offered me a chance to get away from it all.' Raven thought. 'It was for his own benefit, but at least I'm not stupid enough to fall for his tricks.' Raven thought. If she stayed on Trigon's side, she would never get emotionally hurt by the demon because she knew that he was in fact evil. She would never let her guard down around Trigon, no matter how he acted.
Even though she had lived with Trigon, she knew that he had a reason for doing everything he did for Raven. He took Raven in so that he can mold her into a ruthless killing machine. He trained her to kill for him so she did. In a way, they had a mutual understanding and both got what they wanted. She had liked it that way. Raven was to do Trigon's bidding and Trigon was to provide her every need without questioning her. He ordered her to kill, and she released her anger on the ones she killed.
'But Starfire... she broke my heart... if I forgive her... what can stop her from breaking my heart again? She did it once before, she can do it again.' Raven thought about Renseia's advice. 'But can I really just stand aside and let the woman that I love.. no loved... die?' Raven asked herself. 'Will I be able to live with myself knowing that I could have helped Starfire but didn't?' After much thought and consideration, Raven finally made a decision. 'I know Renseia would say that I'm letting fear get in the way... but I have no other choice. I have to make sure Starfire will never get the chance to hurt me.. not again.'
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I wanna thank all of you who think that this story is moving slow but are still reading it. Thank you all for having faith in me. I'll try to make the chapters longer so that it'll seem that it's going faster.Ok, you all know what to do. Review!