Sorry for not updating for such a long time, but it's very stressful at school at the moment.

Here are some of Ginny's thoughts concerning Harry before they become a couple.

If you are interested in the story of this short story: I met a guy who is absolutely like Harry in this story. He has a mobile phone and everything, but he just isn't able to write or call me and when I want to do something with him and he has no time, he simply forgets to tell me this. He really can't write me a simple "no, I've got no time, sorry". And then again, he's very sweet and I love to be around him. Well, can somebody explain this behaviour to me? I really need help with this guy. Thanks in advance.

Ok, and now - finally - the story:

Desperate Hope

Why does he treat me like that?

Do I deserve this behaviour?

I can't understand him.

Every time we meet in the corridors or in Gryffindor Common Room,

He smiles at me and talks to me.

It feels so natural, so right when we talk.

We really understand each other.

Then again, when I ask him if he wants to go to Hogsmeade with me or do something else,

He tells me that he would think about that and then talk to me again.

But then, he forgets everything and when I ask him again, he says that he's busy.

These are the moments when I think that he doesn't like me.

If he doesn't want to go out with me, why can't he tell me so?

Why does he rather say nothing?

Does he think that this is better than having to say "no"?

Well, maybe it is better for him, but it really hurts me.

Then, I think that he's an idiot and just like all the other mean guys.

And the next second, he laughs at me and talks to me again and my heart sinks into my toes.

Then, I can't understand how I could ever be angry with him.

He's smart, handsome, funny and I always want to be near him.

I just don't understand him.

Do I do something wrong?

Am I mean towards him?

But that can't be the answer.

I always smile at him when he smiles at me.

My friends say that I play my part very well.

I flirt with him and he really flirts back.

Everybody says that he is in love with me, that everybody could see that.

These are the moments when I feel that there's more than friendship.

My heart is broken because of all these feelings,

There are two halves –

The one that wants to always be with him,

The other that is angry with him for treating me like that.

Everybody says that we would really be a sweet couple,

And with the one half of my heart I wish that we really were a couple,

But the other half tells me that a relationship with him would even hurt me more.

I don't know what to do.

I have always listened to only one half of my heart,

The half that wants to be with him.

I have listened to it because of those many moments when he has made me happy.

But I know that my life will shatter if I don't leave this path.

I have to follow the other half of my heart, I really want to,

But I can't.

I can't because there is still hope.

Hope that my friends are right, hope that my feelings are right, hope that he loves me, too.

Desperate hope.

Please review. Thanks.