The Man I Want To Be With
I still remembered your face vividly, as you turned your back against, saying harsh things that I did not really mind. From that moment, I wanted to throw myself to you. Liked some sand collected in your shoes, I don't mind being little as long I got to be with you. I tried telling you how I felt, pleading for you to listen to me once. But you just coldly rejected me and walked away. I did not feel hatred for you, I only felt remorse. I knew the feeling of being alone, the foolish you who always wanted to be alone. It's neither a good thing nor a bad thing. I'm just glad you chose this path.
Maybe you wouldn't return but I'm still praying in this little temple I visited everyday. I had been given opportunities to do better and I promise I won't slack this time. I knew I had been a burden in the earlier days, I did not wish to be another one when I got to meet you again. Maybe you would forget about me because your mind was corrupted with hatred. I hoped my smile would make you remember everything.
I love you, not just your pretty face but your character. When you cared for me, I knew there's a piece of goodness in you. I couldn't control your life but you could control me. My tears carried the slightest memory of you. I always thought we were meant to be. My foolish thoughts to be exact. We still did not what the future behold for us.
Maybe you'll meet a woman who isn't a burden, crybaby. She'll be the one who makes you smile when you're upset. I do wish I am that woman but I better not dream big. But I know you are the man I wanted to be with, it would not change. It would stay this way. I decided to give you my whole life and entrust my happiness in you.
Every woman biggest happiness is to find a man of her dreams and marries him. I guess I found you. I'm contended already, knowing you are the best part of my life.