Degrees of Darkness
begun—11/28/05, 12:30 pm
finished—11/28/05, 2:00 am
A/N:
Hiya! I finished this one at….Well, you can see what time I finished it, I guess… Urm, yeah, I believe that I thought this one up on a sugar high that is quickly leaving my system right now…And yes, now that Thanksgiving break is over, I'm supposed to be sleeping right now! Seeing as I'm supposed to be sleeping, and I'm suffering from a mild case of night paranoia in a house that has an insane cat roaming around somewhere, I can't remember the exact details of half the stuff in Yu-Gi-Oh! right now, so please, pardon the inaccuracies, and enjoy the ficcy! And then review! Pretty please, for the bishies?
There are degrees of darkness, or so I believe. Degrees of how far one can descend, how deep madness can go, and how dark a soul can be.
There is the darkness of a shadow, of night. Protective, familiar, able to hide things from the harsh realities of daylight, or of human life. At the same time, the same familiar darkness of night can also be frightening, and is able to strike a paralyzing fear into the hearts of the unwary, the unwise. Yami is like that.
My friends, when they met him, were afraid of him, even though they tried to hide it. They kept asking me whether he was abusing me, all because they remembered what he did to the prison escapee that tried to hold Anzu hostage. They only believed me after Duelist Kingdom, when Yami and I defeated Pegasus, when they finally got over the fear that the dark had instilled in them.
After the darkness of night, there is the deeper darkness, the darkness of an underground cave, and the darkness of space. That darkness can drive a person mad, a silent, unseen specter waiting to take you, waiting to muffle your screams with shrouds born of madness.
Ryou says that describes Bakura almost exactly. The difference is, Bakura is already insane. Bakura continuously tries and succeeds to take Ryou's body, taking over, and replacing Ryou's conscious with his own. But Ryou has started to speak only good of the spirit now, even when he comes to school with bandaged wounds, and Bakura has barely taken control of Ryou for several months now... I believe…I hope… that, somehow, they have come to an understanding.
The last darkness, I think only Malik can describe. I don't know it personally, but I canguess at it…It is the darkness of a human soul. The capability of darkness and evil combined with the ability to do great good…. Malik says that his spirit was easily the worst, for who else had tried to destroy the world or killed so many, so carelessly?
I don't know…All of the spirits, Yami included, have killed, either to protect, out of boredom, for self gain, for punishment, for betrayal, or for some other reason entirely. The only way I know this, is because Yami told me or he didn't block our link well enough. He has killed.
Ryou was almost always aware of when Bakura killed because there would be blood on his clothes. And Malik…He didn't need to see his yami kill to know it; he's killed, but he won't tell me who. I don't need to know.
So, here we are; three lights, and three shadows, all in different degrees of light and dark. Me, the innocent one, even though that doesn't need ignorance. Ryou, the one who experienced some things, and is not as innocent nor as ignorant as I. Malik, the darkest of us lights. Yami, the lightest of the darkness, if that makes any sense at all. Bakura, not as dark as Marikku, and not as sane or honest as Yami. And finally, Marikku, Malik's darkness, the darkest of all of us….
Degrees of darkness, indeed...