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Author Notes: First, thank you to everyone that reviewed. I know I haven't updated very quickly but had a bit of writer's block, but it's gone now. A few things, I have had a lot of questions about whether this is Rory/Jess or a Rory/Logan. Honestly, I don't care that much about whom she ends up with, I don't think she will get back with Jess and I think Logan is just her way of having an adventure and trying new things. The only people I really care about ending up together on the show are (here is thing number 2) are Lorelai and Luke.

I know many, many fans (basically all of us) are in tears of anger and sadness about the coming episodes and the certain characters that are coming into it (stop reading if you wish to remain spoiler free). I HAVE FAITH! (I am serious about stop reading if you don't like spoilers) Ask Ausiello last week (Oct 26th issue READ IT) gave me faith (I knew there was a reason that I liked him) and he is as big of a Gilmore Girls fan as any one of us. He was asked if Luke and Lorelai would end up together and gave a resounding Yes. Whether this is from ASP mouth or just him being him I am holding fast to it as my hope. Also he mentioned that we don't know for sure that she is actually blood-related to Luke. I have faith in what ASP is doing; I know that it will be okay. Have faith people. It's a good train, you should get on it. Rant over. (Read this week's AA too if you liked the Oct 26th one).

That feels wonderful to get off my chest. Apparently you people like my stuff, so here is a little chapter to tide you over while I work my magic on the wedding chapter which will end this ride. Let me know your thoughts on everything from the chapter to the show to my long rant above.

Luvz where are you? Are you okay? Miss you and need your zen for when things get bad.

Chapter 9: I Just Think If We Build on This Trust

Evening of December 14th

"I'm getting married in the morning. Ding dong the bells are going to chime," sang Lorelai as she walked down the stairs.

"Lorelai, add singing to the list of things that scare Paul Anka," called Luke from the kitchen.

"Hey, buddy unless you want to be kicked out before midnight I would lay off the sarcasm," said Lorelai walking into the kitchen with a grin on her face. "Besides it's not my fault the song is in my head, you're the one that wanted to watch a movie."

"Yeah A movie, not a three-day marathon of movies that have weddings in them," replied Luke grumpily as he pulled Lorelai to him.

"But it was appropriate!" cried Lorelai, her face buried in Luke's T-shirt clad chest. "We're getting married tomorrow," she whispered softly.

"Yes, we are," replied Luke, just as quietly pulling Lorelai even closer to him, brushing a kiss in her hair.

They stood in that position for several minutes before Luke felt a familiar wet sensation on his chest. He pulled away and noticed tears streaming down Lorelai's face.

"Hey, you know we don't have to do this tomorrow right? We can wait till Rory is back to normal," Luke said tilting Lorelai's face up to his wiping the tears from her face.

Lorelai looked up at the understanding and loving face of the man that she knew she couldn't live without. A wave a love washed over her and she smiled like she used to smile before yachts, Christopher, and her parents entered the picture. "No, we are getting married tomorrow. If Rory wants to be there, I can guarantee that there will be much jumping and yelling, but if she isn't we still are getting married, with a smidge less jumping and yelling. That is what I want, no more waiting."

Luke looked down at Lorelai, wondering again how he managed to get lucky enough that Lorelai actually loved him, much less spend the rest of her life with him. He kissed the top of her head again and whispered, "She may still come. You are positive she wrote the note, so she is at least making an effort."

Lorelai nodded against him, remembering the note that had arrived about a week ago. It was addressed to Mr. and Mrs. Danes with no return address or postal markings on it. Lorelai was so excited to get her first piece of mail with her new name that she refused to cut the envelope open, but steamed it open so that she could frame it and put it on the mantel, she had explained to a confused Luke, who had walked into the kitchen to Lorelai holding an envelope over the teapot. When she finally got it open after burning her hand twice, all that was inside was a piece of paper with three lines on it.

I told you it was written in the stars. I am so happy for you. Congratulations.

It wasn't signed, but Lorelai could tell from the handwriting and the written in the stars reference that it was from Rory. She had made the same reference when Lorelai told her about the horoscope and the amazing first date with Luke. Rory just laughed and said she always knew that they were meant to be together, first the twin dream and now this horoscope he saved. She had said that she wanted to wear blue to their wedding. Lorelai turned her head and stared at the closed door to Rory's room. She felt Luke pull her closer and knew that he too was sad that Rory didn't want to be there for the wedding. She looked up at Luke and gave him a long heated kiss before pulling away.

"Go finish up my burger Coffee Man; I want to finish watching Sound of Music."

"Lorelai-" started Luke.

"Luke, it's not alright, but it's going to be okay," said Lorelai, kissing him again. "I can't force her to be there, my parents can't force her to be there, it is up to her to want to be there. I don't want her there if she forced, it would just make the whole event sad, and I don't know about you but I am way to excited to marry you for it to be marred with sadness and tension. She needs to want to be there so that she can share the second most important thing to happen to me other that her birth. Otherwise it just isn't worth the effort. Now hurry up and get me food before I am forced to eat something healthy or start singing again."

Luke just kissed her and pushed her towards the living room, before turning to the stove to finish her food. Luke knew that Lorelai was right, Rory needed to want to be there, not because she was forced. He just hoped that she wanted to be there for all their sakes.

New York City: Day of December 14th

Logan sat in the theater watching Rory watch The Producers. He could tell that Rory really wasn't watching the play; that Rory really wasn't acting like Rory. He knew something was up ever since he called her 2 weeks ago and she said 'let's go to New York, spend a couple weeks there to celebrate me being done with community service'. Logan, didn't know what to say, but accepted the offer and made reservations to stay at the Plaza. Rory hasn't really talked to him, even though he asked what she needed help with many times. Logan knew that her mother's wedding was tomorrow, but had no idea how to broach the topic to Rory. He turned his attention back to the play, determined this time to find out what was up with Rory and why she kept running away.

After the play, Rory and Logan walked around Manhattan for a couple hours, shopping and seeing the sights of winter in New York. Rory came to sudden halt when they walked in past some old used record store. She just stared into it, like she had seen a ghost and totally ignored Logan repeated calling of her name.

"RORY!"

"Did I ever tell you how I skipped school once and came to New York to see a boy who wasn't even my boyfriend at the time?"

"No, Rory what's wrong?"

"Jess had just left because everyone, including my mother, blamed him for my broken arm that I got when we got into a car accident. I missed him and went to New York to see him. It was the same day as my mother's college graduation. I didn't even care; I just wanted to see Jess. I missed the graduation because the bus I took back took forever. When I got home, I had completely missed the ceremony, my mother walking across the aisle, getting to do something that took her 16 extra years to do because she choose to have me and make sure I had the best things in life. I could see it in her face, how badly I hurt her, but there was a small part of me that didn't care; I did what I wanted and saw Jess and for that small part of me doing that was the most important thing. My mother was devastated that I missed her big moment and she didn't even yell at me, she just accepted it!" cried Rory, breaking down into loud sobs.

Logan tried to calm her down, but Rory was fast becoming hysterical. He flagged down a cab and pushed Rory into it, crawled in after her, and then just held her as the driver sped them to the Plaza. Logan half-walked, half-carried Rory to their suite sat her down on the couch and just held her.

"Rory, what is going on?"

"Everything is falling apart. I was so sure I was right about taking a break from Yale, ignoring my mother, everything! But I was wrong, everything is wrong. She gave up everything for me and every big moment she has had since she had me I have ruined for her. Her graduation, when she opened the inn, her engagement, everything! Jess was right; I am acting like a spoiled brat who throws a tantrum because I don't get what I want. I couldn't handle my mother telling me I was wrong, putting doubts in my head about the choices I made so I ran to my grandparents. Then I read her journal and see all the things she had to sacrifice for me to have the life I did; school, dreams, clothes, self-esteem and I what did I do Logan? I told her I hated her and wanted nothing to do with her. I couldn't even call her to tell her congratulations on her wedding and how happy I am for them; I just ran away and left a note. It's all messed up and I don't know how to fix it," said Rory, breaking down into sobs again.

"Rory, I know you well enough to know that you can fix this. The wedding is tomorrow, why don't we just go."

"She won't want me there."

"I think she does Rory, the real question is do YOU want to be there for HER? I am going to go downstairs and get some food, why don't you think about this, really think, don't just block it out," said Logan with a kiss to her forehead.

AN2: UHOH I left a cliff-hanger. I will try and update next week, but things are busy.