What's In A Name?

Author's Note: People actually like my one-shots? I'm surprised. Well, thanks to reviewers ideas, I'm gonna do one-shots on all of the Soulmate couples. Yay! Anyways this one is on Quinn and his memories of Dove. This is just before he meets Rashel, when he's looking over Boston. I'm sure he would have reminisced. If it's in italics, it's a memory.

Disclaimer/Dedication: I own nobody. Dedicated too, tracing-tt, Bella Salvatore, J.R, Chronic Sarcasm, incarnated-soul and Xavier.

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Although I had said it countless of times before, that name would never escape my lips again. Or so I hoped. The very thought of her name caused bile to rise up within me and burn my throat, my nostrils. It was not because I hate her, of course I didn't hate her! I loved her. I loved her more than I had loved anything. It's the memories of that night that I hate. The hatred comes from my stupidity. How could have I been so stupid to think a human, even though he was my own father, would understand and help me? Her name, leads to his, leads to that night.

More than 300 years have passed since I had lastly uttered her name. It was just after her death.

My heart aches when I think about her even now. It's funny, I don't even know if I have a heart sometimes. Unfortunately I do and it seemed to break every time I thought of her, every time I wished for her to come back. But I knew she wouldn't come and that's why my heart broke. For nearly 400 years I've longed for her, and for almost 400 years I've known it's hopeless.

When she had come to the village with her father and older sisters, she was the first I noticed. I didn't care if the other two were beautiful. All I saw was Dove. The first time she smiled at me sent an odd feeling down my spine and my knees went week. Who's a thought she was a creature of the night? I'd seen her like that a lot. Smiling to herself. Puritans never smiled, so people grew suspicious. Not me. They say love is blind, it's true. I wanted to run after her and talk to her, but she didn't seem to want to. She never spoke to me at first and when her father or sisters showed up, she ran. I didn't know what it was I could have done wrong. For a whole year, I'd wanted her to know how I felt, but for that whole year, I could never find the strength.

Now I wish, I hadn't tried. Maybe then, she'd still be alive.

All the love I had, had been for her. With all the secrets and all the pain, it all tore down and left nothing but bitterness. As I look back now, I know I did the right thing by walking away from my real father and to the one that made me what I am today. And that is stronger. Nobody could hurt me anymore or make me cry. Nobody.

She looked at me and smiled. I looked down at her and smiled back. Her eyes seemed to dance and it made my heart flutter. Her arm slipped around my waist as we walked down the field together... Nobody told me that I would feel this lonely as a vampire. I wouldn't have believed them anyway. I need her now, right beside me, smiling and holding my hand... I need Dove.

Sadly, life's rough and as I go on, I will never know of the love we could have had, the love I could have shared. It was a love that was lost that no one would ever know about…. Ever.

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But that all changes when he meets Rashel! Please tell me what you think :) Constructive criticism is accepted, nasty flames will be ignored. Hope you enjoyed!