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AN: Everyone who are Terra haters…are not going to like me for the next few chapters…I do absolutely promise this will end with Beast Boy and Raven together! Just….not yet.

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Cyborg looked at him skeptically. It had been a long time since Terra had been turned into stone. While his leader wasn't the sort to play tricks like this, it was hard to believe he had found a way to bring her back. "Are you sure?"

"I'm sending you the data right now." Robin said grimly. The other Titan's eyes flickered back and forth as he read what his former leader had found, his eyes growing bigger and bigger.

"Man, this really could work." He said. "But…after everything she's done, do you think this is such a hot idea?" Beast Boy came into mind.

"She betrayed us, but in the end, she did save the city." Robin said simply. "With Slade out of the way—I think it wouldn't be fair to not bring her back." It was true. Still, with everything that had happened…

"Let me break it to Beast Boy." Cyborg grimaced at the thought. He wasn't so sure how his little green friend was going to act.

"I'll inform Starfire—She might come down for when you do it." Robin added.

"Alright—I'll keep you posted." Cyborg ended the transmition and sat heavily in his chair, musing over this new found information. Beast Boy had been hurt by Terra, but that also was a long time ago. Terra did indeed do the noble thing at the end…but did that one action really counteract all the things she did before? Could she be trusted if they did revert her?

He looked at the time. 9:30 pm. He'd tell the guy tomorrow, and see what happened. It was going to be very…interesting.

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Cyborg was being unusually quiet this morning. With just him and Beast Boy left, normally there was arguing galore, especially at meal times, when both would continue slap some sort of insult at the others creation. Today, he hardly made any snide remarks towards the tofu perched on the changeling's plate.

"Don't tell me his converting you?" Raven flew over to him, noting that he seemed rather lost in thought. Had she miss something? Normally, she was pretty good at keeping tabs on the two. Apparently something had happened…and it kind of put her on edge. It wasn't so much that she liked to eavesdrop and to pry…but considering she could never ask what was going on, it felt like a right she had.

"So, Beast Boy." Cyborg began, after he had finished wolfing down his bacon and eggs. Real bacon and eggs.

"What's up Cy?" The other guy looked towards him, one eye raised. Apparently he had noticed something off as well.

"…" He suddenly looked unsure how to continue. "Robin called the other night. Found something pretty interesting." Before Beast Boy could open his mouth, looking very prepared to utter some sort of remark, Cyborg continued. "B, he's found a way to bring back Terra."

Raven stared. Terra. Did he really just say that? How was it possible…they couldn't…

"W-what?" Beast Boy mumbled, his face looking a little pale. "Dude, your not twisting my arm, are you?" The larger man shook his head.

"Totally serious."

"Well…that's great." The words were forced and emotionless. In fact, everything about his body suggested just the opposite of great. Raven was still stuck on what Cyborg said. Bring back Terra? Bring back the traitor who almost killed them all? The girl who only at the very end realize that hey, I think I do want to do good?

The girl…who once was loved by Beast Boy?

No…They couldn't do this. They couldn't. Not when…not when she felt this…no…Not when she finally had a way out…What if he…and she….?

"Beast Boy?" Cyborg's voice was surprisingly gentle. "Look, man, I know what she did to us—what she did to you…you sure…?"

"She did save us in the end." Came the bitter reply. "Even if she betrayed us..." Then he walked out, not wanting to talk about this anymore. The other guy sighed, shaking his head.

"No…" Raven simply murmured. Out of everything that had happened to her…how could this be added to it? How could…it could be years until another situation like Starfire's…and during that time…with Terra….Her heart was feeling threatened…she was threatened…to finally find someone to…to….then to have it possibly taken away…

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Beast Boy glared at everything in his room, kicking at his bed angrily. He didn't want Terra to come back. It wasn't fair for him to have those thoughts…but she had really hurt them. She had betrayed them…

She had broke his heart.

But…there was good in her. She turned on Slade, and then sacrificed herself to save the city. That didn't change what she did before that though…could he forgive the person that changed sides so easily? Running to whomever offered her the most protection, the most attention?

"Gah, this sucks." He told his reflection. "How can she come back, and Raven… and Raven…" turning, he flopped onto his bed. None of this was fair. What would be fair would be Cyborg telling him they had found a way of bring Raven back…not Terra.

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Raven brooded over the words, tearing them apart over and over again. Waking up Terra. That didn't mean Beast Boy would fall for her again…That didn't even mean she'd join up with the Titans…

Still…the week passed by quicker then it should have, and soon, Cyborg and Beast Boy were at the statue of Terra. Starfire was going to come as well, but there was a crisis in Gotham…meaning it was just the three of them…well two of them. It had been a debate whether or not to wait, considering that it was Terra. What if she chose to attack them? Still…it was decided that it would be best to get it done with as soon as possible. The girl that turned to stone had saved the city, and it was decided it would be unlikely for her to suddenly betray them again…at least right away.

Raven couldn't help but hope the moment Terra was awake, that that would be it, that they'd go there separate ways…but she knew her teammates.

Cyborg had been busy all week, preparing the ingredients needed. Beast Boy offered little help, just watched on with a scowl, as though he really wasn't looking forward to this either….Raven couldn't say she wasn't happy for that.

"Beast Boy, stand on the other side of her." He instructed. Beast Boy did as told, crossing his arms.

"Dude, it looks like rain—why don't we do this tomorrow?" The only cloud in the sky hovered far away. Cyborg looked at him skeptically.

"If it rains, we'll go home." He said biting back a grin. Why did this have to happen… "Now take out the bottle I gave you and start coating her." Sighing, Beast Boy did as he was told, taking out a narrow flask with some sort of thick green substance in it.

"What's in this? Sewage?" His nose wrinkled as he poured the goo onto the statue.

"Your Tofu." Cyborg shot back, only receiving a stuck out tongue in response. Soon the statue was coated in a thick green glow, and they both stood back.

"Great—now we have a green Terra statue." Raven commented. Part of her was…happy that nothing was happening. They stood there, for about ten minutes, simply staring at it.

"Um…can we go home now?" Beast Boy asked hopefully, when a sharp crackling sound echoed in the air. Spider web fractures appeared in the cold surface, once begun spreading at a remarkable pace along the statue. For a moment, the eggshell pattern remained...before the entire first layer shattered in an array of dust and shards. And a girl fell forward, caught by one of Cyborg's massive arms. The girl that betrayed them all those years ago.

"Terra." Raven hissed. The girl blinked slowly, standing uneasily to her feet, over all with a highly disoriented expression on her face.

"W-where am I?" She asked, her voice oddly small.

"You remember us?" Cyborg asked, looking down at her. Realization dawned to her, and she took several steps back.

"I...I betrayed you." Her eyes were wide as memories slowly flooded in. Suddenly she started clawing at her suit. "Get this damn thing off me!" She cried. "I won't let him control me again!"

"Easy girl—we'll try to get it off at the tower." Cyborg said gently, trying to calm the hysterical girl. She stopped her efforts and nodded meekly before straitening up. Looking around, she saw the changeling, standing off to the side, he refusing to look directly at her.

"…Beast Boy?" She started, walking towards him. Raven flew between the two, her eyes narrowing.

"Stay away from him." It was almost instinct for her to say that…even if she knew she wouldn't be heard. Terra simply walked through her. Whatever was to happen…she had no say in it. Feeling utterly helpless she turned to watch…watching as the girl…as Terra…reached down to touch the boy's arm.

"…I…I'm really sorry." She simply said. He shrugged off her hand and walked away. Her gaze followed him, she clutching the hand that had been pushed aside. There was a flicker of hurt in her eyes…and…Raven didn't like how they followed him.

"Give him some time." Cyborg said, patting her awkwardly on the shoulder. Nodding demurely, she didn't say anything for a moment.

Slowly, she opened her mouth. "Why do I smell like sewage?"

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Raven was not happy with this at all. The girl…the girl that made all the Titans trust her…even her trust her…was now back. The girl that betrayed them, broke Beast Boys heart, and almost killed them all. And to not be there to do anything about anything…she felt irritated at her uselessness.

Back at the tower, Cyborg was busy analyzing her suit, using the main computer to hack into its system. Beast Boy was in the same room, but he didn't seem to be too inclined to talk to the blonde haired girl, and just stood wearily to the side. The process was painful, and Terra was clutching the chair she was in, her knuckles growing white, and sweat beading along her face as she struggled not to cry out. Finally, Cyborg nodded, giving her a thumbs up. "Suits just a suit now—but, there are some clothes in your room if you want to change."

"Good to know." She said, wincing as she stood up. "Be back in a sec." And she vanished down the hallway.

"Come on BB—it was a long time ago." Cyborg rebuked his friend the moment she left the room. Beast Boy didn't answer, his face turning into a glower. They stood in silence for awhile, until the girl came in, back in her former Titan clothing.

"My room…it's still the same." She said, looking surprised.

"Well, we didn't have the heart to change it." Cyborg said, grinning at her. Terra looked over at Beast Boy hopefully, as though wanting to see any reaction at all. He didn't give any, just looking with determination at his hands.

"Man, you guys are old." She announced. "Like years older then I last saw you—how long was I out?" Cyborg did some mental calculation. Terra…during the time she was a statue…hadn't changed at all. She was the same fifteen year old girl, with the same attitude, the same cheerfulness…

"Well…a little over 4 years—and hey, we aren't old!" He defended, looking hurt by the comment.

"Uh huh." She grinned. "So where's Robin and Star?" Beast Boy tensed…Raven knew where this was heading.

"They are at Gotham now." Cyborg said slowly, also sensing what was about to happen. "It's slower here now, so we don't need all the people." Terra did another sweep of the room with her eyes, looking in the darker corners, as though having a feeling there was another member here that wasn't present.

"I don't see Ms. Sunshine either?" She said, then grinned wickedly. "I suppose she got tired of you two slackers as well?" Raven sighed. Even she knew it was meant as a joke, meant as a playful barb…but…it wasn't going to go so well.

Beast Boy shot daggers at the girl, speaking to her for the first time since the girl had arrived. "Raven is dead." And then he left the room. Terra stood slack jawed, her expression turning into a mixture of disbelief…and regret.

"Um…I wouldn't go around mentioning Raven to BB…that's sort of a sensitive subject." Cyborg said after a moment.

"How did it happen?" Terra asked quietly. Raven, hardly in the mood to hear once again how she apparently died, followed the other Titan out the room and down the hallway. He went up the stairs, sitting on top of the roof, looking out into the bright day's sky.

He didn't say anything, just kept staring forward, as though trying to process everything that had happened today. Raven did as she always did…sat beside him, knowing that he'd not see or hear anything she'd try to do.

"You better believe I'll be coming back now." She said dryly. "I don't trust Terra." I don't trust Terra around you. She mentally clarified to herself. The way Terra had looked at him…she had a feeling that the girl still had feelings for him.

And with her gone….she was scared what would happen.

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Everything seemed to go in fast forward after that night. Terra…having no where to go, and both Robin and Cyborg feeling it was better for her to stay at the Tower then off where they couldn't keep an eye on her…joined the two Titans. Raven hated that decision…and she was glad that Beast Boy seemed to share similar feelings.

Terra, on the other hand, was elated. "I absolutely promise I won't go bad again!" She had told over the monitor to both Robin and Starfire.

"I do hope that we can trust you." Starfire smiled at the girl, but her expression looked a little doubtful as well. Trust…was hard to build, and so easily shattered. Terra didn't just shatter the Titan's trust—she had completely obliterated it with her actions. Still…she now seemed to be trying to repent. Raven…almost wished the girl had a hidden agenda, a secret plot…that she was going to go evil a second time.

Following the girl around, however, proved none of her theories. In fact, she almost couldn't help but feel sorry for the girl, as she sat alone in her room, her arms tightly across her knees as she stared off in the distance. Sometimes she held the jewelry box Beast Boy had given her, staring at her reflection, as though wising she could change the way things were now.

Raven hated that more then anything. Beast Boy had been the only thing to keep her going through the years…her feelings for him, and his for her. She didn't expect to go running into his arms or anything when she got back—something she would be doing—but…she didn't want to deny her feelings either. She had to return...before anything happened.

The emotion clutching her heart…she knew she was jealous. Jealous of the girl that could be so near Beast Boy…

Terra…was going after him too. That what made it worse. She was pursing Beast Boy. Her Beast Boy. She was trying to break down the barrier he had placed around himself. He ignored her on most days…but she was one of those girls that would get under your skin to the point you had to notice her. She pranked him, tried to get him to play video games, told him lame jokes…pretty much did everything he would do to try and cheer up another person.

Raven…had never hated someone more in her life.

"You always play games with Cyborg!" She whined at him one day, stomping her foot against the floor. "Come on—just one game…unless you are scared a little girl like me can kick your butt."

"I am watching TV." Came his even remark. He was sitting on the couch, some sci-fi show blaring across the screen. She pouted, an act that made Raven seethe.

"Why don't you just go away?" Raven suggested to the girl.

"Then, I'll join you." Terra plopped herself on the couch beside the older boy. He scooted a bit away from her, but didn't stop her, keeping his eyes entirely on the screen. Raven didn't enjoy shows like this…but seeing them both, their eyes glued to the screen as the events unfolded…even that made her a little jealous. Terra…and Beast Boy…they were similar on many levels. She…and Beast Boy were not.

She turned away from the scene and slumped to the floor, clasping her knees to her chest. I will get out of this. She tried to reassure herself. One day, she could sit on the couch next to him. One day, she could touch him. One day…

If…it ever would come.

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Beast Boy at first hated the fact Terra was joining them. Sure, all the reasons made sense, but…still. It was Terra. Wasn't that enough to have her leave? Hadn't she caused enough trouble the last time she was here?

But, soon it became natural for her to be there. It wasn't that he'd consider her a friend, exactly…after everything, he didn't want to call her that. It was more that she was a part of the Titan trio, the three of them doing good whenever needed. And in between times, the three could hang out, watch TV, play games—pretty much just goof around.

He tried to keep as much tough exterior as he could to her, but, when Cyborg worked on his T-car or other things, it did just leave the two of them. And she was fun. He hated to admit that, but it was true.

And all the past had happened a long time ago…could he hold it against her forever?

Either way, he tried for the first few months, and did a good job, if he could say so him self…but…after that, he started to soften up. Anyone who eats tofu can't be all bad. He reasoned to himself. Sure, she eats everything, but…

A part of him was worried that by getting close to her to her again, even as simply friends…that he'd be disgracing Raven's name. Raven that still held his heart…was it odd he felt that it would be cheating on her? Even if she was no longer with them? It had taken Raven a long time to trust Terra, and Terra threw that in her face when she betrayed them. And Beast Boy had at one time liked Terra…it just felt weird.

Walking around in T-tower, he noticed Terra wasn't anywhere to be found. It wasn't so much that he was looking for her—he was just bored out of his mind. Cyborg had gone out to get some more parts for his car, nothing was on TV, and he had played all his video games more times then he could count. He was just looking for something to do. He hated being alone, especially when he didn't want to be.

"Stupid TV." He muttered, as he walked into the living room. Opening the fridge, he was dismayed at its bare interior. He was bored, and eating wasn't even an option. "Stupid refrigerator."

Trotting about the building, he slowly went up the steps heading for the roof. In the end…whenever he wasn't sure where to go, he always found himself coming out here. It reminded him of her…sometimes he could close his eyes and imagine seeing Raven hovering cross-legged off the ground, deep in meditation. And sometimes, he imagined her turning around, the small smile on her face that she reserved only for the most special of occasions...

These thoughts made him feel empty, as though there was something apart of him that was missing…She was missing. But…they also were pleasant ones, like reminders of better days, treasures he kept deep inside.

As he reached the top of the stairs, his mind flickered to what he could do once he got up there. Maybe he'd go shoot some hoops. By himself. All alone. Opening the door, he ducked back in as he saw the blonde headed girl sitting on top of the roof, her feet dangling off the side. She was looking off in the distance, with an odd expression on her face. He thought about going inside, thinking there had to be something better to do then hang with Terra.

Still, she was looking awfully lonely at the moment. And it couldn't hurt to just talk to her…right?

Stepping out the door, his footsteps interrupted her thoughts, and she spun around. He hadn't noticed it before, but her eyes were filled with tears. Maybe this wasn't such a good idea. He just wanted company—not an actual conversation. She's crying! Part of him protested. Dude, you can't leave her now. Which was true. He couldn't.

"What's up?" She asked, one hand wiping across her face.

"You don't look so good---why are you crying?" He sat several feet away from her.

"I wasn't crying." She responded instantly. He just gave her a cock eyed look, she simply sighing. "Do you know what today is?" He thought for a moment. It was getting close to another year without Raven. That was the first thing that came into mind, and he felt a slight pang in his heart. Other then that…he couldn't think of anything.

"Hopefully not your birthday, cause, I so am not prepared for that." He commented. She shook her head.

"Today was the first day I met all of yall." She hugged her knees. "I kinda wish everything was back the way it was before." Before she betrayed them? Before the Titans split? Before Raven died?...a lot of things had to be different for it to be back that way. He forced himself to hold his tongue though.

"Things happen." He shrugged his shoulders.

"Yah…I just wish we could at least be friends again." She mumbled, more to herself then to him, but the comment didn't go unnoticed. They continued to sit on the roof in complete silence, each lost in their own thoughts. Finally, she spoke. "From what Cy told me…and from what I've seen…you really cared for Raven, didn't you?" Her voice was soft, as though she was hoping the answer wasn't what she had stated.

"I didn't just care for her…I loved her." Beast Boy said after a moment. Absently, he played with the bracelet on his wrist…his remaining reminder of the girl.

Terra nodded. "Did…did you ever tell her?"

"Never got the chance." He squeezed his eyes shut. He would never get the chance to…not now…not in the future…Why did Raven have to…forcing himself away from those thoughts, he tried to focus on the conversation, here and now. "I wish I did though."

"I wish I could have seen her again before…" She didn't finish her sentence, simply staring off into the sky. "I mean, I was a real jerk the last time we met…and…it would have been nice to be able to say sorry." He looked over at her—he never realized how lonely she was.

"Starfire heard her." Beast Boy said, in his mind finding the words to be more comforting to the girl then they came out. In fact, she was just looking at him oddly. Rethinking his thoughts, he tried again. "I mean, I think she's watching over us—the entire angel bit…I'm sure she heard you." It was awkward to be comforting her, but the slight smile she gave him made him feel better.

"An angel? She never seemed to be the white robed winged type." The girl smiled, a smile that was both sad and playful. Despite himself, Beast Boy laughed a bit, although his laugh was dry and abrupt. Terra fidgeted for a moment, before speaking again. "You…you think we can be friends?" She asked meekly, staring down at her feet, her hands twisting together. "I mean, Cy is great and all, but…" He thought about it. It couldn't hurt being her friend.

Holding out one hand, he grinned at her. "Alright." She accepted it gladly, shaking hands in a sort of truce, with a smile to match his own.

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Raven watched the two talk…she shouldn't be jealous over them…Beast Boy was too nice of a person to stay upset for too long…as much as she wished him to. And…it was just friends. That didn't mean anything.

If that was so, then why could she stop herself from glaring down at the girl? Why couldn't she stop herself from feeling…left out?

And the fact they were bonding over her memory didn't help any.

"I…wish I was there." She said simply, floating over to face the two. They were smiling now…they were laughing…interacting. She was nothing more then the person on the sidelines. One hand out, she reached towards Beast Boy, her fingertips brushing his cheek. "Damn you for making me feel this way." She said, but as much as she felt she was bitter, she couldn't stop how she was feeling.

She was so lonely...never able to feel the touch of the wind…never able to brush the side of a wall…never to be heard or to be seen. She hated all of this—why was it Terra could come back and she couldn't? Why was she the one trapped…alone in a world with only herself? Unanswered questions swirled in her mind, enwrapping her entire body in a veil of doubt.

She…was only a memory to him…how could she care for him so much and still only be that? Why did things have to be this way? Never had she felt this way for one person. And watching them together…why did she get the feeling she was going to slowly feel her heart crushed between them?

Was the emotions that she had discovered for him all in vain? Was she going to end up forever watching him…never being able to be in his world?

And if she came back…would there even be room for her?

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I hope you enjoyed lol…let me know if you think I was going too slow or too fast with the time line—I'm trying to not drag it out, but at the same time not to dilly dally either, since I'm rather impatient to get to Raven's return…

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