Lone Flower
Disclaimer: Don't Own. Don't Sue.
A/N: Hello! This is something I've wanted to write for a long time, but never had the courage to do so. Review, comments please. Might put up a sequel. R and R please! The italics are just a project I wanted to try out. Oh, and this is written in Eriol's point of view, about Tomoyo of course.
She was always there. When anyone was down, she was always there to comfort and care. At a young age, she gave out her all to everyone around her. But she was lonely. She was always lonely.
She had thought no one had noticed. And no one ever did. Except me. I had always observed her. I had known that she experienced longing for her best friend, but knowing her best friend would never reciprocate her feelings, she always hid her pain from everyone with a smile.
She was always putting up a strong front, trying to make herself believe what she had always told herself. 'If Sakura is happy, I will be happy too.', was what she always wanted to believe. Yet, unknown even to herself, she was torn. At times I wondered if she wanted to escape from the truth. For surely the truth would hurt more than it already did.
But no matter how she tried to mask her grief, I could always see through it. Why? Because I was the reincarnation of a powerful sorcerer. Try as I might, her thoughts occasionally made their way into my brain before I could stop them.
I could see the pain in her beautiful amethyst eyes as she watched Syaoran and Sakura have fun together, laughing and hugging each other. She tried to turn away all the time, hiding her tears. The voices I heard of her in my head were not as pleasant as I thought they should have been from when I first met her until now.
Some voices in my head of her had been crying silently, crying out for someone to help her. However, she had refused treatment from anyone. She had gone in too deep, too deep to find her way out.
She was like a lone flower on the barren land, blossoming in the middle of nowhere, waiting for someone to shield her from the bright rays of the sun and the harsh weather conditions. But in her case, before someone could protect her, she was already damaged. She was in danger of wilting, in danger of dying. She chose death, for death meant that she would provide as 'fertilizer for the soil', and would be able to help the barren land, even if the help was only of a minimal amount.
She chose to sacrifice her happiness, to provide happiness for others. She knew that in order for others to be happy, there had to be one party who had to sacrifice themselves. And without hesitation, she agreed to sacrifice herself for the good of others.
She contained such kindness, such compassion, that before I knew it, I had fallen in love with her. It was unexpected, for I always thought I was still in love with Kaho after she left me. The truth just came and hit me like a 'POW!' and realization that I loved her dawned on me.
When she suffered, I suffered. I hated to see her suffer so, and I hated to see her upset. But what could I do? It seemed as if I had no choice but to watch, and it was tearing me apart. Why did she have to suffer? She was so kind, and she deserved the best.
How I wished she would take a second glance at me, and to stop crushing on Sakura. That would have prevented her suffering at least a little. At times we conversed, and from those intelligent little conversations we had, I also found out that she was wise, wise beyond her years.
But she loved Sakura. Shewas sinking deeper and deeper into the bottomless abyss of darkness that wasknown asheartbreak. And I could do nothing to help her.
In the end, I still loved her. But she would never be mine.
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Fin.
I was kind of upset while I was writing this fic. When I started out, I never expected to end it this way. Amusing how my mind works. I know this is a little weird, and I think I should be putting up a sequel. I'm not that big a fan of Eriol and Tomoyo not ending up together. But then again, I'm not a rabid fan of happy endings either. Guess you'll just have to wait and see… Please R and R!