Here is another chapter. It's been awhile for all of my stories but I got this muse or something and I've just been flowing with this stuff so I hope you guys like it. This is an intense chap lol. It picks up with the Logan/Naley storyline. I will continue more where i left the other cliffhangers in the next chap. Read and Review!
xoxo Jules
Chapter 9: "Now it always seemed such a waste"
Karen sat and stared at the four teens who now say at her kitchen table.
"So this is a nice… surprise. I um, I guess that we must have gotten the dates mixed up or something…" Karen said nervously
"Um, yeah, I guess so." Spencer said looking up at his grandmother.
The relationship between Karen and Spencer was the exact same that she had with her son many years before.
"I'm sorry about before…" Jenny began. She had not been able to look Karen in the eye since she walked in on she and Spencer.
"We'll talk about it later." Karen said. "So how have you been Logan?"
"Good." Logan said shortly.
Suddenly the doorbell ringing cut the awkward tension.
"I'll get it!" Everyone said at the same time.
They all paused and looked back and forth to on another.
"I'll get it." Karen finally said taking authority and standing to open the door for the unknown guest. "Coming!" She yelled as she had jogged to the door. "Nathan, Haley?" Karen asked quizzically as she stared at the two angry looking adults before her. "Is everything okay?"
"No it's not okay, I need to find my daughter so I can kick her ass!" Nathan said charging into the house.
"Nathan!" Haley said trailing behind him trying to calm him down.
"Mom, Dad?" Logan said entering the living room from the kitchen very confused. "What's going on?" She asked when her dad tossed the bag of weed on the floor in front of her.
"You tell me!" Nathan said.
"Oh shit…" Aspen muttered from where she sat in the kitchen as she watched the scene unfold in front of her.
"Dad, that's not mine!" Logan quickly lied, but her parents knew her too well.
"Bullshit Logan! We already talked to Hannah. She told us everything." Nathan yelled.
"Oh really? I swear to god when I get home I'm going to kill her!" Logan yelled turning her back to her father.
"Don't turn your back to me!" Nathan said grabbing her by the shoulders and swinging her around. "Your mother and I are worried to death about you!" Nathan yelled
"She's not my mother!" Logan screamed back pushing her father off of her…
And with that said the room became quiet… you could only hear the shocked gasps that escaped them all one by one.
Logan looked up at Haley… her mother. She had never seen her look so hurt in her life. Logan couldn't stand to see her mother so pained, so broken, all because of her.
She put her hands up in the air, tears escaping from her eyes.
"I can't do this anymore." Logan said running out the back door.
Karen looked at Haley, her surrogate daughter sympathetically as she sunk her head and made her way up the stairs before anyone could see her cry.
Nathan looked up at Aspen, Spencer, and Jenny helplessly.
"Do you have any idea where she would have gone?" He asked
"Um, maybe the park…" Aspen offered knowing in her heart that probably wasn't where Logan ran to…
"Thanks." Nathan said grabbing his keys and heading out.
--- Nathan drove for hours looking for Logan, and yet there was no sign of her… anywhere. He called back to the house.
"Hello?" Spencer said when he heard the phone ring.
"Spencer? Has Logan come back yet?"
"No, sorry Uncle Nate." Spencer said.
"Spencer, if you have any idea where she would have gone you need to tell me." Nathan said almost pleading.
Spencer sighed.
"All that I've got's an address in her bag." He said finally giving in.
"Great, give it to me." Spencer read off the address. "By the way Spencer who's address is this?" Nathan asked
Spencer hesitated….
--- Nathan pounded on the door, there was no response. He pounded on it again.
"Hello!" Brooke said when she opened the door, shocked to see the man that she hadn't seen in over 16 years. The father of her daughter.
"Where the hell is she?" Nathan asked pushing into the apartment.
"She's in the bedroom." Brooke said. "What's going on?"
"My daughters a pot head that's what's going on." Nathan said through gritted teeth.
"Look Nathan, I think that you need to calm down and talk to her." Brooke said
"Don't you try to play mother now Brooke, that times come and gone." Nathan said angrily
"Don't take it out on her because you're mad at me!" Logan said as she stormed out of the room.
"Logan, don't you ever run out on your mother and I like that ever again!"
Logan flinched at the mention of her mom. The one that she had just hurt so bad.
"Or what dad? What are you going to do to me? You expect me to be perfect? Well newsflash, I'm not! I haven't been since I smoked my first joint when I was thirteen dad. I'm not your little girl anymore!" Logan said breathing heavily.
Nathan was shocked by his daughters words. How had this gone on so long and nobody knew about it? He stood in shock as he watched his daughter flee again leaving he and Brooke in what was to say the least an awkward position…
--- Logan ran through the park struggling to catch her breath. It was a full moon, and the stars had never looked so beautiful that Logan could wish for nothing more than to join them. She plopped down on a bench in the moonlight not aware that she had company.
"Figures we'd both end up here." A familiar voice from next to her came.
Logan turned to see her mothers face looking away from hers. They sat in an awkward silence momentarily.
"I'm sorry." Logan said in a small voice.
Haley didn't responded… Even in the dark she could see tears silently slipping down her mothers cheek.
"I'm sorry…" She tried again
"What did we do wrong Lo? Huh? Were your dad and I that horrible parents?"
"No, no mom, of course not!" Logan said her voice raising
"Well was it that we had to many kids? Did you feel like you didn't have enough attention or something?" Haley asked her daughter looking for answers
"No mom, I love the kids." Logan said with her head in her hands.
"Then what is it Logan? Why have you become so pissed off at the world all of the sudden?!"
"Because I don't know who the hell I am mom! My life is just so confusing right now, I can't even explain it! I am just tired of everything, I'm tired of the pressure. I'm tired of living these double lives! The tutor girl by day, party girl by night."
Haley sighed when she heard her daughter speak. It was as though she and Brooke were trapped in the same body, two totally different personalities, equally confused.
"Why didn't you tell me this Logan?" Haley asked now turning towards her daughter.
"I didn't want to hurt you." She said honestly looking away. "I want to be perfect for you, even more than I do dad! I don't want to disappoint you mom. You didn't have to raise me, but you did because you love me more than anyone… You don't have to love me but you do and that means so much to me." Logan said now bawling as her mother pulled her into a hug.
"Logan, nobody forced me to love you. I have always loved you, and I still will even if you mess up. When I was younger my parents weren't happy about everything that I did either!" Haley smiled
"You mean you smoked pot to?" Logan asked her mother in surprise
"No, worse." Haley said grinning "I dated your father." She said winking.
A wide smile spread across Logans face. Brookes smile. Haley ran her finger over her daughters dimples.
"Have I ever told you how much you look like your mother?" Haley asked Logan
Logan was taken aback by the question. In all of her life they never discussed Brooke. She didn't know anything about her other than what Peyton would slip with sometimes giving her all the confirmation that she needed that her mother had been a party girl.
"No…" Logan said unsure of exactly how to respond.
"You do. She was beautiful."
"Were you friends?" Logan asked
"Sometimes." Haley said smiling.
"Do you hate her after everything?" Logan asked
"Nope. Never."
"How could you not hate her?"
"She gave me you." Haley said winking. "I am going to tell you something that I never told anyone." Haley began
Logan nodded knowing that this was going to be intense.
"Peyton and I went to LA, and we found Brooke right when we all got you. And she said something to me that I will never forget. She told me "I love my daughter. She deserves better than me. Better than this life. The only thing that I ask of you is to not hold my mistakes against my daughter. … just please, treat her like a mother would." If she hadn't said those things to me I wouldn't be the mother that I am today. Brooke helped me more than she will ever know." Haley said smiling and tussling Logan's hair.
"Can I tell you something?"
"Anything babe." Haley said smiling and now more relaxed
"I met Brooke, she's in Tree Hill…"
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xoxo Jules