Title: Back When I Was a Kid

Author: Vapid breath

Disclaimer: I do not own Yu-Gi-Oh

Rating: R to NC-17

Main Pairings: Jounouchi/Kaiba, Honda/Otogi, Yugi/Ryou, Marik/Bakura, Malik/Yami until I decide differently

Other Pairings: Jou and the following: Honda, Otogi, Yugi, Malik, Ryou, Mokuba, Mai and Bakura. Bakura and the following: Marik, Malik, Marik and Malik, Jou, Mokuba, Yami, Yugi, Ryou. HondaxOtogi, HondaxShizuka, YugixAnzu, RyouxYugi, and any other pairing involving only the mentioned.

Genre: Romance, Hentai, Angst, Psychological, Humor, and others

Warnings: Suicide, Rape, Non-Con, Original characters, but small ones to help story flow, so don't worry, Yaoi, Character deaths, Sadist, Masochist, Flashback, Drug use, Cursing, Dominance, Submission, Toys, Fetishes, Bashing, and anything else I can think of.

Important Notes: First off, I have no acceptable excuse for this chapter to be out so late. I just wrote it, so it's unedited. I beg for your forgiveness and selfishly ask that you continue to read and review. Thank you. Secondly, I'm going through a tough time and will begin to see a psychologist soon. With my already busy schedule, it will be nearly impossible to update frequently. However, I promise to never have you wait so long for an update as you did for this chapter. I truly appreciate your support and reviews.

Story Notes: Jou and Kaiba will not immediately get together, but it will happen. Jou doesn't suddenly realize he's gay either. He's confused and a teenager. Their bodies change and react to strange things.

FLASHBACK

Mai's party was hype as always. My body was tinglin' and I was feelin' hot in more ways than one. It felt so strange to breathe in the smoke of different flavored joints while movin' to the beat of hip-hop that blasted through the speakers. This is what bein' young is all about. All you have to do is feel good for the moment to make it through.

"Hey, Jou!" I looked over to see Ryou comin' in through the door. He wore a plain blue T-shirt and faded jeans that were torn on one knee. Nothin' special, but he still looked like a fuckin' pretty-boy. Not as much as that queer lookin' guy Otogi.

"Hey, man. Whatcha doin' here? This ain't you type of place."

"I'm meeting someone. He lives down the street from me and asked me to come." I've asked Ryou to come to parties wit' me forever. How come some guy he just met got him to come?

"Whatever. Is he here? Or better yet, have you seen Mai?" We both looked around until I saw her dancin' wit' some guy. Me and Mai aren't in a stable relationship, but I've touched her and I didn't want the guy touchin' her too.

I left Ryou and went up to them. Mai had her hands in the air as she rubbed her ass against the guy's dick. I knew he was hard. Anyone dancin' with her would be. She was hot and older. I pushed between them when I saw the guy's hands goin' up her purple mini skirt. The guy was goin' too far.

"Jounouchi! What the fuck are you doing?" She was mad at me and I didn't know what to say. I looked between him and her. She had on a lot of make-up tonight. Sometimes I thought she didn't need so much. She was pretty without it. He was pretty too, in a girl-y sort of way. I hated pretty boys.

I decided to glare at him, thinkin' maybe he'd get the message and leave her alone. Dark, blue eyes stared right back. It was weird the way they made my skin feel. I was getting' goose bumps just from the guy's eyes. I wasn't scared though. I could take him if I really wanted.

He was really tall. I was only 5'6 and this guy was about three inches bigger. His skin was so white. It couldn't be real. Hasn't he ever heard of tannin'? His hair was brown and it was too neat. He was too neat. I hadn't noticed before, but even his shirt was tucked in.

"—You filthy mongrel."

"What the fuck did you call me, you prissy bastard?"

"Are you hearing impaired as well?" Mai laughed a little and people were started to notice us.

"If you take the dick out your mouth and say whatever you said again you'd find out!" The group around us laughed and started instigatin' a fight.

The ass hole actually hit me! Of course, I punched him back. He fell back a little before runnin' up to me and pushin' me. I hit the ground, but got right back up. I charged at his stomach and we both fell this time. I was on top though. He started movin' and fightin' back. My body was still tinglin' and I felt this spark when he bucked under me.

I stopped movin' when I realized what it was.

He stopped too. My head was only at his neck, so I had to lift it to see his face. His eyes were dangerous, but the smirk was worse.

"—Repulsive fag." Everyone around us was laughing. I was strugglin' to breathe. I wanted to cry. The guy pushed me off of him and I ran as soon as he stood up. All I saw was faces in my head, laughing and frownin'. I saw Mai, Otogi that guy, even Ryou, but he looked different. I saw Honda as I pushed through people. He wasn't lookin' at me. I didn't know what to think about that.

END FLASHBACK

Kaiba Seto is a piece of work. That was the first time I'd ever met him. It's hard to believe that he was just another horny teenager back then. It isn't like much has changed.

I'm not sure why he made me so angry. I cared about Mai and I was still high. The crowd was there and at that age I had a reputation to maintain. I saw an opportunity to vent and took it without a second thought.

Now, remember that bit about Otogi, the pretty boy who thought I was coming on to him in the hallway? I have always thought that he meant why. I just don't think he knew how to show it. Instead, he laughed with everyone else as my life came tumbling down. This was the guy that owned more hair products than Mai and was just as feminine. I couldn't believe him. When we first met he was conceited, but tolerable. In the cafeteria that same day, he turned out to be friendly, albeit shy. Then, at the party he showed a whole other side that I will never like.

I haven't forgotten about what else happened. I'll never forget. A guy who was punching the shit out of me turned me on even though I had him tackled on the ground. The same guy announced to an entire group of judgmental teenagers that I was gay. My peers of that time watched the big bad Jounouchi Katsuya run away with tears in his eyes.

I told myself I would never cry again.

But I've become so good at lying.

TBC

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