I said, "Where's my Jakie?"
Jakie said, "Here…Here…I'm over here…"
Mark watched me from the medical room. Jakie ran to me, and I squatted down and picked him up into my arms…and he hugged me as tight as he could and kissed my cheek…He said, "Aunt Lala…are you sad?" I said, "Yes, I am." He said, "I don't want you to be sad…" I said, "Well, give me a big hug and kiss, and I promise I won't be sad anymore."
So he did…and I forced a fake smile and said, "Oh my gosh Jakie look, you cured me…I guess that makes you a doctor now too…you can be my assistant…" Jakie said, "Really Aunt Lala?" I said, "Absolutely…" I put Jakie down and he said, "Mommy, I get to be Aunt Lala's assistant…" She said, "I know isn't that great Jakie…" Jakie nodded and by the time we went down to the medical room, Mark was gone…
Vanessa noticed I had been crying again and asked what happened, so I told her the whole thing…She said, "Maybe you should tell him Nyla…" I said, "Are you out of what's left of your mind?" Vanna said, "I'm serious Lala…he's obviously concerned and worried about you…maybe you should just be honest and tell him, if not him, tell one of your other friends…I mean they all care about you as much as I do…one of them is bound to understand what happened and help you through it…"
I said, "Vanna, I don't want anyone to know, I mean I might consider telling Amy…but I'm just so undecided about it right now…" Vanessa nodded her head and said, "Well, when you're ready…I'm sure any one of them would be happy to listen.." I agreed, but just wasn't ready…
A week later, at the airport I said my good-byes to Vanessa and Jakie, Amy was standing next to me…and the guys were waiting for us, by the gate…I squatted down and said, "Jakie, my little man…take care of your mother, lord knows she takes care of both of us enough to last a life time…" Jakie hugged me tight and said, "Promise you'll write Aunt Lala…" I said, "I promise sweetie…I'll e-mail you as soon as I get to the hotel later…"
I stood up and said, "And you…would you stop making me cry already…" Vanessa laughed and said, "I wish I could say something to make the pain go away, but I know that there are no words of wisdom for something like that…all you can do is roll with the punches honey…it will probably get harder before it gets easier…but other then that, sleep when you can…sit in hot baths, and relax…just let what ever happens…happen…it's all you can do…"
I said, "Why is it, I'm always telling you good-bye…I hate good-byes…" She said, "Then don't say good-bye, good-bye is forever, say…see ya later, cause you know you will…I'll get the ladies in the office started on another list…and get your happy ass laughing and smiling again on a regular basis…"
I said, "Okay, that's a great idea…" Amy said, "Yes, it is…I can't wait now…" We all laughed and they got on their plane, and we got on ours…and went our separate ways…Vanessa and Jakie back to New York…me and the gang to Michigan…for the next Raw…