Inside me I hide all my emotion,
I cloak it from others, no hurt or devotion.
There are people who transact, dragging along a smile,
But in the end they get hurt, and it's my number they dial.
I've gave love a chance, but it reared its true head,
And transformed to a dragon, abusing me instead.
So I lock up away, so no feelings can get me,
But I still manage to hurt those I cherish, around me.
Happiness has given me a chance, blessed me with care
I've got friends I cherish, but a demon's life isn't fair
I still have secrets I hide for their own good, that I can't tell –
Cos then the things that happiness gives me, well –
All proceeds go to hell.
They've cursed me for life, its worse than pain
You have to keep to yourself, and the weight drives you insane
The weight of depression, the secrets and lies
The way you're always lonely and sad, but have to disguise
The truth – or it'll get out, happiness will turn bad
And take away the only thing you've truly wanted and had
The horrible truth has set fire to your dreams
But if it is spoken, it will rip reality at the seams
So here I stand, in this busy lifetime
Fighting and fending it, but also committing - crime
I still have secrets I hide for their own good, that I can't tell –
Cos then the things that happiness gives me, well –
All proceeds go to hell.
All proceeds go to hell
So I keep myself enigmatic, never leaving open a door
Therefore knowing, they're lives are secure
So I lock myself up, and hide away the key
And the mystery grows deeper, till eventually
The key may be discovered, the secrets – found.
Or my mystery will stay hidden, deep underground
And as much as I want to tell you
To confide in someone true
I keep telling myself over and again
Just to prove its moral to be feign
All proceeds go to hell
All proceeds go to hell
So, Titans , I'll never tell.