NOTES:
YaoiKitty: I love hide's laugh. Unless you put it on a loop for like five minutes. THEN it's annoying. xD But it's cute! WEMISSYOUHIDE-SAN!
Fujipuri: I think Kurisu was just trying to make Kei not feel so bad...or she just didn'tunderstand what he meant by it...xD Sho: OWW. DON'T SLAP ME. THATHURT. ...Okay. That was just Mana, but still...that's not even close to Sho. xD;;
Essenity: Uhh...Unhinged is a set of cards. Don't ask...xD Science homework? Eeep. I haven't had Chemistry homework, but it's just a matter of time. (I'm in honors Chem...)
Yuki-nakayama-hidaka: Thanks! I felt so horrible when I thought of that, I almost started crying.
Inguz: I'll go read your poems/stories when I get done playing this game...Shiritori. It's amazingly fun! Melly taught it to me...
This chapter brought to you by the Todokanai Ai To Shitteita noni Osaekirezuni Aishitsuzuketa PV! YAY FOR MALICE MIZER GACKT AND VAMPIRES! XD And Beauty & Stupid and Eyes Love You by hide-san! Thanks for the mp3s, YaoiKitty. :D
School has started for me, so this will be partially written in my Misc. folder. xD Read and hopefully enjoy. Just don't throw things at me. (puts up wall to protect myself) I need my brain for AP US History!
Chapter Four
"Sho! You're still awake!" Kurisu said, walking over to Sho and glancing at the monitors. Kei hung back in the doorway, hoping Sho wouldn't notice him.
"Of course I am!" Sho replied in a cheery voice. "Why wouldn't I be?"
"I don't know," Kurisu replied innocently. "I thought you might be tired from fainting."
"I'm not, actually." Sho replied. "It's strange…" Kei knew exactly why Sho wasn't tired. The hospital had given him blood so he wasn't tired anymore. But the drug should have kicked in…He sighed softly, knowing he would have to be strong the next few days. Sho jerked his head towards the doorway. "Who's there?" Sho whispered, almost as if he were afraid. Kei took a deep breath and stepped forward, looking at Sho hopefully, but Sho simply looked away and said, "Oh. It's you."
"Who were you expecting?" Kei asked him, walking over to his chair and sitting down.
"Anybody but you," Sho replied, a hint of anger in his voice.
"Now, now. I've taught you better, Sho. And you should know that wasn't very nice." Kei said, ignoring Sho's last statement.
"What are you talking about?" Sho asked him, staring incredulously. "We've known each other for a day!"
"No, Sho. We haven't." Kei whispered softly, catching Sho's attention. He figured that he should start to remind Sho of his past as soon as possible.
"What do you mean?" Sho asked him.
"Sho—we've known each other for over twenty years."
"No we haven't! We met—"
"Listen to me, Sho, please." Kei said softly, staring into Sho's cerulean eyes. "You…you've forgotten all of your memories with me in them. Sho—we love each other. Don't you remember?" Sho stared back at Kei.
"I…" Sho paused. "You…Kei—you're making it all up. I remember the past twenty years of my life and you're not in any part of it!" Kei sat back in his chair and sighed. Sho watched him for a moment and then asked, "When are Shinji and Toshi going to be visiting me?" Kei looked up at Sho.
"Sho…they're dead." Sho's eyes widened.
"Th-they're—?"
"Dead." Kei finished.
"Bu-but I saw them yesterday—"
"Sho, you only think you saw them yesterday, but the last time you saw Shinji and Toshi was months ago." Kei told him gently.
"H-how did they die?"
"Chan and his men." Kei said. Sho's eyes widened.
"Chan?" Sho asked; Kei nodded.
"Do you know who Chan is?" Sho nodded. Kei looked away from Sho before continuing on. "He killed Shinji and his wife in their house. And then a few months later, Toshi killed Chan but then Chan's men killed him. We—we buried Toshi in our backyard…" Kei looked up at Sho, who was beginning to cry. He got up and sat down next to Sho, letting the younger vampire sob uncontrollably into his shoulder. "Oh Sho…" Kei said softly, burying his face in Sho's hair. He wrapped his arms around Sho comfortingly. "You used to be so strong and you barely cried when they died…what happened?" Sho wrapped his arms around Kei tightly, needing something to hold on to.
After about ten minutes, Sho's sobs slowly ceased and his breathing calmed down. Kurisu gently touched Sho's shoulder, but he didn't move. "Kei—I think he's asleep. You can let go of him now." Kei looked up at her and smiled a watery smile.
"I don't want to," Kei said softly. "If he has amnesia and doesn't remember me, this is the only time I'll be able to hold him close until he finally remembers me." Kurisu smiled.
"Okay." She said softly, going over Sho's charts again.
Kei stroked Sho's hair softly and began to whisper in his ear, "Oh Sho…I love you so much, and it's tearing me apart to see you hating me…" Sho sighed in his sleep and moved his head to a more comfortable position on Kei's shoulder.
"Kei—there's something that might happen while Sho has amnesia," Kurisu said softly, breaking Kei's peaceful moment.
"What?" Kei asked, still stroking Sho's soft hair.
"But I need to ask you a question—how old was Sho when he met you?"
"Seven." Kei replied, remembering his dream where Sho said, "I was seven when I met you!"
"Okay. And it seems as though he just remembers that one memory. So I think that he may revert to a seven year old." She told him.
"What do you mean?"
"Well, I mean that he may start acting like a seven year old—"
Oh yeah. Like he didn't before… Kei thought.
"—And he may have childish fears again, too."
"I can handle that." Kei told her. He was about to add "I've done it once before with the same exact kid" but he realized that she didn't know he was a vampire. Kei simply smiled and looked down at Sho. The vampire was fast asleep and was drooling on Kei's shoulder. Kei simply shook his head and kissed Sho's cheek gently.
"Visiting hours were over ten hours ago, sir," a nurse who had come into the room told him angrily.
"Anisa, don't be so rude. I've given him permission to stay." Kurisu told the nurse; Kei looked up.
"Anisa?" The nurse looked at him and gasped.
"Kei!" She said happily. Kei was right—it was Anisa, the secretary from Kurisutina's office. "I knew we'd meet again!" Kei smiled.
"You got a job here?" Kei asked.
"Yeah. I work at the front desk of this wing." Anisa told him. "Kurisu gave me the job!"
"You…you look different." Kei said, amazed.
"Do I?" Anisa asked and then she realized. "Oh yeah! I got contacts and got rid of my glasses."
"You look nice," Kei told her; she blushed slightly.
"Thanks." Anisa looked at the sleeping Sho in Kei's arms. "Is he—?"
"Oh he's fine. Just asleep." Kei told her, not really wanting to go into any more detail. Anisa smiled at him.
"Well, he looks comfortable," she said as Sho reached up and grabbed at Kei's hair. Kei hissed in pain and gently pushed Sho's hand away from his hair.
"Damn brat," he muttered quietly as Anisa and Kurisu began to chat quietly. Sighing softly, Kei slowly laid Sho back down on the bed, pulling the white sheets up to Sho's chest. He brushed Sho's braids behind his shoulders softly. "Poor Sho…" Kei said softly, tracing his fingers over Sho's soft lips.
"Kei?" Kurisu said softly. Kei turned to look at her. "I'm going to grab a cup of coffee with Anisa. Will you be okay?" Kei nodded quickly and forced a smile. "I'll be back." She said, closing the door behind her. Silently, he pulled his chair next to the bed and sat down.
Slowly, he reached out and pulled Sho's hand towards him. He pressed Sho's warm hand to his cheek, feeling Sho's fingers twitch slightly. Sighing softly, Kei then kissed the palm of Sho's hand, a tear slipping down his cheek. He gently set Sho's arm back down on the bed and kneeled down next to the bed. He rested his head on Sho's chest. "Sho…I wish this was all just a dream," Kei whispered softly to the sleeping vampire. "I hope that your memories of me are just deep inside of your mind and that you haven't actually forgotten me…I don't think I could stand to see you hate me for the rest of time." A soft sob escaped his lips. He took a deep breath and tried to calm down.
After a few minutes, Kei stood up and leaned over Sho. He stared down at Sho's flawless face and smiled. Slowly, he leaned down and pressed his lips to Sho's softly. Sho moved slightly, but Kei didn't pay any attention. He pulled away after a few moments and just in time, too. Kurisu came back into the room with a cot behind her. Kei quickly brushed the tears from his eyes and smiled at her.
"I figured you should get some sleep, Kei." Kurisu said, wheeling the cot where his chair had been sitting before he moved it next to Sho's bed. "You've been up for a while."
"Thanks…" Kei said softly, sitting down on the edge of the cot. "Will Sho be—?"
"He'll be fine, don't worry." She assured him. "Please, get some sleep, Kei. You need it." Kei smiled and lied down on the cot. He closed his eyes and he slowly slipped into a dream……
A little while later, Kei was jolted out of his dream because someone had hit the side of the cot. Kei opened his eyes a bit to see what was going on. Kurisu was leaning over Sho, her fingers tracing over his pointed canines. Kei turned over and sighed, falling asleep again. If he hadn't been so tired, he would have cared a bit more……
"Feeling any better?" A soft voice asked.
"Y-yeah, I am," another voice replied. "I think getting some sleep helped me."
"Good."
"…Why is Kei still here?" The voice asked. Kei finally realized that it was Sho and Kurisu talking. "He can't care that much about me…I mean, we met two days ago!"
"Sho—you guys met years ago." Kurisu tried to tell him.
"Sure. Whatever you say." Sho replied, not believing her.
"Just try to eat your lunch." Kurisu said, sighing.
"L-lunch?" Kei said, opening his eyes. Kurisu was standing next to Sho, who was sitting in Kei's chair. She looked over at him and smiled.
"You're awake!"
"Y-yeah…" Kei replied. "I take it it's around noon?"
"A little bit after to be exact." Kurisu told him. Kei smiled and sat on the edge of the cot.
"Hey Sho." Kei said softly, smiling at the vampire. Sho simply looked at him and looked away, taking a bite of an apple that was part of his lunch. "A-are you feeling any better?" Kei asked.
"Yes, I am." Sho replied stiffly.
"Do you remember anything about me that you didn't before?"
"No, because I know absolutely nothing about you. We met two days ago!" Sho said angrily. "Why do you keep asking me those stupid questions?" Kei simply shook his head and stood up.
"Kei—" Kurisu tried to say.
"Bathroom." Kei said simply, walking out of the room quickly. He slammed the door shut, hearing Kurisu try to follow him.
Once he reached the bathroom, he locked the door behind him and put a hand to his forehead. He walked over to the sink and washed his face with cold water, trying to wake himself up. Drying his face with a paper towel, he realized it would be a long time before he could relax again.
Kei sighed and decided to simply sit in Sho's room and not say a word. "Maybe then he'll start to like me again," Kei whispered to himself in the mirror.
When he returned to the room, he found Sho sitting in the same chair, chatting away with a nurse; Kurisu was nowhere to be found. Kei smiled at Sho, who paid no attention to him, and sat down in a chair across the room from Sho. He stared at the wall across the room and remembered the words Sho had told him almost six months before—
"I—well, I guess…Kei, I—I…I love you."
Kei smiled at the warm memory and sighed softly. Sho, on the other hand, stared at him. The nurse had left, so he had no means of entertainment. "Kei-san?" Sho finally said softly after several minutes of silence. Kei didn't respond. "Kei-san…" Sho tried again. Kei was lost in a daydream and wasn't paying any attention to Sho at all.
After a half-hour of complete silence between the two vampires, Sho tried again. "Kei-san!" He said.
"Just Kei." Kei whispered. He looked up at Sho, small tears in his eyes. "Please, just Kei."
"Kei," Sho said. His cerulean eyes stared into Kei's, trying to hypnotize him.
"Don't try to hypnotize me with that gaze, Sho. I've proved that it's useless on me many years ago." Kei said softly, remembering their romantic date a few months ago.
"What?"
"Nothing." Kei muttered, brushing away the tears in his eyes.
"Kei—why did you stay last night? You could have gone home and come back today…" Sho said. Kei stood up and walked over to Sho. He stopped in front of the younger vampire and put his hands on either side of Sho's face, turning Sho's head so he was staring up at him.
"Because I love you, Sho," Kei said softly. Sho simply stared. "I-I know you don't remember anything about me, but I do love you. And you love me." Kei stared at Sho and saw a flicker of realization, but it was gone as soon as it had arrived.
"I…I don't know what you're talking about." Sho said, pushing away Kei's hands.
"Of course not…" Kei replied, turning around and walking back to his chair. As he sat down, he swore that he heard Sho say, "I love you". "Did you just say something, Sho?"
"Nope." Sho replied, suddenly becoming distant towards Kei once again.
"Sooner or later, you'll realize that I'm right." Kei said, trying a different tactic. When he had met Sho, he had always been short with the child and rather distant until Sho was so annoying that Kei couldn't help but fall in love with him.
"Pfft. Yeah, right," Sho replied, glaring at him. Kei glared back and watched Sho cower. "K-Kei—stop."
"Why?" Kei asked, still glaring.
"Because it's scaring me." Sho whimpered. "P-please stop, Kei." Kei stopped and looked towards the door to see Kurisu watching him, a shocked look on her face.
"Why did you do that?" She mouthed to him.
"It's the only way he'll learn." Kei mouthed back. He looked back at Sho, who had his knees pulled up to his chin and was whimpering softly. Quickly, he walked over to Sho and put a hand on the vampire's shoulder.
"D-don't!" Sho whispered, but Kei ignored it and pulled Sho into hug.
"I'm sorry," Kei said softly into the vampire's hair. "I didn't mean it." Sho buried his face in Kei's shirt and slowly began to calm down. After a few minutes, Sho looked up at Kei.
"P-please don't do that again, Kei," Sho whispered, his eyes staring at him, almost pleading with Kei.
"I won't." Kei whispered back. He leaned down and pressed his lips to Sho's forehead, but Sho pushed him away.
"Kei!" He hissed. "What are you doing?"
"Oh great, he's back a step now." Kei said, walking back to his chair and sitting down. He looked over at Kurisu, who walked into the room and over to Sho's monitors. "Now he can't even get close to me without being mad at me!"
"That's not true!" Sho shot at him.
"Yes it is." Kei retorted.
"No!"
"Yes."
"No!"
"Yes." Kei was reminded of the same scenario he had gone through several months before.
"No!"
"CHILDREN." Kurisu said loudly, stopping their argument. The vampires looked at her. "You're just like children!" She paused, looking from Kei to Sho and back. "I came in here to say that Sho can go home this evening."
"Really?" Kei said; Kurisu just smiled.
"But," Sho said. Kei looked at the vampire, who had tears in his eyes. "I don't have a home."
"Yes you do, Sho." Kei told him gently. "We live together."
"No we don't!" Sho pouted. Kei simply sighed.
"Well, you'll believe me when you see our bedroom is full of your clothes." Sho simply ignored him, praying that the term "our bedroom" didn't actually mean he shared a bedroom with Kei. "When can he go home?"
"After he eats dinner." Kurisu replied. Kei smiled.
"Good." He whispered, ready to take Sho home………
This chapter affected me way too deeply. I was so depressed one day after I wrote the beginning when Sho is sobbing. I wrote a really depressing e-mail to my friend and told him how much I missed him (I hadn't seen him in a month and a half and I love him so muuuuch!). But I saw him Sunday, so yay. I sent him translations to the song Love Letter (the song makes me cry way too much) and he said absolutely nothing about them. Pfft. Men. What morons. XD Except for Gackt…and any Jrocker of course! And…any faithful fan of mine. X3
Don't you just love it when I bring back old characters? Like…Anisa. But I can't really bring back Kurisutina…because she totally died. Or did she? (gives a mysterious look to readers) No. She actually died so don't worry. Kei did not turn her into a vampire. So don't worry. Hmm…but that would be a good plotline for a sequel…xD
Oh yeah. Mana's back from Japan. And apparently Klaha fell out of a two-story window at Közi's house and broke his arm. And Mana tried to mend it himself but I yelled at him and said Klaha would die if they didn't take him to a hospital. So he's got a cast on. Mana made sure it was the perfect blue color to match Klaha's—I mean Mana's—pretty dresses. Which makes no sense but whatever…
I hope I didn't make you guys too mad. I feel so bad for Kei! (hugs him) Poor Kei-chan…but please review. Because I like reviews! (and my hair is amazingly Kei-like at the moment. His fluffy hair. xD)