Yes yes, another story by the fabby Jen Riddle! I randomly came up with this idea, the story was just going to be the avrage James Lily fic... but it kinda changed..

Larger Summary: I lied to everyone at hogwarts. Lily Black? Rubbish! But I wanted to keep it that way. I wanted to be Sirius' sister. But he made me promise i would never, never date James Potter. He was his friend. He didn't want him taken away. I stupidly agreed. And the only larger lie I made, was lieing to myself. I was truly in love with James Potter. But I told myself I wasn't. Now all I want is him back.

My Life, A Radio Talk Show Special

By Jen Riddle

Chapter One: Prologue and The Day We Met

March 26th 2005

A/NI apologize for any type-os or mispellings, I don't have spell check but I try to read it over a few times before putting it out :)

Prologue

My life was a lie. The whole thing. Well okay, maybe not my life. But my identity was lie. Lily Black? What rubbish. Who would want to be sister of Sirius Black anyway? Well, I did sort-of ask for it.

And to this day I still don't know why I did it. But I lied to the whole school. I told them I was a pure blood. Can you believe it? Lily Evans? A pure blood? It was so stupid. I was so stupid! Why would anyone care if I was a muggle born anyway?

But most of my life at Hogwarts I was known as Lily Black. Sister of Sirius Black.

Oh yes, and I was known as James Potters property.

Ah was he madly in love with me! He pestered me day in and day out just to get one date with me! But I couldn't, I couldn't date him! For one, he was my 'Brothers' best friend. That and.. well… Sirius made me stay away from him. Unless I wanted the whole school to know I was a muggle-born, I wouldn't date Potter. I wouldn't.

So I constantly said no to him. And I made myself believe I wasn't inlove with him! I honest to god believed it! Well, most of me did. But deep down in my heart I pined for him. I needed him, I was in love with James Potter.

They say if you love someone, let them go. We'll, that's what I did. I let James Potter go. Its so hard… knowing he was there, he was mine, and I couldn't have him.

I guess I'm just another one of those girls who goes on Radio talk shows about how they lost their loved ones…

My Life. A Radio Talk Show Special.

How Sweet.

Chapter 1: The Day we met.

It was smoltering. I remember the heat so well, I was sweating like a pig and who could blame me? I was nervous, my first time to the platform, my first time to the train, my first time at hogwarts.

It was while I was trying to stroll my cart down through Kings Crossing that I first met Sirius and James. No, Sorry, this isn't going to be another one of those "I dropped my stuff and he helped me pick it up, and then he stared into my emerald green eyes and declared, 'I Think I'm in love'" Stories.

Heck no, this is way different.

"Are you gona go or not?" James yelled at me as I stood in front of the barrior.

"Um…" I said quietly. If you didn't know, I was a muggle born, and hell, there was no

Platform 9 and ¾ in Kings Crossing! I'd been here a million times! So I stupidly stood next to the wall inbetween platforms 9 and 10

"Its just another Muggle, James, push past." I heard Sirius laugh from behined me. I turned around.

"Ex-excuse me?" I asked inapropriatley. I was not a muggle. Not anymore. I turned around to see two eleven year old boy. It was clear to me they were Magical, with the broomsticks and Owls they held.

"I said get away, we have places to go." Sirius complained.

"Well… so do I… I just… don't know how." I said quietly, a tad embaressed.

"Well you see, you put one foot in front of the other… and you…" James tried to help… tried very poorly.

"I didn't mean walking you twit! I know very well how to walk!" I snapped at Potter. James and Sirius looked taken-aback.

"Well then, get going. We need to go too." Sirius nodded. Then it hit me, did they really think I was a muggle? I was going to play with their heads.

"Then go ahead, theres plenty of space beside me." I snickered. Sirius and James exchanged their 11 year old glances.

"We uh…" James stuttered.

"Just move." Sirius ordered.

"Nope, sorry, you see, I'm trying to find this platform. And well, it very well doesn't exist." I said, hopeing they'd catch my drift. The boys looked at eachother again.

"First Year? Muggle Born?" James asked. I hesitated, then shook my head. I didn't want people to know I was a muggle born.

"First Year. Uh… Pure Blood. My parents went off on vacation this week. Could you… erm.. Show me…" I asked. Sirius and James laughed.

"Just move aside." Sirius laughed. I did as ordered, and then watched as Sirius began to run. I was confused, then scared, He was about to run into the wall! I gulped and then… as he hit the wall.. he… he went through. James must have seen the stunned look on my face.

"You sure you're not a muggle born?" He asked, then did the same as Sirius.

I decided that that was the only way I was to get through to the train. So I stedied myself infront of the Barrior, a few feet away. I took a deep breath, and held it. Then ran as quick as I could, hopeing I wouldn't get stuck inside the wall. I closed my eyes as I was about to hit, but when I didn't hit anything, I re-opened them

There was the train! It was magnificent! I couldn't believe my eyes, so many magical families! Parents crying and waving to their kids, kids chatting up with their friends, friends hugging. And all the broomsticks and owls and cats and wands! Oh, I was going to get used to this quick.

"I never caught your name?" I heard a voice behined me, and a tap on the shoulder told me it was adressed to me.

"Huh? Oh uh…" I looked around for a second… "Lily… uh…"

"Black." Sirius interupted, I swung my head at him. "Sister Lily." He smiled slyly. "May I have a word?" He asked. "Oh and about erlier James, Dear Lily and I both thought we could pretend we didn't know eachother while we were at hogwarts… sorry… no luck." He nodded to his friend, then pulled me away and onto the train.

"So who are you really?" He asked. "I know your not a pureblood. I know them all."

"Lily Evans." I sighed after a moment of debating in my head wether to tell him the truth or not.

"And you want to pretend you're a pureblood…. Why?" He asked.

"I…I don't know." I said, and it was the honest truth, I had no idea. Was it because I didn't want to feel like an outcast? Because I wanted people to accept me? I don't know. And that was the mistake of my life, saying I was a pure blood.

"Anyway, I'm Sirius Black." Sirius extended his hand. I shook it slowley.

"Its nice to finnaly know my new.. brother? Did you say?" I asked. Sirius nodded.

"I've always been an only child… Oh wait… nevermind. I try to forget about… oh what was his name… Regulus… yeah that's it." He grinned in amusment of his own self. I nodded not sure as to if Sirius was an escape from the Asylum.

"Well… if it makes you feel any better… I know for sure I'm not an only child." I smiled sweetly. Sirius laughed a little.

"Just a bit." He said. "Oh and uh… don't worry about other people knowing if I have a sister or not… the other pure bloods don't pay much attention to that rubbish anyway. They just want to know who's the snobbiest." Sirius grinned as there was a knock on the door and James entered.

"So Lily Black is it?" He asked, taking the seat across from me and next to Sirius. I nodded.

"Well, Siri, old mate, why didn't you tell me you had a sister?" He asked. Sirius laughed.

"Old mate then, is it? A whole 10 minutes and I'm an old mate? Well James, new buddy, It never came up in our 10 minutes of chat." He said.

"I see." James ran a hand through his hair. I watched as he stared at me through his hazel eyes. I turned away quickly. I didn't want people watching me. I was now hiding a secret, I couldn't look at anyone.

"James, mind giving me one more moment with my sis? We need to disscuss…" Sirius didn't know what to discuss. I could tell.

"Family matters." I answered.

"Yeah." Sirius grinned at his friend. James nodded, gave me a wink (Which I brushed off) and then left the compartment.

"James is my friend now, my only friend." Sirius warned. I sat there thinking were eleven… you can get plenty more friends… hell look at you your drop dead handsom! "And." He continued. "I don't want you taking him away. I can already tell he has a thing for you, Lily Evans. Don't, ever, go out with him Lily. Or I'll expose your secret. Don't take away my friend."

I gulped, then nodded. Never would I date James Potter. I thought it was no big deal, why would I want to date him anyway?

Well then, tell me how you like it! Was it rubbish? Fantastic? Do you want to murder me? Do you love me? Do you think I'm awsome? Do you want to immaturley flame me into oblivion? (That sounds fun…)

Jen Riddle