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Well, heres the story.

I don't know if I've mentioned it before. But I tend to get nervous easily. It started when I made up the lie. I started to get a bit paranoid. I thought everyone could see through me. We'll that paranoia led to my obsession with my grades. If I kept them up, then I could simply hide behined my books whenever I got nervous.

There was a problem with that though. According to the Sirius Remus James and Petter list of Fittest girls at hogwarts that they made in 3rd year, I was number one. (To the possible displeasure of my "brother") Cyrena was in 3rd, right after Romana. Erica would have been in 4th, according to Sirius, but she was dating Remus, who wouldn't let them put her on the list.

Sadly, everyone knew me as James Potters property, so next to my name on the list was a warning scribbled in red ink that read: "Lily Black is Hot, I know, but you touch her and your dead!"

Everyone knew who wrote it. James Potter. I hid my grin at it, I pretended to be mad. Opal cried for about 2 hours because she didn't even get on the list of 10 people. The rest of us assured her that if it was just Pettigrew making the list, she'd be number one. It was common knowlage that Petter had a mad crush on Opal, they were both a bit… on the chubby side.

Even after that notice I was pestered by the Hogwarts boys, and got my first wizard boyfriend on the 8th of October in 3rd year. His name was Patrick Conley. A muggle born, like I, but he didn't know, of coarse.

We broke up in May at the end of 3rd year. And I swore that year was the worst for Potter. He feel even behined Sirius in the Class Grade Rank. In the meantime, Remus and I constantly battled for the top spot.

At the end of 3rd year, when Pat broke up with me, Remus surpassed me.

4th year didn't get much better in my guy luck. Other then the fact that James asked me out 24-7, any other guy that would come near me he'd hex into oblivion.

"That guys nuts." Cyrena complained to me while her, I and Roma played a game of Expoding snap.

"Who?" Roma asked.

"Potter!" Cyrena exclaimed. I nodded, as did Romana.

"But he's so hot. I don't see why you just go for him Lily." Roma suggested.

"Because he's somewhere on the insanity list between Dumbledore and Professer Grunner." I said refering to our Defense against the dark arts teacher. He often cursed his students and claimed it was 'Hands on Teaching'.

"That takes him somewhere to, Off his rocker, and… lets see… off his rocker." Erica added from reading her book on her bed across the room. We fell into a fit of giggles, but still behined it you could hear the scratching of a quill.

"Who are you writing to now Opal?" Roma asked as we finnished our game. She got up to look over Opals shoulder, but Opal quickly hid away her writing.

"No one." She said.

"Opal were like bloody sisters! We spend nearly every moment together in this dorm, you can tell us." Roma pleaded.

"Oh hush up Romana." Opal comanded. I'd never seen her speak up to Roma untill then. Roma critisized nearly everyone in the school, she could be a bitch, and everyone knew it, but she could also be one of the sweetest girls you'd ever get a chance to meet, and that hardly anyone knew.

"What?" Roma stepped back.

"Were not like sisters, Roma. I hate you. Its your own frieking insicurities that make you continously put me down. Get a life." Opal pulled her curtians shut in Romas face.

"Whats gotten intoHer?" Roma said weakly and walked back to her bed, also closing the curtians. I think Opal may have been the only person to stand up to Romana.

Following that the rest of us began to drift into sleep, sadly I was awaken in the middle of the night, being shooken by none other then Roma.

"What?" I moaned.

"Lily… do you think… do you think I'm… mean? Do a lot of people hate me?" She asked. I sat up as she sat down on my bed also.

"I don't, Rome, Your like a sister, remember. But you know.. you do… hurt people a lot." I sighed. I heard Roma gulp.

"I'm sorry." She said. Even in the dark I could see a glint from her tears in her eyes.

"Its ok. People still respect you. Just.. try to get sleep Roma." I said. Romana bit her lip then nodded, getting up from my bed and leaving.

I got up after I heard her curtians shut, and quietly slipped down the stairs and then back up the boys dormitory stairs, and into the 4th year boys room.

I found Sirius' bed to be the one nearest the door and shook him awake.

"Uhrmmsrahhmmm" Sirius moaned and rolled over. I tried to hide a laugh before shaking him more.

"Sirius!" I hissed.

"whha?" Sirius' eyes blinked a few times. "Lily…" he moaned and then rolled onto his stomach.

"Sirius wake up!" I whispered again.

"No… Lily… the marshmallows… we need to… eat… the marsh…" Sirius sleep talked. I bit my cheeks to not laugh and then he sat up.

"Good now cmon---" I stopped as Sirius picked up his pillow and took a bite at it. This time I couldn't hide my laughter.

"Marshmallows… evil… eat…" Sirius blabbered.

"LILY?" I heard someone gasp. I tried to sit up from where I'd fallen on the floor in my fit of laughter.

"James!" I gasped.

"What the bloody hell are you… what is Sirius doing?" He stopped as Sirius was punching his pillow.

"The evil marshmallows are attacking." I laughed.

"Right… well you get those marshmallows Sirius." James smiled. Sirius nodded and then fell with a soft 'thump' back onto his back.

"So what are you doing?" James asked.

"I needed to talk to Sirius." I said.

"At 3 am?" He asked. I nodded. "C'mon." James said, pulling me up off the floor. I followed him down into the common room.

"So what did you need?" James asked as he sat down on the red love seat infront of the now put out fire. He raised his wand through the dark, and with a flick the fire lit. He patted the seat next to him, and I skepticly took it.

"Stuff." I said, with a shrug.

"So you'll tell your brother, and not me? C'mon he tells me everything anyway." James said.

"Romana thinks people hate her." I said, not looking at him. James laughed. "What?" I asked.

"People worship Romana." James said. "Your brothers mad in love with her, you know?"

"He wants Roma to be another one of his snogging sessions?" I asked. James shrugged.

"You know, he says he loves a lot of the people he just usses as snoggers, but.. I see him stare at her… Its like.. maybe its real. Maybe its like the way I love you."