sorry for the slow update.

Eriks pov

Christine pulled me out of my room sometime in the afternoon.

She said that I had spent enough time "wallowing in self pity".

I couldn't go against that, It was true. but she didn't understand, she's woman

(A/N: BAD ERIK! -holds up protest sign-)

And what does she know about me? I've been through more than she could even imagine, she shouldn't be telling me what to do about my depression. She was all I needed, not that daughter. Why did she have to? I though things were going well, so well, then that.

It was the only thing that ever stood in my way. The only thing. What was I doing now? apologizing , I threw a few objects at her! she's the one who should be apologizing!

But I had to say, they way I was acting was far from mature. my mask is power, I need it.

I just feel better with it, even when I'm alone. Is that so wrong?

But suddenly I was pulled out of my thoughts by Christine.

"Erik? what time is it?"

What time is it? how was I supposed to know. time didn't matter to me! the hadn't gone down yet, that was all I knew. I knew one other thing. She was hungry and what I had here wouldn't please her, even if she were to say it was fine, it wasn't. nothing simple is fine for her. So now I was walking up. How much time had passed? why was she staying? why wasn't her daughter more like her or her husband? her husband...what a wonderful husband she found in him! damn that boy. And again, for the second time in the last hour I was drug out of my thoughts, some one was down here. I dashed into the shadows and waited. The persian? Oh yes, the letter, that. how wonderful he got to it as soon as he could.

no, he probably did. What was I saying? of course he didn't. What was wrong with me! i need to stop blaming others.

short. Erik is crazy. I suck. I'm sorry guys but I have loads of home work and my mom doesn't like anything I do. Even being a Phan she's against. (and she used to like Phantom!)

Erik: Go away!...no, I won't!...leave me alone!...they went away...we made them go away!

Me:...and Erik is Golom...or smeagle...-shudders at thought-

Erik: -walks in- so Suni have you-...what is that?

me: OMG! its Eriks evil twin!

Erik: no, that over there is a robot of me you just made in an attempt to make EVERYONE think I'm completly insane!

Me:...Ok it was...review guys! see ya!