If...
If after I knock on his door and count to 10 it hasn't opened I'll leave and not talk to him. But it does and I do.
If he doesn't show me he understands I can tell myself that nothing has changed and I can leave. But he does and I don't.
If I don't kiss him back nothing will happen. But I do and it does.
If he doesn't wake I won't have to think about this but he does and I do.
If he doesn't smile I won't have to let out the smile that's just waiting there but he does and I do.
If he looks away and lets me decide I'll go. But he doesn't.
And I stay.