The two couples had spent the entire day relaxing at the park. Nathan was still on edge about everything that had happened that morning. Peyton was the most uptight out of all of them, except it wasn't for the same reason as Nathan. She felt trapped within her own body, but she didn't know how to show it so none of them realized. They were now walking back the café and Lucas had his arm draped around Peyton's shoulders. He was so happy about everything that had happened last night he had pushed all the angst inside of him away for the day. He just wanted to be around Peyton and feel her next to him, the only thing that could have made him happier was to her smile it was going to be awhile before that happened again. For now, thought Lucas was satisfied with the fact that she was at least starting to feel again, it gave him the hope he needed that had been slowly slipping away.

The two couples were now on their way to the café for dinner. Nathan had stayed as close to Haley as he could get out of fear that he mite not be able to go near her for awhile. He knew that he could just tell her that he pushed her away but he didn't want to lie to Haley. He loved her too much to start basing their relationship on lies and he knew that if he lied about this one thing it was gunna require him to lie about other things. Nathan couldn't understand how Peyton was so calm about everything and how should could just let Lucas wrap his arms around her without a problem. Every time he and Haley touched, every time he kissed her he felt the guilt eat away him more then before. It was like his heart was slowly being torn in two and he couldn't do anything about it because it was his fault. As the four entered the café Nathan knew that he was going to have to tell Haley what happened before the night was over, he knew that he also had to tell Lucas. The thought that he had cheated on his girlfriend with his brother's girl only made his guilt worse and it only made him realize that he had to tell them soon.

Haley led them all over to an empty booth and pulled Nathan down to sit next her before kissing him gently. She loved being around him, being in his arms, and she loved kissing him. No one made her feel as safe as Nathan, he was there to protect her from everything. She felt safe with Lucas and she knew that she always would but it was a different kind of safe. The feeling Nathan gave her was amazing. Haley never knew that she could feel so insecure and scared and excited and happy at the same time. All the emotions made her confused but she wouldn't give it up for anything, the feeling was remarkable. Haley watched as Lucas wrapped his arm tightly around Peyton and kissed the top of her head. She was glad that things were finally starting to get better for everyone.

The four looked up as the door opened and the bells above chimed lightly. "Hey Brooke" Haley said in a cheery voice as the brunette approached the table.

"Hi Haley." The brunette did her best to smile but they could all tell it was fake. "Hey everyone" She gave small nod towards the group but avoided looking at Nathan. She turned towards her best friend and gave another smile, this one was good enough to fool everyone but Lucas and Peyton, they both knew something was wrong. "You guys I'm gunna steal Peyt for a bit. Can I talk to you outside for a second girly?" Brooke asked sweetly as she stared at the seated blonde. Lucas edged out of the booth and helped Peyton stand before sitting back down. The brunette linked arms with her friend and the two headed out in front of the café.

As soon as the door closed Brooke smiled up at Peyton. "Don't try that I can't feel anything please feel sorry for me shit alright Peyton. I know that you can feel something, I don't know what it is and I don't know if I really care but whatever it is you need to cut the crap."

"What are you taking about?" Peyton asked as she looked down at the brunette and pulled her arm away.

"I thought you would have learned the first time but I guess not. Next time you decide to screw Haley and Lucas over royally turn off that damn camera." Brooke looked at the emotionless blonde in front of her. Peyton had forgotten that she turned her cam on before she went to get changed. But still, Peyton knowing that she got caught didn't even seem to faze her, she didn't care at all. "What the hell were you thinking?"

Peyton thought about Brooke's question. She tried to come up with something but she couldn't. However, she did know what she was thinking and she had no reason to lie about it. "I wanted Nathan, I wanted to feel the way I did when we were together."

"In other words you weren't thinking about anyone else, only you. What about Haley and Lucas, did you think about them when you and Nathan fell back onto the bed."

"No" The blonde answered honestly. She hadn't thought about the effect things would have on Nathan, Haley or Lucas. She was so caught up in trying to feel that she became selfish.

"How could you do that to them? What the hell kind of emotion made you do that?" Brooke knew that things weren't completely Peyton's fault. She knew the girl in front of her didn't exactly have the means to distinguish right from wrong.

"I just wanted to feel something. I can remember feeling things and I didn't just wanna remember." The more Peyton thought about it the more she wanted to run home to her bathroom. But she didn't want to do it because she wanted to feel, she was feeling, she couldn't tell what but she knew it was something she didn't like. Peyton wanted to feel the pleasure from cutting, she wanted it to erase the knot building in her stomach, she wanted it to erase the guilt.

"Peyton that's not the way to feel things. You're hurting people in the process and its not right. If you wanna feel things talk to people and if you remember feeling soon or later you'll actually feel it, but don't just rush into stuff. Think about the way its gunna affect other people and you might think twice about going trough with it. Peyton promise me no more heavy make out sessions or sex with anyone but Lucas, especially not with Nathan." Peyton got ready to respond but stopped when she heard a sharp gasp from behind her and saw a shocked look on Brooke's face. Peyton spun around to find Haley standing by the door with her mouth open.

"What did you just say?" Haley asked in disbelief as she walked over to the girls. She stopped and stood in between them waiting for them to answer but they just continued to stare at her. Peyton's guilt grew as Haley stood there looking back and forth between her and Brooke. Guilt was one emotion that she knew she could do without, but she hoped it would stop her from making a mistake again. Right now though, there wasn't anything to get her out of her current situation.

"Haley I'm…" Peyton began but stopped as the café door opened again. Lucas walked over to the girls, followed by Nathan who feared the argument he already knew was going to take place.

"What's going on?" Lucas asked as he saw the worried look on Brooke's face and the hurt on Haley's. He looked at Peyton but couldn't see her face as she held her head down, refusing to look him in the eyes. He made his way over to her and place his finger under he chin lifting her head gently. "Peyton what's wrong" her face was blank but her eyes held confusion and longing. Lucas could also see the sadness that lingered in her eyes and he feared that she would start to shut down again.

Peyton didn't answer him, she couldn't. She suddenly felt horrible for what she had done and with the guilt came sadness and she was also ashamed. She wanted to go back and do everything differently so that she could avoid feeling the was she did, but she knew she couldn't do that as she looked into Lucas's worried eyes. She didn't know what he would think and she was almost scared that he would be mad. She was torn form her thoughts as Haley's voice broke the silence.

"Nathan what the hell happened when you went to pick up Peyton today" Haley could feel the tears begin to burn her eyes but she refused to let them fall. She hoped with everything she had that she had heard Brooke wrong, that Nathan had been faithful. As Nathan approached her she took in his hunched shoulders and his guilty stare and she knew it was true.

"Haley" he called to her gently trying to make everything go away, wishing that words could erase the pain he knew he caused her.

"YOU LYING ASSHOLE" Haley screamed as Nathan reached out to her and she shoved his hand away, "HOW COULD PUT YOUR ARMS AROUND ME AND TELL ME HOW MUCH YOU LOVE ME ALL DAY KNOWING THAT YOU FUCKED YOUR EX THIS MORNING" Haley looked at him, anger flowing through her veins, and her cheeks flushed with blood.

"Excuse me" Lucas backed away from Peyton and looked from her to Nathan.

"Haley we didn't sleep together…" Nathan began but Haley cut him off.

"God if that's true then I am beyond sorry for accusing you but the guilty look on your face tells me that your lying…" She glared at him, waiting for an explanation, hoping that there was one.

"We didn't sleep together Haley, I swear to you that we didn't, we just…" He didn't want to finish the sentence and he looked at Peyton wishing she would say it so that he didn't have to. He was angry with her for kissing him but when he caught the look on her face his anger faded. He could tell that she wanted to break down in tears, but she couldn't and he could tell that too. No matter how hard she tired the tears wouldn't fall. Everything just stayed locked up inside of her, eating away at her and there was nothing she could do.

"You just what Nathan" Lucas questioned angrily as he stepped closer to his younger brother. He looked back at Peyton who still refused to look him in the eye, instead she looked down at the ground.

"I kissed him…" Peyton whispered causing everyone to look at her. She looked up at Nathan, her eyes silently begging forgiveness for the mess she had caused. She looked back and forth between Lucas and Haley who both held shocked looks on their faces, neither one of them believing their ears.

"But I didn't pull away.." Nathan couldn't let her take all the blame, it was as much his fault as it was hers. He could have stopped it and then things would have been okay, not great but okay which would have been better then they were now. "I got caught up in everything and kissed her back. I pulled away after that but…" He hung his head before looking up at Lucas. Nathan's head swung to the side as Lucas fist slammed into the side of his face. It hurt and his first urge was to hit his brother back but he just stood there knowing that he deserved it.

"What the hell were you thinking, both of you…" Haley asked, her voice quieter then before but still holding the same amount of anger.

"Haley I'm…" Petyon began to apologize once again and once again stopped. This time however it was because Haley had slapped her right across the face, leaving a stinging pain behind as she glared at the blonde.

"Save it Peyton, at the moment your apology means shit!" With that the auburn haired girl walked away, and headed home. She was hurt and angry and her perfect day was now ruined. She couldn't believe what they had done, she couldn't find a reason to why they would do it. Everything that had happened at the park was a lie, none of it meant anything.

Peyton held her hand to the side of her face as she watched Lucas shake his head in a mix of anger, hurt and confusion. She watched as he turned to face her. He looked into her eyes trying to find a reason for why she had done it, why she had betrayed him. He could understand how she could do that after everything that had happened last night. As he continued to think about it his heart shattered and he couldn't stand to be near Peyton of Nathan anymore. He gave them each one last look and then took off down the sidewalk, hoping to clear his head and sort things out, to make himself feel better.

Peyton closed her eyes as soon as he brushed past her and immediately regretted doing so. For the first time in months Peyton felt freight radiate within her. She opened her eyes quickly and at both Brooke and Nathan. Brooke looked sympathetic and she remembered that look. Nathan looked hurt and lost and she remembered having that own look. She remembered that time in her life where things were hell. When one person controlled her every move and she was his property. She couldn't get rid of the memories or the horrible emotions that came with it. Once again the blonde felt trapped but this time she was going to escape. "I'm sorry" She whispered to Nathan as she walked past him. He gave her a sympathetic look and she knew that he forgave her.

Brooke watched her best friend walk away and the further away the blonde got the more the brunette's stomach knotted. She had a bad feeling about everything and although she tried to shrug it off she knew things were bad and only going to get worse. "Nathan why didn't you push away?" She looked from Peyton's retreating figure to Nathan's saddened face.

"I don't know why. Peyton was the first person I ever feel in love with and I guess that means part of me will always feel something for her. Brooke when she kissed me I was shocked at first but then I started to remember when we were together, how good things were in the beginning. I got lost in the thought and I pulled her back on the bed without even thinking about it. It was when I kissed her back that I remembered we weren't together anymore and I remembered how much I loved Haley and I pushed Peyton away. It was too late by then though and now I've lost the one person that means everything to me in the world." Nathan hung his head in shame as he felt Brooke's hand on his shoulder.

"She'll come around Nate, eventually she'll come around." Brooke gave him a sympathetic look before turning away and waking towards Peyton's house. She knew what was happening, or at least she understood what was going on. Peyton was starting to feel again the emotions were getting stronger. She had seen the scared look in Peyton's hazel eyes before the blonde turned and quickly walked away. She knew Peyton felt the pain when Haley slapped her and she knew that her best friend thrived on that pain. She had thrived on it back when they were hitting their teens and Peyton had started cutting. Brooke could only hope that she hadn't picked up that habit again.

Brooke was passing by River Court when she spotted Lucas sitting under a tree by the lake. She wanted to just leave him there and go find Peyton but he needed to know what was going on. She walked over to him but he didn't notice her, he was too lost in his own thoughts.

"She didn't realize she was doing something wrong you know." Brooke took a seat next to the blonde as he looked at her. He wasn't angry, at least not at Peyton, he was more hurt and confused.

"I wanna believe that Brooke but the look on her face today. She felt guilty which means she knew she was wrong. It would be so much easier if that weren't the case." Lucas looked back over the lake as the tears slowly fell from his eyes.

"She didn't realize it was wrong at the time. I made her feel guilty, she didn't even are when I first told her that I knew what she did. She just looked at me like it wasn't important. Lucas she's starting to feel again, and its taking time. She may feel one emotion but she's missing something to make it complete. She wants things, she feels desire but there's nothing to make her think about the consequences. The only thing I don't get is why she didn't just go to you?" Brooke said the last part quietly and Lucas could barley hear her but he did.

"She did come to me. Last night we were laying in bed and she kissed me. I kissed her back and she pulled away. It felt so good to be that close to her again so I kissed her again, but this time I pulled away. I didn't want to take advantage of her or anything. She kind of just follows your lead and I didn't want things to happen just because I pushed her into it." Lucas turned to look at Brooke and she caught a hint of a smile playing on his lips as he recalled the previous night.

"Why do I get the feeling there's more to this…" Brooke said with a sly smile. She was happy to see Lucas smile, to show that one smile that only appeared when he was thinking or talking about Peyton.

"She put my hand on her chest and I could feel her heart racing. Brooke it gave me the most amazing feeling because I knew that she was feeling at least some of the same things I was. She told me that she wanted it and then kissed me again." Lucas opened his mouth to speak, but the brunette held her hand up.

"I get the picture so you can stop there." Brooke rolled her eyes before she spoke again. "Did she try to get you to…do it again this morning?" Brooke felt slightly uncomfortable asking the question but she forced herself to.

"Okay this is kinda weird and not really your business but yeah, I had to go meet Haley though." Lucas smile faded as he suddenly thought about Nathan going to pick her up. Various scenes played in his head and he knew he was exaggerating things but he didn't care.

"Lucas she felt something last night and she liked it. She didn't connect that she felt it with you and that she was only supposed to feel it with you, she just wanted to feel it again. She dated Nathan, and she told me she didn't just want to remember things anymore, she wanted them to be real. She remembered being with Nathan and at one point or another she felt something with him, I think she was just tryna get that feeling back."

"Okay that makes sense and I guess it makes it feel a little better, but it still hurts Brooke." Lucas got up from the grass and walked over to the edge of the lake and looked down at his reflection.

"I know" The brunette said as she stood next to him.

"This is where she told me she was pregnant you know?" Brooke watched as a smile spread on his face. "In this exact spot. She had given me the doctor's folder under the tree and then came and stood over here. I read everything and then came and wrapped my arms around her waist and I told her I'd always be there because she was scared that I wouldn't be. I told her how much I loved her and then I kissed her stomach and then I picked her up and spun her around. Brooke I was so happy that day. Those few minutes after I read that paper were the best of my life. Coming here always makes me feel good, it makes me think about how good it felt to hold my family in my arms. The baby was only weeks old but he was still the beginning of my family. I never would have thought that I could come here and stand in this spot and feel pain. That I could come here and feel sadness in the exact place that brought me so much joy."

Brooke threw her arms around Lucas's neck and pulled him into a tight hug, her own tears now falling from her brown eyes. She had been smiling as Lucas spoke, she couldn't help it, she thought it was amazing how he glowed when he spoke about his son, but now her smile was gone. She could feel Luke's tears seep through her shirt as he buried his face into her shoulder. "Lucas I have to go see Peyton, come with me?" Brooke still had her arms wrapped around him but he pulled way as she spoke.

"I think I'm just gunna stay here for a little while, I need to clear my head. I'll meet you there later though, I know that I need to her but I just can't do that now." Lucas wiped the tears from under his eyes as he awaited Brooke's response.

"I understand, so I'll see you later" She watched Lucas nod before turning around and headed towards he previous destination. Lucas watched her walk away before sitting down in the grass and getting lost in memories of those 7 months when he and Peyton were happy, when everything was perfect.

Peyton stared at herself in the mirror trying to make herself forget. She hadn't been this scared in months. She looked down at her shaking hands and quickly gripped the edge of the counter, but her whole body began to shake. She had wanted to feel but she didn't want this. She was guilty and now she was scared and she felt sick. She felt lonely and upset but everything just boiled inside of her. She couldn't make any of it go away it all just continued to build, continued to add to the knot in her stomach. The blonde released the counter and reached for the blade in her art bag. The minute she found it, she clenched the handle tight between her trembling fingers. She pressed the cold metal to her skin and bit her lip as she leaned her head back and pressed down. She dragged the blade across her skin and smiled as the pain slowly suppressed everything else. She switched hands and pressed the blade against her skin again, only shed dug deeper this time.

Peyton dropped the blade as her hands grew weak and she slid to the floor. She looked down at her hands which were now stained with blood. All she felt now was pain and that too was slowly fading away. She began to feel numb all over and she closed her eyes and relaxed into the feeling.

"Nathan?' Brooke questioned as she arrived at Peyton's house. Nathan looked up at the approaching Brunette. "What are you doing here?" She asked as she sat next to him on the steps outside the front door.

"I've been sitting here for the past five minutes trying to figure that out. I came here to talk to her about what happened, I figured it mite give me some kinda closure, I mean I still don't really get what happened. When I got here though I realized I didn't have anything to say and that she probably wouldn't either, so I just sat here hoping I would think of something. I think I've also been hoping that I'll wake up in my bed and his will have all just been a bad dream." Nathan gave a small smile as he turned to look at Brooke.

"Well I'm going in there now, why don't you come in with me and if you have nothing to say well, I'll just do that talking. I've gotten used to it over the last couple of months, I mean she hasn't exactly responded much." Brooke shrugged her shoulders and then stood up, something was telling her to go find Peyton. She reached her hand down to Nathan and he took it and stood as well. She wrapped her arm around his neck and pulled him inside the house. "Peyton" Brooke called as she ascended the wooden stapes with Nathan close behind her. "Girly I know you're here, the only other place you'd be is at the park and I was just there and guess what, I'll tell ya, you weren't. Peyton…" Brooke opened the door to Peyton's room and looked around, the only thing she saw though was her own image projected on the computer screen. She stuck her tongue out at the cam and left the room.

"Brooke I'm just gunna go" Nathan said and began to leave but Brooke grabbed his and raised an eyebrow

"No you're not. You're going to sit in that chair over there and wait till I find Peyton and bring her in here. Then we can all have a nice little chat. Got it Good" Brooke pointed a finger at Nathan and then at the chair. "Go…now" She waited until Nathan was sitting down until she walked down the hall calling Peyton's name. When the blonde never answered Brooke began to feel sick and her pace quickened.

Nathan sat down in the chair and looked at the computer screen. He looked down at the camera and knew that was one of the reasons he was in the situation he was in. "No I'm the reason I'm in the situation I'm in" he mumbled to himself as he stood from the chair. His head was pounding and Peyton always had painkillers in her bathroom so that's where he was heading. The door was only slightly open and he put his hand to his head and over his eyes as he pushed it all the way open and stepped into the bathroom. He ignored the pain and took his hand away from his face when he saw the floor. Nathan dropped down to the his knees and grabbed a towel from the counter. "Brooke call Lucas" he screamed as he wrapped the towel around Peyton's wrist. He tapped her cheeks praying for her to open her eyes, but she didn't. Nathan picked her limp body up and her head fell into his chest as he carried her out the room.

"Why?" Brooke asked as she walked towards the room. Just as she was about to walk in she saw Peyton in Nathan's arms. "I can't do this again" The tears immediately erupted form her eyes as she took in her friends now apparently lifeless body. Nathan pushed past Brooke and carried Peyton down the stairs.

"GET UP, CALL LUCAS, AND LET'S GO!" he screamed as he continued down the stairs. Brooke forced her legs to move as she grabbed her cell and dialed Lucas number. She pressed the phone to here ear and waited but she heard nothing. She called again and it went through.

"Hey.."

"Lucas you have…" the brunette began but she was soon cut off.

"This is Luke, sorry I can't take your call right now, but leave a message and I'll get back to you."

"Damn it" Brooke muttered as she flipped her phone shut. "Nathan his phone isn't on" Her voice cracked as she followed him out the house. Nathan wasn't thinking about anything other then getting Peyton to the hospital, he didn't even realize Brooke was talking to him until she grabbed his arm.

"Nathan…Lucas's phone is off" Brooke couldn't think and she needed Nathan to tell her what to do. Things had been starting to get to her lately and now she was falling apart at the seams. She was usually able to keep herself together in crisis but the thought of losing Peyton but her emotions in overdrive. She couldn't function, she was barley able to keep herself standing. All Brooke wanted to do was collapse to the ground and cry.

"Go get Lucas, Brooke, I have to get her to the hospital." Nathan said as he gently laid Peyton in the passenger seat of his car and sat in the driver's seat. He looked at Brooke and stepped out the car. Nathan hated to waste time but he knew that Brooke would stand in that same place for God knows how long if he didn't get her to move. He wrapped Brooke in his arms and cradled her head. "She's gunna be fine, she's Peyton, she's always okay?" He tried to smile for the disheveled brunette as he held her at arms length. "Right now though I need to get to the hospital and I need you to go get Luke and bring him there, alright. Can you do that for me?" He watched as the brunette slowly nodded her head before he got back in the car and drove off towards the hospital.

As Nathan sped in one direction Brooke ran in the other hoping that Lucas was where she left him. In about ten minutes Brooke had finally gotten to the park and to her relief Lucas was still sitting by the lake. He stood up when he saw her running towards him. He looked at her in confusion but when she stopped he could see her tearstained cheeks and he knew something had happened. "Brooke…"

"Lucas we have to get to the hospital, its Peyton" Lucas's fears were confirmed and he didn't need to hear anything else as he ran to his car, Brooke trailing begin him. The minute Brooke closed the passenger door Lucas drove off. He wasn't thinking about anything other then getting to the hospital. Everything that had happened that day was erase from his mind at the moment, all that matter was Peyton and that she was okay. He was so lost in his thoughts that he didn't feel the tears slipping from his eyes. Brooke was in worse condition then he was. She simply stared out the window at the street before her but she didn't see it. All she could see was her and Peyton.

Flashback

"Peyton, where are you" Brooke looked around the corner before actually turning it. "Peyt please don't jump out again, its not funny."

"Yes it is" Brooke spun around on her heel as she heard Peyton's voice behind her. Brooke made her way into her kitchen, where she was sure she had heard the voice coming from. The second she turned the corner she found fudge brownie mix all over her face. She could hear Peyton laughing in front of her as she wiped the chocolate from her eyes. Brooke stepped forward and wrapped her arms around her best friend making sure to rub her hands in Peyton's then dirty blonde curls.

"I love you friend" Brooke chirped as she grabbed the still full bowl of brownie batter.

"I love you too" Peyton said just before she ran away from Brooke. She had seen the bowl moving from the corner of her eye and knew what Brooke was planning. "But I don't think so" Peyton stuck her tongue out as she reached for the bottle of Hershey's syrup that was still on the counter from when they had made Sundays earlier. The blonde pointed the bottle at her friend and squeezed it as hard as she could. She laughed when Brooke dropped the bowl and opened her mouth in shock.

"Ohh you are so dead" The brunette screamed as she ran towards Peyton. Halfway there she found herself sliding across the floor and she soon crashed into Peyton's legs causing the two of them to slide across the floor. The two girls erupted into fits of laughter as they finally came to a stop. Brooke looked at her best friend and gave a devious smiled which Peyton quickly returned. The two girl jumped and with a running start slid across the chocolate covered tiles until the bumped into the fridge.

"Smile girls" they both looked up to see Brooke's mom with a camera. The girls wrapped their arms around each other and grinned as the flash went off. "Now I hope you have just as much fun cleaning all this up." Mrs. Davis said before leaving the room and the two giggling girls. They spent the entire afternoon cleaning up the mess but they enjoyed every minute of it.

End Flashback

That was one of the last times Brooke spent time with the real Peyton. It was the weekend before her mother died and it was the last weekend they would make brownies together. Brooke continued to look at the street in front of her getting lost in other memories from when her and Peyton were younger, when things were simple and as far as they could tells their lives would always be as perfect as they felt then.

Peyton opened her eyes and took in her surroundings. She looked over at Nathan and suddenly felt sick. His face was so pale, it was a ghostly white. She had made him look like that, it was her fault he was hurting. She was the reason Haley was mad at him, the reason she was hurt. She was the cause of Lucas's pain and Brooke's. This was why she had never wanted to be a part of Luke's life, all of the torment people were feeling, it was inevitable and she had known that from the beginning. She had gotten rid of all the feelings when she slit her wrist, there was no more pain, but once again she hadn't thought of the after effect. Guilt flooded her again as she turned away from Nathan. All the emotion was coming back, she was causing more pain then she had intended. Before her eyes closed, Peyton used all her strength to push the towel from her hands so that her wrists could cry the crimson tears her eyes wouldn't allow to flow.

I tried to kill my pain
But only bought more...so much more
I lay dying and I'm pouring
Crimson regret and betrayal

Nathan hadn't seen Peyton gain consciousness he had been to focused on the road and his destination. It felt like it was taking forever to get to the hospital but he finally pulled in front of the emergency room. Nathan got out of the car and ran around to get Peyton, it was then that he noticed the towel on the floor. He cursed under his breath as he picked her up and carried her through the automatic doors. "Someone please help me!" He screamed.

I'm dying, praying
Bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved
Am I too lost

One of the nurses at the desk looked up and at the sight of all the blood stood and ran towards one of the empty gurneys. "We need a doctor!" She screamed as Nathan laid Peyton down, the white sheets underneath her quickly turning red. More nurses ran over and wheeled her into an empty examine room, one of them bandaging her wrist as the moved.

My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation

Nathan tried to follow them but one of the nurse turned around and blocked him "I'm sorry sir but you cant go in there" She looked at him apologetically before rushing back into the room. Nathan stood at the doors looking in through the small glass windows. One of the doctors shoved past him and went through the double doors. For a brief moment Nathan saw Peyton lying lifelessly as they hooked her up to various machines, and then the doors shut and all he could see were the doctor's and nurses' faces.

Do you remember me
Lost for so long.
Will you be on the other side or will you forget me?

Lucas and Brooke ran thought the front entrance and went over to where Nathan stood. Lucas looked through the small windows but couldn't see anything. So he stood there like his brother, waiting and lost in thought. Brooke slid down against the cold wall still holding on to the memories.

I'm dying, praying
Bleeding and screaming
Am I too lost to be saved
Am I too lost?

The brunette buried her head into her knees as she realized that all she had were memories. Peyton wasn't Peyton anymore, she hadn't been for years and she never would be. She was buried somewhere deep inside of herself and she was trapped under lies and confusion. Brooke lived with the memory of her best friend, a memory that would live forever. Peyton had died in the car with her mother and she would only be her again when she had her mother back. The brunette looked over at the two brother's and forced herself to admit what she had known all along. "Lucas do you love her"

My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation
My God, my tourniquet
Return to me salvation

"What" Lucas was torn from his thoughts from the sudden question.

"Peyton, do you love her. I mean really love her?" the brunette stressed her words as she acquired the attention of both brothers.

"Yes I really love her. I'd do anything for her." Lucas answered and his tears began to fall harder as he waited for Brooke to continue.

"If you love her then let her go." As soon as the words left Brooke's parched lips Nathan looked into the room to find a straight green line stretched across the black screen, and a constant ringing hummed in all their ears.

-Okay the song was My Tourniquet by Evanescence. I know i havent updated in a while but that was really long so hopefully that makes up for it.