Lucas continued to stroke Peyton's back in an attempt to comfort her but it didn't do anything for her. Peyton let the warm tears pour from her eyes and all she could feel was a sense of relief. That wasn't what she was hoping for though, what she wanted was to feel that happiness again. Aggravation ran through her causing the tears to fall harder. Peyton pulled away from Lucas and his eyes grabbed hold of her. She wanted nothing more then to feel that fire burning inside her, driving her mind and body insane. But there was no fire to burn behind her eyes and no heat to radiate form her body, it was all gone.

Lucas watched her and she seemed to look right through him. He watched as the tears suddenly yielded and the blonde in front of him blinked back the stinging pain in her eyes. She looked at him intently, silently begging him to save her and make her feel whole. Lucas used his thumbs to wipe away the water from under her bright red eyes. "Lucas..." he could barley hear her as she spoke in a childlike voice, worried and unsure. His eyes connected with hers confirming that he heard her. "I don't want this anymore" She tore her head out of his hands as a single tear slipped from her eyes and traveled down her pale cheeks and she gazed down at her floor.

"You don't have to" Lucas placed his hand under her chin and lifted her head back up. She looked at him briefly and he could see the guilt she harbored inside of her. He instinctively leaned in and kissed her softly, letting his lips linger dangerously close to hers after he pulled away. He waited for her response and he welcomed the gentle kiss she supplied him with moment later. AS she pulled away her eyes lingered on the floor again, leaving Lucas confused.

"Why can't I feel it? Why can't I have any of it back?" She question in and hushed voice. "I can remember it all but that's all it ever is, a memory. I want more then that, and I can't find it." She looked into his face and saw the hurt he held buried behind blue eyes. She was partially the cause for that pain, he was hurting simply because she was. She wanted that, she wanted to feel pain because Lucas did. "I remember the way you taste and what it was like to be in your arm and feel pure bliss. I know what it was like to feel my heart race from the simplest of things, from words just because you said them a certain way. I know how it felt but I can't feel it now. No matter what I do I can't get any of it back Lucas. I wanna know what its like to be in love again. I see the way Haley and Nathan look at each other and you look at me the same way, but I don't. It used to give me the most amazing feeling in the world just looking into your eyes and now there's nothing."

Peyton looked completely defeated as she drooped her shoulders and closed her eyes. She felt Lucas lips on hers and his tongue danced along the edge of her thin lips. She soon found her back pressed against the carpet and she opened her mouth accepting his invitation. His tongue traced her bottom lip and slipped slowly into her mouth before he hoisted himself up on his arms and broke the kiss. Peyton opened her eyes but closed them again as she felt his warm breath along her neck. She could feel his lips lightly skim her skin but never actually touch her. Her hands snaked around his neck but before she could pull him further down he pulled away from her grasp causing her to grow frustrated. He leaned on his knees and grabbed her wrists, pinning them to the floor above her head and preventing her from attempting to pull him down again. He let his hands slide gently down her arm and her arms slowly slid back down to her sides and the remained staring into each other's eyes the entire time. Lucas's hands traced the curve of her stomach and his head soon rested next to hers as he took in the intoxicating scent of her hair. He leaned closer to her ear, his breath growing gradually heavier. "You can't make yourself fall in love, but you can't stop it either. It just happens, and you can't control it."

Lucas pushed himself off of Peyton and stood next to her. She sat up and gazed up at him not understanding how he could make her sick with anticipation and then just get up. Lucas reached for her hand and she accepted it, hoping for some kind of explanation. He pulled her into him and trailed kisses along her neck as she threw her head back in a new sense of pleasure. "I love you Peyton, and I will never stop loving. You'll have my heart until the day I die and even then you'll still have me. I'll be there for you as long as you'll let me and if you ever let me go, I'll still be there for you. I will always be watching over you and I'll always be there to keep you safe. I don't need you to love me back, all I need is for you to trust me and know that I'm there. All I ask of you is to know that I always have a shoulder available for you to cry on and if you just need someone to sit there with you I can be that person too. You don't have to talk to me if you don't' want to but I'm always there to listen. You have my heart Peyton and all I can do is wait for the day when I have yours." Lucas pulled back and kissed Peyton lightly on the lips. As he broke the kiss his eyes lingered on her momentarily before he turned and walked towards the door.

Seconds later Lucas felt Peyton's lips pressed against his and her arms were wrapped tightly around his neck. His own arms soon wrapped themselves around her waist and pulled her closer to him. Peyton pulled back and Lucas watched as tears fell slowly form her eyes. "You have my heart Lucas. You have all of me and right now that scares me but it doesn't matter. I came to the edge of a cliff and at the bottom was you and I just jumped but I don't know what happens now. What happens after I've fallen? What happens when I place my heart in your hands and I give you everything I can? I don't know the answers but I'm willing to take the chance because it feels right." Peyton leaned in and kissed Lucas again. "I love you Lucas and right now that all that matters to me. The sky could come crashing down tomorrow and I wouldn't care because I found you and I know what it feels like to be in love with you and as long as I have that I'll be okay." The tears continued to fall from her hazel eyes but they were filled with happiness just as she was.

Lucas smiled down at her and he leaned down and kissed her passionately. He stepped forwards and Peyton felt as if she were floating as she felt herself moving backwards. The two blondes fell back onto the bed and Lucas rolled onto his back, pulling Peyton as close to him as possible. As she sat upright he lifted her shirt over her head and she immediately brought their lips back together and they both gave into their desires.

Lucas woke up late that night to find an empty space beside him. He looked around but he didn't' see Peyton anywhere. "Peyton" he called out as he pulled his boxers over his bare legs. He shivered as he stood from the bed and he wrapped is arms around himself as he walked to the computer desk and shut the window. He wiped the sleep from his eyes as he moved towards the bathroom. He knocked on the closed the door and he felt nervous when there was no answer. He opened the door slowly, fearing what he would find on the other side.

Lucas didn't know whether to be relieved or worried when he found the bathroom empty. He took one last look around before he closed the door and went back into the empty room. "Peyton..." he called slightly louder as he walked out into the deserted hall but there still was no response. He sighed as he headed down the stairs and into the living room. He looked around the room but all he found were the cushions sitting on the two couches. He walked into the dark kitchen with the slight hope that she would be in there. He wasn't surprised when all that was in there was a humming refrigerator. He shook his head and his worry continued to grow as he walked around downstairs, but Peyton wasn't down there.

Lucas made his way back upstairs and walked down the hall and looked in each room but he still didn't find Peyton. Normally he would have just figure she had left and gone home but this time they were already at her house and he couldn't think of where she would go in the middle of the night. Lucas developed a knot in his stomach as he neared the last room in the hall. It was the baby's room and he hadn't been in there since the day he broke down crying in Haley's arms. He didn't want to go in there because he didn't want to remember the pain, he had had enough pain for one day. Regardless Lucas pushed the slightly cracked door open and peered into the room. Memories didn't flood back to him as he caught sight of Peyton sitting solemnly in the rocking chair just like she had been the last day he had been in the room. He walked over to the curly blonde and was felt a tear slide down his cheek as he watched her sleep. He looked down at her hands which were clutching the name book they had looked at every night since they had it. Lucas bent down next to Peyton and he could see her shivering slightly in his shorts and t-shirt.

He wiped the tears that had slid down her face. He bit his lip as he stood up and walked back into the empty hallway. Lucas pulled a blanket down from the closet and went back into the room. He spread the warm comforter over her shivering frame and made sure that she was completely covered before he leaned down and kissed her forehead. Lucas gave her one last look before he turned and walked back into Peyton's room.