Summery: Martel's thoughts on Kalas' betrayal shortly before she goes to see Xelha in the Imperial Fortress.

Disclaimer: Nope. Don't own Baten Kaitos or the song Dawn from .hack/SIGN.

I'm…shocked. How could he? We've been together for so long, been through so much together. We were a team. We worked and fought so well together, always side by side. So how could he even dream of casting aside our bond like that, and siding with Melodia? I just don't understand. The Kalas I first met…he wasn't anything like that.

I'm always yearning after that strong, shining glance

Even if tears soak my cheeks, that's surely not weakness

I was surprised to learn that he cast a memory-forgetful spell on me. Its no wonder things had been so hazy to me for so long. It was all because of Kalas and Melodia. And he said he trusted me, was grateful for me being with him. I remember him telling me that all the way back in Pherkad, just as our journey together truly began. And now, he's carelessly thrown all that away. As if it had never mattered to him, as though it had all been a lie from the very beginning. But I'm sure it mattered to him, at some point. I'm sure it still does, someone within him…

Don't sometimes count what you can't do, you should just walk

Darkness is not absolute. I, of all people, should know that. Darkness can be defeated, even if it seems impossible. The thing is, nothing's impossible. So I know its possible to save Kalas. It must be! I don't believe that we were bonded together simply because of some whim. I'm sure it was because Destiny dictated it. So that makes it my duty to save him, rejoin with him. I'm his Guardian Spirit, whether he likes it or not! Its unnatural for us to be apart before the right time. Its not time for us to be apart. There's still something we must accomplish first.

There is no night that will continue forever, even if it's in the rain

Though it's little by little, the scent of elapsing wind goes changing

Yes, the path is continuing

Everything in this world echo's. Even my thoughts, unvoiced, seem to echo inside my mind. This isn't where I want to be. But…where else can I go? Kalas…he won't accept me back. Not yet. There must be someone who will take me until I can return to Kalas. Well…any of our companions, I'm sure would take me along, but it has to be the right person. Someone who loves Kalas as much as I do! Someone who cares for him and can understand him as much as I can and do! But who fits that description?

Because I can never let go of such a sorrow as "good-bye"

Even if the sunset brings darkness and comes, I'm not disheartened

I know that they all love him in their own ways but, it has to be a special kind of love. They all care for him in their own ways, but that too has to be a special type of caring. As for understanding him as well as I do…well, whoever seems to get along best with him I suppose would be that person. Now that I think about it, that would have to be Xelha. He, I think, trusted her the most out of all our companions. And I'm sure she's more than just half in love with him. Yes. Then its settled. I'll have to contact Xelha.

We don't have to think anything like 'let's fight all by ourselves'

I call to her softly, following her distinct aura through the world. It leads me to the heart of the Imperial Fortress in Alfard. Quietly, I call, but she finds its difficult to hear me, much less answer. But I won't give up! I refuse to allow Kalas to be swallowed by darkness and our friends to be most likely sacrificed to Malpercio! I won't let it happen! I must, therefore, save Xelha, and together we will save our friends and then Kalas! Please Kalas, Xelha, everyone! Hold on! Everything will be fine…

When the stars in the sky are fading weakly and we're about to lose sight of them

Surely a little after…it'll come in a little bit; that is the arrival of dawn

In this world that continues to anywhere, I'm looking at you

Who are about to fly even now, I'm holding brilliant feelings and looking at you here

Yes, I am always near you

I call her name again. I'm now in the same room as her. She's sobbing, unable to control her sorrow. It breaks my heart that Kalas could cause such pain, yet, it is to be expected. Everyone has a dark side. I suppose that's what Melodia used to make Kalas so evil. That must be what she used to her advantage. She must have played on his anger and resentment and sorrow…she must have used those to turn Kalas to such evil and drastic measures. And when he was touched by Malpercio's light, his dark side completely took over. That just makes me more determined to save him! We've got to!

Besides, there's no darkness that cannot be defeated by the light.

There is no night that will continue forever, even if it's in the rain

Thought it's little by little, the scent of elapsing wind goes changing

In this world that continues to anywhere, we two can hold hands and go walking

Because such a miracle as that is watching over us,

We don't have to be afraid anymore

I actually had a hard time starting this one out. I planned to do the Spirit next, so that's what I did. Thought, I didn't expect it to be so hard to write. But, I think it turned out nicely, so I hope you all enjoyed it too.

Reviewer Responses

Karina Gomez: Really? You liked it? Yay! I'm glad. I loved writing it, so I'm glad you liked it. Actually, XP I like them both. Preferably, I'd say Xelha, but I like both of those pairings a lot. Yes, but more after Mithos' sister Martel (she's like my very favourite character), not the goddess Martel who guards the revived Giant Kharlan Tree (though I like her a lot too). Hm, next I might do either Lyude or Mizuti, I think. Not sure which yet XD Who do you think I should do next?

Luv2Game: Thanks muchly! I'm glad you enjoyed it.