Summery: Lyude's thoughts on Kalas' betrayal.

Disclaimer: As previously stated, I do not own Baten Kaitos. Wish I did, but I don't…-puts it on her Christmas List XD- And I also do not own the song Yubiwa from the anime Escaflowne (I love Esca too XD I have the entire manga series.)

Even though this room is multicoloured, it feels like a dark prison. Right now, the swirling colours or pink and purple, blue and green…they mean nothing to me. All I can see is darkness. Even the torches seem to flame only dimly, casting a dull light on the path leading to me. They give off no warmth, so I feel even colder. I feel weak and useless. I couldn't save anyone. I, who wants to believe that I am strong, could not do anything. And now, we've all been caught, thrown into prison, and Kalas is probably sitting with Melodia, laughing at our fate over a glass of wine.

As my tears keep overflowing one after another,

I can' t see your last smile through their blur

Please don't go, please don't go…Stay here

Light bursts through the sky

It hurts. Despite his lack of trust in me, I trusted Kalas. I didn't think he'd ever do something like that because of his lack of trust. He seemed so careful with who he trusted and who he did not. I admire that in him. So…how could he do that to us? Hurt us all so deeply? It just seems…so out of character for him. So strange. But I cannot change anything now. Even if I were not chained to this thing, I could not change anything. It is beyond the power of mortal's to change the past. Yet still…there is a part of me that wants to believe that Kalas isn't evil. Not fully. That part of him, while he's sitting there with Melodia, is trying to escape her evil magic.

Even this insignificant me

Loved you more than anyone, with all my soul

Thank you for all of

The precious feelings

You've given me

I've always been told that strength is power. How many people fall to you is a sign of your immense strength--or the lack of it. But, as I travelled with Kalas and Xelha, Gibari and Savyna, and little Mizuti…I realized that strength comes in many forms. Its not just how many people fall to your weapon. Strength can be many things. Love, kindness, optimism, faith…so many things. So what is my strength? I know I can be strong…but in what? What make me strong? I need to know I have a strong talent I can use to protect those I love…those I want to keep close. Those I want to save.

"When you took off, I was

Watching for a long time as the vapour trail disappeared."

The fire's…they seem brighter. Warmer. The colours, they seem brighter, more meaningful. Could it be simply because I am being true to myself? Giving way to my innermost thoughts? Perhaps. It makes me feel good inside, to recognize these feelings within myself. I know I'm an emotional person, and all my life I had been ashamed of that. I had always been told that feelings and emotions made a person weak. Men, and soldier's besides, should never cry, no matter what. Emotions made a person weak, vulnerable. But now I see that, just like strength comes in many forms, a person cannot be strong if they hide away what they feel inside. A whole army could lay slain at one person's feet, but if they show no emotion and act indifferent, what do all those bodies mean? It merely shows cruelty on the warrior's part.

Please don't forget,

You're not alone

Even if we're apart, we can still carry on hand-in-hand

As we travelled together, I also realized that a person cannot be strong if they shun others. No one is an island, some man once said. Its quite true. As strength comes in many forms, as emotions make a person strong, you must also be able to interact with other people, not be afraid to show what you feel or say what's on your mind. If you are the warrior, and you shun people, you are weak. No one should have to fight alone. No one should ever think that, or ever scorn help when it is offered. People help make each other strong. People are not meant to live alone, and shun all the world.

With my first love, I first realized

That there could be such sorrow

It seems like the torches suddenly flare with new life. The colours swirl with new purpose. I feel a little better. I can feel a small flare of hope inside me. Perhaps someone will come to rescue me. Perhaps then, I'll be able to discover just what my true strength is. It is hard for someone to see their own strength because all they ever see is their own faults. Could that perhaps have happened to Kalas? Was his grief so all-consuming that all he could see since then was his faults? Is that why he betrayed us for power? That must be it, or part of the reason, for nothing else really would make sense. I feel so sorry for Kalas…if that is the case.

Even if something lapses away, something will

Live once again

When you gave me a smile as we parted, it was

Your message for me

To truly live with all my heart

I'm going to try and not give up hope then. Kalas will need all of us there in order to save him. We're all going to have to use our own strengths to show him his. Surely that will bring him back to us. Surely Melodia's hold over him will crumble then. She's the warrior standing at the head of the slain army. She's the lone general who killed that whole army. The indifferent warrior who shows no emotion and shuns all people who wish her well. She is the weak warrior who has only skill in slaying her enemy. But skill is nothing if you cannot pair it up with anything else. You cannot be strong with skill alone. Its just how the world works.

I just know that we'll see each other someday,

If we're together,

Even if we're far apart, we can gaze in each other's eyes

Lets bet everything on all our hopes and dreams

This room…it was so cold and dark before. Now its bright and warm. Now its filled with hope for the future. I smile a small smile. It is a start to the end of the battle's to come. It will light our way to the very end. Its strength in a tangible form. My hope will start from this room. I must be patient. It may take a while for Xelha to rescue me, but I can wait. I know that I'm not alone. No one is. So I'll just wait, and soon enough, everything will be okay. I'll be able to protect those close to me. I chuckle now. To think, I went from such sorrow and despair, to such light and hope. I hope Kalas can also feel this experience. Its truly a wonderful feeling.

Lets promise each other

That we'll hold on to the intensity we felt

That day,

And live the future that blooms

In tomorrow

So how'd you like that? I like Lyude a lot, and I kinda got the feeling he'd feel pretty bad after what Kalas did, so I tried to write that. Reading it over, I kinda get the feeling I accidentally put some Lyude/Kalas fluff in it XPP Anyone else get that feeling?

Anyway, I dunno who to do next. I found a song for Savyna while I was looking for Lyude's, but I can't decide whether to do her or Gibari or someone else altogether. I'm very indecisive huh? Well anyway…

Reviewer Responses

Fan Fan Girl: XDDDD Oh yeah, I should do him sometime. Just for a laugh XD That would be highly amusing to write. XDD you did? Awesome. Yeah, I like Martel a lot, so since I just finished ToS again, I decided to use Martel :) Colette is my second favourite. XD Yeah, that would be a problem sometime wouldn't it. Ah well x)

Folon rules:Thanks! It was so hard XP I kept wanting to write like I did Lyude's and Xelha's. I know x.x She's so irritating. -Strangles her- Ahem. Anyway, moving on XD

Karina Gomez:LoL yes XP Though, I did deliberately choose a short song. Yep, she's just too cute not to love. XPPP I was surprised what she looked like when her mask cracked. Yeah, I haven't beaten it either. I'm still trying to kill Malpercio for the final time XP He won't freaking die x( I know x.x It took me forever to beat them.