Summery: Kalas' thoughts about his betrayal to his friends.

Disclaimer: I own nothing. Not Baten Kaitos and certainly not the song Kuroi Tsuki (Dark Moon) from the anime Fushigi Yuugi.

I've done it. I've betrayed them. I've separated myself from Martel, and I've bathed in the light of Malpercio. I've received more power than I could ever have wished for. I've finally gained all that I ever wanted. All I thought I'd ever need. It took so long to get this far, so much secrecy on my part. So much lying. Was it painful? Its hard to remember. But…what does it matter now? I've accomplished what I set out to do…so why is there this emptiness within me?

A hollow laugh reaches my ears, echoing from the darkness

Alone, I wander around in the deep maze

I suppose it was hard to lie to them. All of them. I don't think I wanted to, it was simply something I had to do. If I didn't lie, didn't withhold it, I never would have gotten to where I am. Nothing would have worked out. This is what I wanted, right? So why do I have all these second thoughts? I can't understand it, no matter how hard I try to. I have all I want. I have power. Surely that is all I need to survive. I don't really need them, Xelha and the others, do I? I don't really need Martel's company, do I?

A faint hope, withered flowers…

The swirling flames drive me mad

I feel so different! Power courses through my veins now, and I have real wings now. No one can any longer make fun of me. They can't call me 'One-wing' anymore. They can't say I was born with a malformed heart. They can't say I'm tainted. I have real wings now. Beautiful, sparkling, white wings! No one can degrade me anymore. I'm whole now, aren't I? I have my wings, and I have power. I don't really need anything, or anyone, else now, do I? Besides, after what I did, surely they wouldn't think of trying to continue our 'friendship' would they?

A dark moon engulfs me

I can't sense anything

As it tears my body to shreds

And takes me away, deep into the waves

But, deep down, I still feel incomplete. It baffles me. What more do I need? Am I not whole now? What am I missing? Is it…her? Martel? No…it…can't be. I mean, we were close, I won't deny it. And I did enjoy her company, I really did. But I don't need her anymore, do I? Its not like we were meant to be together like that…were we? We weren't meant to be bonded for a longer time…we were? I was meant to turn out this way, wasn't I? This was all meant to happen…wasn't it? And its not like I really need to have Xelha near right? I was almost as close to her as I was to Martel but…I don't need her either, do I?

Shards of glass, sinking into your cold stare

Doll of stone, you were changed…

Do I…miss them? All of them? Is that why I feel so…alone, yet un-alone? I mean, I have Melodia, and there's Malpercio. Who else do I need? Ah! Her face now, it comes to mind so brightly! Yeah, I miss her…but do I need her nearby? I don't understand. I have the power I craved. I have my wings. I feel so different, so much more…vibrant. Yet, there's something still missing. I'm still not quite whole. Its something I had, but its gone now. Its left a deep emptiness in me…

As my heart burned,

The thoughts that couldn't reach you scattered in pieces

The power flows through me, and even though its painful, I love the feel of it. The warmth it gives me. With this kind of power, who needs anything else? Surely this power will block out this strange emptiness…surely it will make it go away. I…really hope so. Its eating away at me the more I dwell on it. No! I won't let it! No! I'm so powerful! No emptiness can stop me! No emptiness will destroy me. Yes…my power can blot it out, but it cannot substitute…for her light.

A dark moon engulfs me,

To the far side of memory

With dried-up eyes, I see a faint vision of you

The vision beckons me to the faraway sea

It will all be over soon. This emptiness will vanish once I have vanquished them. It is now my duty to vanquish them. I have no choice, and I will not back down from it. I can feel them…they come ever so close. They've defeated Fadroh, and they shall be here any minute now. I'm ready. I long to see them again, and I long to win against them. I long to test my newfound power against someone worthy. So far, only they are worthy. They will not disappoint me. Oh no, they won't. They are too skilled for that. Yes…it will all be over soon.

For there is no return from the darkness to the light.

A dark moon engulfs me

I can't sense anything

As it tears my body to shreds

And takes me away, deep into the waves

Yes! Finally, I had to time to update. I had so much to do lately, that I didn't have time to finish this (it sat, unfinished, for almost a week and a half now I think…). I had like three tests or more this past week, and a French project due Tuesday that has to be memorized, another French assignment to be memorized for Monday, and a Civics assignment for Monday. Plus, I have a ton of math homework. Its terrible x.x So much to do, so little update time.

So anyway, I am better now (other than a cough) and even so, I can't say when I'll have a chance to update next. I'll to update sooner but who knows. So anyway, after Geldoblame, I'll do them all over again after Kalas comes back to them. How's that sound?

Reviewer Responses

Karina Gomez: Nah, it wasn't XP Awww v.v that's too bad. That happened to me too, for a few years I never had many friends either XP Anyway, I hope Kalas turned out a little better. He wasn't much easier XP I felt kinda depressed writing it, so I'm not sure how well it turned out.

Luv2Game:XDD Yeah, he does. Weird. Maybe they're long lost twins XDDD -ahem- Really? I didn't think Savyna turned out so well, but I'm glad you liked it. I know eh? Colds suck x.x Heh heh nope. When I posted that, it was Thanksgiving. I live in Canada, and we celebrate it before Halloween XD It confuses people sometimes…

lugiamania:Yeah, there aren't many about them. They are kinda hard to write though, so that may be why…oh well. I'm glad you enjoyed them :)

BlueCresentMoon999: Yay! Thanks you! I can't wait to do happy ones. These sad ones make me sad XP XDD yes, I'm gonna start it soon. Gotta find a song first though, XDDDD