CHAPTER 3: HAPPY DREAMS

Authors note: Poor Kaiba. Now he feels that he was alone all along. Mokuba's death in this chapter symbolizes the growth in Seto's heart that will allow him to let others in along with other possibilities. In the next chapter more will be revealed about the experiences that Seto will be going through. Hope you like this one cause it'll be short. After this chap only two more chapters to go.

After an hour under the poplar tree conversing with Serenity Wheeler, Kaiba retired to his bedroom, free of Blue, the Siamese kitten ate and slept soundly in the room with Serenity.

"If it isn't Old man Mouto and Ishizu." He laughed feeling his temper come back full force at the sight of the beautiful Egyptian woman. "What lies have you this time for me?"

"Kaiba…I heard of your brothers' death." Mouto said with a sincere look of sadness in his old eyes.

"As have I." Ishizu seemed unaffected as she continued. "Kaiba the rift has been opened. I had foreseen it years before I gave the millennium necklace to Yugi, and now I think that you need to understand."

Kaiba was outraged. His brother wasn't even dead for a full twenty-four hours and already he was hearing lies. He just wanted to sleep, he didn't want to believe any of this.

"Get out."

Ishizu stepped forward. "Kaiba you need to understand-"

"Out!" He pointed to the door. "I don't need to hear about your lies. I've lost the only person that cared for me in my life and here you are, ready to try and trick me with your fabrications." He looked at them but Mouto only answered before their departure.

"The 'Circle' can only be opened when the past is left to be mended by those who caused the rift. Be careful Kaiba, don't let yourself get lost within the past."

It wasn't as bad as the first time. The headache wasn't worse than before and he was only lost in time and space but a moment before again going into the past.

"My love." Serena whispered against my naked chest as she hugged me tighter. Her small body was pressed against mine under the cool silk sheets of my bed at Hawk Manor. For months we danced around this, kissing in secret. I am a patient man for having waited for so long, my love for her only blinded me of what was not important and showed me what truly mattered.

"My dear, I've longed to hear you say that." I smirked at her. "But I would not mind to hear "My darling prince" from your lips."

She did not laugh and became very serious. Her brown eyes were slit and her breathing became shallow.

"What ails you my darling?" I asked her. "Are you not content in being with me this fine day, is it that you wish the afternoon undone?"

She shook her head and stared deep within my eyes. "Oh Seth, what will happen when my father promises me in marriage to another man? What happens to our love then?"

I had dreaded this thought. Serena was beautiful and caring. Prim, nonetheless, but all the men wanted her as a wife and woman in their bed. I had been one of many, but only I had been the one to steal her heart. I was her first love as I was also her first lover.

"I will marry you myself." I kissed her slick forehead. "We will not lose each other." I said and believing it myself. Though I was far above her station by several notches I was Seth Lucian Kyle, and I did as I wished. I would marry the woman that I loved, with her fathers consent or no. She would never marry a man she didn't love and share a bed she didn't want.

Seto awoke alone in his bed. The light that poured in through the opened window cast eerie shadows across his bed. He sat up and rubbed his tired eyes.

"Another damn dream…" Seto said as he removed his shirt and rubbed his chest. "A nightmare."

He sighed, throwing himself on the bed. The dream with the girl. That girl reminded him so much of…he dared not think of her name, or try to think of her radiant smile. He felt guilty because, when he thought of her, he didn't feel as much pain. He felt that he deserved this pain in his heart. He felt that the only reason for his existence was for his brothers' sake and now that Mokuba was dead, he had no more reason to live. What was his purpose now?

"Damn it."

"What's so wrong of dreaming?"

Seto looked towards the door where a shadowed figure stood leaning against the door. He could not see the features of the stranger but felt no animosity of fear towards it.

"Who are you?"

The figure was silent.

"Why are you in my house?"

The figure stepped forward.

"I have come to show you the truth, whether you believe is up to you." It threw a parcel to him. "Whether or not you want to see is up to you as well."

Seto took the red parcel and emptied the bag, it contained a silver band.

"What is this?"

The figure emitted a strange eerie glow.

"Seto Kaiba…do you wish to see the truth?"

Seto didn't know what to say so he only shook his head. He began to glow an eerie red and then he and the figure were gone.

"Where are we?"

They were in a dark place. He could not see in front of him, above him, or below, he could only hear his own whispers and his heart beat.

"We are in your soul, Seto Kaiba."

Kaiba almost laughed but then there was a small child laughing. He followed the sound and saw himself as a child with a woman. His heart raced as he saw himself and his mother.

'Mama.' The younger version said. 'Can I pick the new baby's name?'

'Of course sweetheart.'

"What is this?" Kaiba asked. "What the hell are you showing me?"

"I am showing you your past." The figure pointed to his mother. "The first time you accepted your brother was while he was still in the womb, though a bit late don't you think?"

Kaiba laughed.

"I know a week before he was born I finally accepted that I would be a big brother."

"Your mother was glad."

"She made me swear to never turn my back on him." Kaiba looked at his mother. "I worked hard to make him happy."

The vision switched to battle city.

"You always sacrificed your happiness for your brother."

Kaiba saw himself sitting at the computer, trying to decipher the ancient text on the Ra card while Mokuba slept soundly, covered by his brothers white coat.

"His devotion never wavered; his love grew stronger as he watched you become the brother that he once knew."

"I did it all for his sake." Kaiba's eyes narrowed to 'himself'. "Though there were things that I was obsessed with before, like those cards, but my brothers' happiness was my highest priority."

"Then why, brother, why did you shove your own feelings aside for mine?"

The cloaked figure removed the hood from his head to reveal a pale Mokuba. The boys' eyes seemed like sheep, his tanned skin was now a pale white, and under his eyes he had dark circles, as though he hadn't slept for days.

"Mokuba…but you're dead." Kaiba said in disbelief.

Mokuba smiled at his brother then made the vision change to when they were in the orphanage. Mokuba was outside, looking past the fence into the sunset.

"Do you remember this?" He asked his older brother.

Kaiba smiled.

"I do."

They stopped talking as a mini Kaiba came forward, smiling happily, holding something behind his back.

'Moki, what are you doing here all alone?'

The little Mokuba sighed.

'I was just thinking big brother.' He turned around to find a small present with bright blue wrapping paper on it. 'Seto?'

'Happy birthday!'

"I had thought that you'd forgotten." Mokuba said.

"I would never forget such an important day."

The little Mokuba unwrapped his present to reveal a Duel Monster action figure.

'It's just what I wanted!' Little Mokuba hugged the toy then his brother. 'Thank you, thank you, Seto!'

Mokuba stopped the vision.

"You never told me that you wasted all of what you had saved to buy that for me."

Kaiba smiled.

"The only reason I worked so hard for that money was to buy you that toy."

"You could have bought something for yourself, why didn't you? I would have understood."

"I wanted to make you happy."

Mokuba restarted the vision, to later that day, where little Kaiba snuck out of the orphanage to a close by neighborhood where a little girl with long brown hair and big brown eyes waited for him.

'You came!'

'Of course I did, you think I would forget?'

"What is this Mokuba?"

'Set-Set, my bestest friend.' The girl hugged little Kaiba. 'I can't believe this will be the last time we see each other.'

"She left the next day, didn't she?" Mokuba asked.

Kaiba said nothing as he saw himself, years before, hand the little girl a sunflower.

'Set-set…cant you tell me your real name?' The girl asked, leaning her head on his shoulder, holding her sunflower.

'It doesn't matter now; you're leaving and never coming back.'

'Never say never Set-Set! But you're right, it's too late now.' She sighed. 'I guess I won't tell you my real name either.'

'Guess not Ren.'

"Ren."

The vision disappeared.

"You never did see her again, right big brother?"

Kaiba drew on his lip.

"No."

Mokuba looked indifferent.

"Yeah you did, you just don't know it yet!" He looked at his older brother. "You've known her longer than you've known me; you've known her for two previous life times. Kisara, Serena, and now…I don't have permission to tell you who she is now, but you're smart Seto, you'll figure it out in the end."

"Why are you here Mokuba, I thought that…"

Mokuba looked at his brother with his dead eyes.

"I'm here because, you won't let me go."

Kaiba shook his head.

"I didn't have a choice whether or not to let you go."

"Wrong!" Mokuba said. "You haven't let me go yet brother."

"But you're dead."

Mokuba touched his brothers' hand, it was so cold, and he smiled sadly.

"For my own rest, I have to ask you to let me go."

Kaiba pulled back.

"I've held on for so long, I don't know how to let you go."

The brother stared at one another.

"I understand your loyalty to me and your promise to mother, but like her, you have to let me rest in peace. I'm not alive, I'm a ghost, a spirit that you're refusing to let rest."

Kaiba brushed back his tears.

"When did you become so articulate?"

Mokuba laughed.

"When you're like this, so many things become clear." He paused. "Like your devotion to me, and your needs that you so carelessly pushed aside."

"Then what is all this that you're showing me?"

"It's about your visions of Seth, your other life. It's necessary to see these things, to accept your destiny and to remember an old promise that you forgot all those years ago, but brother, please…" He shut his eyes. "Let me go."

Kaiba held his brother in his arms, tightly like the day Mokuba had died. He cried like he cried when his brother died and when he realized when he was truly alone.

"Rest with mom and dad, Moki. I'm letting you go."

The silence that befell them was defining but Kaiba refused to break it, he clung to his brother and only moaned as he hugged him tighter and looked bereft. Mokuba became warm again, his skin was tanned and the circles under his lively love filled eyes we gone. The dark room turned bright and the air was warm welcoming. Mokuba stepped back from Kaiba.

"Mom and dad are waiting for me, I'll wait for you too, Seto."

"Goodbye." Seto said. He woke up alone, in his dark room.