Summary: Melodia lost her hold on Kalas, so what are her thoughts on the situation?
Disclaimer: I do not own Baten Kaitos nor the song Solitude from the anime Saiyuki.
Damn! Damn it all! How could that happen? How could he ever even think of returning to those insignificant bugs? After all the lengths I went to in order to get him to join me! I set up all the circumstances they found themselves in. From the shadow's, I set up traps to keep their bonds of trust and friendship low, perhaps non-existent. I thought that if I did that, their friendship and trust would never survive! But it appears that I was wrong.
Searching for the meaning, my wounds opened again,
Although I know there are no answers
He craved power after the loss of his brother. He wanted to kill Giacomo, cause him as much pain as he possibly could, in revenge for his brother and grandfather's death's. So overcome by grief, it was easy to manipulate him into doing my will. He was on a string tied around my finger. He was in the palm of my hand! And somehow, he managed to slip through my fingers, as though he was never there! How could I let such a thing happen? How could I let my grip slip, and give him the opportunity to escape?
Though its just one bullet,
The searching me
What do I want to see?
I simply don't understand how it could be possible for him to leave. He left all the power I granted him and walked away. He threw away the beautiful, white wings I gave him and returned to having to use a mechanical one. Why would he do that, when he could have had real wings, true power? What kind of person would throw away power that they had held in their hands? He wanted power, he wanted to cause pain. So how could he betray me like this?
The crimes are engraved, I'm burdened by punishments, if I sleep,
Only lies are being carved
He shall pay dearly for defying me. For betraying me. No one gets away with such actions. I shall punish him in the ultimate way. A way from which he cannot possibly escape from, return from. I'll make sure of that. Not even a Child of the Earth could bring him back. Oh no. He'll never return when I am through with him. From darkness to light…you cannot cross. Once you are in darkness, you cannot escape it. I will lock him into eternal darkness.
With tranquility and smiles,
I pulled the trigger,
Since that day
If he will refuse to help me, I shall dispose of him. When someone becomes useless to me, I rid myself of them. Or, if I am lucky, someone will do it for me. But Kalas is special. He shall have the honour of dying by my hand. I will personally see to his demise. My cold smile shall be the last thing he sees. My shrill laugh will always ring in his ears. The feel of my ice cold hands will forever be with him. Even in death, he will not be able to forget me. Many have died because of me, and none will ever forget me.
Can't you see? It is my solitude
If only pain is truth
Can't you see? It is my solitude
Only my solitude I can't let go of
Ah well…at least I still have Malpercio. He is all I need. I spent so many long years planning out how I would free him. All I had needed was someone to release the End Magnus for me. I couldn't risk myself. It was like someone had truly answered my prayer's when I found Kalas. I knew I could use him to release the End Magnus, and so I did. I promised him power and beautiful white wings. He accepted my offer, as I knew he would. It all fell into place so easily. Until he met that girl. Until he met her, he did everything according to my will, without question. It wasn't until he met her…
Since that day
It wasn't until he met her that he began to have a change of heart. That he began to question my ideal's, my priorities. He grew to enjoy their company, the exact opposite of what I wanted to have happen in such a situation. He wanted to be around them, he didn't want to have to harm then, as I outlined to him. Still, he did as we had planned…and somehow, he's now gone against it all! I can still remember ever so clearly the day I saw him in Nekton, the pain and sorrow in his eyes, hear the longing for revenge in his voice…
Can't you see? It is my solitude
If only pain is truth
Can't you see? It is my solitude
Only my solitude I can't let go of
He wanted revenge so much, and I was willing to give him that chance. I couldn't release the End Magnus on my own, and he was the perfect pawn to do it for me. From the shadow's, I manipulated him and chanted the proper verses every time an End Magnus was unsealed. Manipulating him was so easy, until he met her. The girl with the blonde hair who is more than she seems. When he met the Queen of Ice, I was unhappy with the situation, but I never thought it would become such a problem. I never though she would be the cause of severing his contract with me.
It cannot be saved
My soul
It cannot be saved
Of course, though she is the biggest part of the problem, I shall be fair and lay a small part of the blame on the rest of his group. The idiot fisherman, the weak soldier, the cold warrior, and the masked child. They helped in destroying his resolve to blindly kill whoever stood in his way. And, as I have said, almost the entire blame should be laid at the feet of the Ice Queen. And even, perhaps, her. The one who bonded with Kalas in Nekton. Martel.
Since that day
Much as I only want to believe that it was only the fault of the Queen of Ice, I must confess it was surely that Spirit's fault as well. One cannot be bonded with a Guardian Spirit and not have them impact their life with council. She would have been able to access every corner of Kalas' being. She would have the most knowledge, besides that of the Ice Queen, about him. She knew him best, from a most intimate point of view. She probably knew more about him than even myself. It turns out that it was an unfortunate happening that she happened to be in Nekton when Kalas was to be bonded. Once he is disposed of, then so shall she be. A Spirit cannot survive in our world if not connected with a person who needs them.
Can't you see? It is my solitude
If only pain is truth
Can't you see? It is my solitude
Only my solitude I can't let go of
Unfortunately, I cannot directly punish a Spirit. They are not physical in our world. Not everyone can hear them. Only the bonded person can fully hear their voice, and only they can reprimand the Spirit if they feel they must. Therefore, to hurt the Spirit, I must hurt her heart, which means I must hurt Kalas. This is why one should never become close to another. If they give their heart to another, then they shall be hurt when that person is attacked. Therefore, it is the perfect opportunity for me to dispose of Kalas and his Spirit at the same time. And, I may as well do so to that annoying girl too. They all deserve punishment.
Can't you see? It is my solitude
If only pain is truth
Can't you see? It is my solitude
Only my solitude I can't let go of
I have always lived in solitude, isolation. I kept my distance from all people, other than my Grandfather. Yet, I was still far from even him. I simply used Kalas, never once did I give him anything that he could use to stab me in the back with. I have been careful in my pursuits, never becoming close to anyone. That is how we survive in this world. We feed off of the poor, we command the rich. Those of us with superior talents and reach higher than anyone control the world. With Malpercio at my side, the only one who I shall bond to, I will take control of all the insignificant bugs, all the inferior peoples of the Islands in the Sky. Not even the Children of the Earth will be able to stand against me. Not Kalas, not the Ice Queen, their friends, or the Guardian Spirit.
I will punish them all. None will escape me.
It cannot be saved
My soul
It cannot be saved
And that's fine with me
It cannot be saved
My soul
It cannot be saved
And that's fine with me
Wow o.o;; I'm sorry everyone! This is nearly a week late, if my calculations are correct. Every time I started to work on it, I would be interrupted by something and have to stop. Plus, I chose such a long (yet perfectly good) song to describe Melodia with. Its so long, I began to run out of thing's to write x.x So, it is kind of repetitive. Sorry about that…hope you liked it anyway though. I think that's everyone then. So, unless you tell me I've missed someone (OTHER than Geldoblame, I'm not doing another of him) I'm going to start another collection of one-shots. Keep an eye out for that :)