Some angsty-ness. xD

Genma sat alone on a tree branch in a forest. He was done weeping and he did not want to go back to the hospital. Although he was still somewhat unstable, he did not want to return. It only gave him back the thoughts he wanted to lose.

He could sense Raidou's presence; Raidou obviously wanted to be noticed. Genma did not stir. He didn't feel too up to a conversation, but he wanted to apologize for his actions at the hospital.

Raidou hopped beside Genma on the sturdy branch and plopped his butt down on it. He let his legs dangle down and looked over to his friend as he set his hands in his lap.

"Genma...I understand how you feel...but..." Raidou sighed, shaking his head. He did not want to upset him but he didn't know how to put it.

"Raidou, I know that you know how it is. You're just...better than me...at everything." Raidou opened his mouth to say something smart, but changed his mind.
"Now you know that isn't true. You're better than me at plenty of things. You're hell of a lot better at transforming than I am. You put in precise detail! I can't believe how exact you are. When I transform, I might leave out scrapes and bruises, but you go down to the last drop of blood on their shoe. You're wonderful, Genma. And I love you. You're completely capable of doing what you want, and you let people know how you feel when you are upset. I know how pissed you are at Sand right now, I'm pissed, too. Obviously, something big is about to happen...and I want you to get out..."

Genma looked over at his friend. Trouble? In Leaf? Since how long?

"What do you think will happen?" he asked, looking down to the ground, which was mostly covered by other branches below him.

"...I think...during the Chuunin exam...something big is gonna happen, and we can't be here to wait and find out. It's months away, but..." Genma interrupted him quickly.

"Raidou, I have...have to be at the Chuunin exam...no matter what. It was placed as my duty to perform...Hayate's job...as the observer and judge in the Chuunin exam..." Tears again. He quickly wiped them away, but they kept coming. He buried his face again in his hands.

"If they knew what once went on with us..." he began to choke on his words. "...would things be different? Would I have his job like I do now? How am I going to go on with myself in his shoes? I don't want to take up his responsibilities. I don't want to be around his once stated area, where he once lingered...alive. I don't know how I'll put up with it! I can feel him around me everywhere! Every place I've gone he has always been there. I can't take it, Raidou. I can't fucking take this anymore! It was bad enough that I could hardly tell him about anything anymore because he was always gone, but now he's gone for good and I can never touch his skin again! I can't even touch a strand of his hair! Raidou, I love you, but Hayate is still in my heart and I know that you understand... I don't want you to get jealous but I can't take it! I don't want to be hurt like this..."

Raidou pulled Genma against him, an arm around him and a hand removing Genma's headband to run his fingers through his hair. It always calmed him down, and he wanted to do his best at calming him at the moment.

The sobbing eventually stopped and Genma was recovering well. Raidou hated to see him like this. It hurt him a lot. And this was the only time he has ever really seen Genma cry this much. It was horrible. He almost didn't know what to do.

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