Chapter 5...

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Jess´s POV.

I woke up the next morning to a familiar sound. I heard heels clacking on the wooden floor of the apartment. I slowly opened my eyes, making sure I was´nt dreaming it. No, click click click. There was someone running around in a hurry. I rubbed my trembles, unable to make the headache go away. I wasn´t hung over, that much I knew, but why was I feeling like this ? Then it started all coming back to me, the breakup, the heartache, the message. It suddenly hit me with all force. It was Rory running around in a hurry, it was her picking up her stuff, after all I told her I wouldn´t care if she came over. Rory was only ten feet away, picking up her life with me.

I covered my head with my pillow, trying to shut out the sun coming through the huge window of the bedroom. I took a look at the picture on the nightstand. It was one of my favorite ones we had of us.

Flashback

"Rory" I yelled as we were struggling to carry the couch up the three floors to our new apartment.

" you let it fall, you let it fall and now I can´t feel my arm anymore. You could have said something. A " hey Jess, this is too he heavy, could we please take a break" would have been really great!" I spat.

She looked at me in surprise, one eyebrow raised, head tilted to one side. Her forehead was covered in sweat and a strand of hair fell over her eye. She placed the hands on her hips and glared at me.

"there´s not need for you to yell, Jess. Really why are you yelling at me?"

I shrugged and she sighed.

" we have been arguing for four hours straight, what´s the matter with you ? You don´t doubt this whole moving in thing right now, do you ? I imean, we just carried about a thousand boxes up the stairs, not to mention the washing machine and …" I interrupted her rant with a snort

" yeah, I carried about a thousand boxes up the stairs, while you were having s chit chat with out new neighbour" I murmured under my breath.

"what is this all about, Jess?" she looked at me, and for a moment I could hear the hurt in her voice.

"Nothing", I hurried passed her, the couch that yet had to be carried one more floor forgotten.

What if it was a mistake? The moving in part, the commitment. I knew I loved her but I didn´t want to screw up. What if one day, she would have enough of me and leave?

I entered the bare apartment and sat down on the floor, breathing heavily. I knew she would be coming after me, wanting to know what was going on, why I was in this shitty mood.

I didn´t look up when she entered the apartment as well. She came over to me where I was leaning against a box full of books. She didn´t say a word, and I knew her well enoughto know that she would wait until I would break the silence. She always made me talk. She sat across from me, legs crosses in Indian style and tilted my head up with her hand.

Suddenly I was mad at myself, I did it again, I shut her out. I closed my eyes to calm myself down.

Finally I opened them again, locked eyes with her and said:

"I´m scared Rory. I don´t wanna screw this up" my voice sounded strange even to me.

"you don´t wanna screw what up, Jess? " she whispered while playing with a book that had fallen out of the box. It was "Oliver Twist"

I had to smile a bit.

"I´m scared that I´m gonna screw this up, us…" I trailed of , giving her the opportunity to complete my sentence.

"why? We´re great together, we really are, Jess. " I looked at her but not really looking at her. It took a mínute before I finally could go on.

" how do you know that I won´t screw up?" she stood and snuggled her body between my legs, her back against my chest. I began playing with her hair absently when I heard her whisper

" because you´re it, Jess. You´re always gonna be my man. And you have changed, I have changed. we´re not teenagers anymore, we´re adults here. Doing adult things " I sensed her smile although I couldn´t see her face.

"and", she continued

" because you´re my dodger! There´s only one of him!"

I kissed the back of her neck, not knowing what to say to express my feelings, so I let my actions speak. She tasted of salt and body lotion, she was driving me crazy. Between kisses I murmured into her neck .

" I" kiss " love" kiss" you". we wouldn´t say that too often. Therefore the meaning of these words whenever they were said, was overwhelming.

She turned around and leaned her forehead against mine. We were barely touching. Lips, inches apart, chests moving heavily as if we had been running. Hands resting in the laps.

"I know" was all she said because she captured my lips with hers. Soon she was lying fully on top of me, her body fitting perfectly into mine. Her little hands were playing with the hem of my shirt. She tugged on it.

"aham" someone cleared his throat.

We jumped apart, embarrassed like teenagers for being caught. Rory´s cheeks were red and she was fiddling with the sleeve of her shirt while trying to look up to the door. I smirked, the situation was just too funny.

"I´m so sorry to interrupt, but I just wanted to say hi. I´m your next door neighbor. So…. Hi"

I looked up to see a maybe midforty slim woman, her hair was greying and she was wearing jeans and a sweater. I took pity on her, the way she was standing in the door frame looking arkward.

I went up to her, extended my hand and introduced us. She shook my hand and nodded. Then she said something about tradition, pictures and now…. I couldn´t make a word out. She was rambling too fast. She turned around and went to her apartment just to come back a minute later with a camera in her hand.

" we have to take a picture of the two of you on your moving day, it´s tradition in this buiding!"

Rory , who still hadn´t said a word was the one to respond.

"uh… sure, that would be nice, thanks you!" she stuttered still not having recovered from being caught.

I opened my mouth to protest, but Rory took my hand and started to look around in the apartment. Her face lit up instantly and she dragged me with her over to the box we had been leaning against just five minutes ago. We sat down, she between my legs my hands around her waist. I leaned forward and placed mychinon her shoulder, frowning .I heard a click, I saw a flash and then it was over . Our new neighbor said good bye hastily, went out and shut the door behind her carefully.

" so" I said smirking

" where were we?" I leaned it and kissed her.

Flashback end

I took the picture from the nightstand, got out of the bed and opened the door to the living room, not caring thatI was only clad in my boxers. Afterall, it´s nothing she hadn´t seen before.I saw Rory scanning the book shelves lost in thoughts. She tensed up though when she heard me coming over to her.

I extended my arm and gave her the picture frame , making sure my hand wouldn´t touch hers , my eyes never leaving hers, not blinking once.I wouldn´t give her the satisfaction that it hurt too much to look her in the eye.

"take it, after all it was taken the day we moved in, now take it with you the day, you ´re moving out."

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next chapter: how will rory react ? will they talk ? or maybe will they make up ? stay tuned ... :-)